y'know i should probably make an intro post at some point lol
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anyways. this isn't my only blog. and if the title and the tw tags on every post i make weren't enough to kinda make it obvious, this blog is specifically for my venting. i'm not trying to be 'emo'.
in fact, i actually just want to be happy. the problem is that my mind is far too full of thoughts and tendencies that prevent me from reaching that goal.
this blog may get more or less use, depending on how my mental state is doing, because my depression sometimes flares up and sometimes settles down.
generally it's not bad, and mostly arises at night, but sometimes it flares up and i'm in a very low mood for days on end. notably, the day before the end of each low, i regress, which i now take as a sign the dark times are ending. indeed, it's probably a coping mechanism to help dig me out of the pit, by bringing some much needed joyfulness and reprieve from the constant depression.
