take my body to sea

im sick of waking up and having (trying) to remind myself what there is to live for. people arent supposed to live like this

everything is too forgiving. why does it just keep going on. everything just keeps going no matter what. music is always there. people are always there. its confusing. its more than i deserve

too good to me. i dont deserve it. they dont deserve it

^ aim here

i am a ghost in my own life. i dont exist in any meaningful way

theres nothing i can do or want. why am i even here if my life is just void

thank you music

and fuck whoever gave me this fuckass haircut

they're all assholes for leaving. i'm an asshole for missing them while neglecting the people i still have. everyone is scum and we should all die painfully

i feel like i am always getting pulled in 5 directions at once

i feel like im drowning. i feel like i can never be who i want to be. i feel like my life isnt my own. i feel like theres no time for myself

im so tired i just want a body that looks and feels right. im so sick of pain and im so sick of feeling wrong