I swear by all flowers

stone butch blues… i feel tender all over if anyone touches me right now i think i’ll just start crying and crying

and you know of course it’s hard to read and i flinched many times and had to turn away due to the violent nature of certain passages, and jess’ sadness loneliness and despair are so very heavy like a physical weight on my chest, but what got to me most of all was the love contained in every word on the page. it is a sad book but it’s so much more than that. it’s a book about community and respect and resilience, an ode to the oppressed. love and hope are so vital and central to this story. and i am unable to comprehend the goodreads review talking about the weak writing because i feel like this text is so sincere and borne from the most authentic human urge to communicate something real that connects with others, that i cannot even conceive the idea of being bothered by a clichéd metaphor. when you have feelings this tangible and a passion so clear the literary quality of the language barely even matters. anyway. beautiful beautiful book.

im going to kill myself *remembers i shouldn’t say that or whatever* im going to kill the Fédération Internationale de Football Association

I love birds. Reasons for living. Little earth choir everyday are you kidding? Beautiful. Indebted and lucky for it.