not the way i imagined it all in my mind

We can't make other people treat us the way we want them to, we can only decide whether or not to put up with it.

I’m still really angry about how the therapist made me feel like I shouldn’t have researched my mental health symptoms online as if they’re accusing me of misdiagnosing myself even though I made it explicitly clear that I was never trying to self-diagnose. They even went as far as using a hypochondriac person as an example as if THAT’S equivalent to what I’m fucking doing. Looking up your symptoms online is normal, almost everyone does it, yet because I was wrong about potentially having BPD, because I so much as dared to consider the possibility, she made me feel like I should not have consulted online for information to begin with. Well if I never fucking looked up why I might be feeling like shit, I would never have come to you as a therapy patient. If I don’t feel good, I want to find the root cause, and that starts with researching online, and just because I found something doesn’t mean I believe every fucking thing I read or assume everything applies to me 100%, yet that’s exactly how you made it seem like I do.