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I am here now

I am a female in central America. I am honestly the most lost I have ever been. I've tried to live life differently because society is so fucking crazy. Life is about experiencing being a human, not money. But I feel as if I am deteriorating now. I don't have enough energy or money at this moment. My energy is gold, and I know how to rehabilitate it. But in this environment, it's exhausting. Money is a tool that comes and goes. I like what I can do with it, but I don't like the process of it. I desperately desire family and to live life unusual/non-conforming. I can't find the words to best articulate how I desire to live this life. I wonder if other languages have the gist of what I am trying to say. I am fine and will continue to pursue my desires, no matter how difficult, because I truly believe life should not be this way, and hopefully, I can influence another to better their experience. I am trying to build community and I don't know where to start. I need help but I don't have the money to get it professionally.

I don't know how to articulate how I feel.

I need a community that has given up on today's society but not humanity.

Empaths are the healers of the world. If society didn't purposefully disconnect humans for profit and divide us by categories, I can image people just walking about taking care of fellow humans.