𝓵'𝓪𝓹𝓹𝓮𝓵 𝓭𝓾 𝓿𝓲𝓭𝓮

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“ when you told me . . i couldn’t believe that at first . i couldn’t accept that . for me , it didn’t make sense for someone like dazai - san . . to be capable of killing .” they admit , such feeling yet . . isn’t that far from the present . it could be sensed , freshly -- the denial of such yet beating in heart , “ and even when akutagawa would tell me , who have known you for years , i would defend you , and tell him he doesn’t understand . ” -- what could that such person understand of ? a man with nothing but hollow mind of any different ideals , visited so often only by thoughts of bloodsheds . . anything would come unacceptable , that is till such would be heard from the main character himself ,  “ thinking of you being in the port mafia . . it’s still hard to imagine that . ”

“ . . but my opinion about dazai - san hasn’t changed . i still think dazai - san is a good person .” doubt of such , was never brought in first place , against what possibly might’ve been expected , but such was the truth -- within self , they knew since beginning , what kind of person he is today . 

“ i don’t think what you did in the past is . . alright , or could be justified . if there was a reason behind it or not , i wouldn’t know . but , there’s one thing i’m certain about -- the person you were in the past , isn’t the same person you are today .” gemmed eventides locked sights with his , hesitation lessens for the progress made of the tale of the desirable truth -- with no lacking confidence further , wanting the brunett to hear , to take such words to mind -- what he , has taught them himself , “ a bad person wouldn’t try so hard to prove they’re good . to save the city , to save kyouka - chan , to help the agency , to save me . you gave all your strength . . you never hesitated to discard all other things . ”  the sacrifices taken of many times , the moments of putting self in danger -- enduring the pain , for the sake of gaining benefits for the agency . what kind of bad person . . could tolerate all that ? they wonder . “ and , that made me understand too , what you taught me , dazai - san . . that i’m not the helpless person that i were back then in the orphanage . i can’t erase who i was . . but i can change who i am now , i can help people . ”