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So when I realized and panicked yesterday I had texted her like, “hey, are you home?” and when she said yes, that was enough for me to immediately get on my bike. I didn’t even reply properly or explain why I was asking, I just left. And when I rang the doorbell and she opened the door, she kissed me hello and went, “What a nice surprise, I thought I wouldn’t see you until tomorrow.”

We didn’t even properly sit down before I started talking. I told her I needed to say something because I was panicking and overthinking about today.

And then yeah, I just told her everything, like I fully word-vomited all my thoughts and feelings. How this doesn’t feel casual to me, how I feel like I’m falling faster than I ever have before and find that a bit scary, how it really feels like we’re moving somewhere. How I don’t want this to just be a casual thing, and how I just want us to be on the same page. And I also told her that I needed her to know that if we weren’t on the same page, it would probably be better to step away now rather than letting it continue and getting even more attached (don't know if that's possible tho...) , because I know ending things would only hurt more later on.

She went quiet after I finished talking, kissed me, and then said: “You know it hasn’t felt 'just casual' for me since I first kissed you, maybe even since before that.”

She kissed me again and added that she knew me, and knew that I need time to process things properly, like emotionally. So she didn’t want to rush me or push me into anything before I was ready to actually say it out loud myself.

Then she playfully looked at me and went: “Also… you think I came over for dinner yesterday, met your whole family as 'not just friends', sat through all that brother chaos, stayed close to you… just for fun?”

And I had to laugh at that, because when she said it like that it did sound kind of ridiculous.

She shrugged a little, then got a bit quieter and said that yeah, it probably had all moved faster than she would’ve planned, but that it still felt really good and she really likes me. And that she felt like we were already on the same page anyway, we just hadn’t actually named it yet (just like I felt too).

And yeah… we just spent the rest of the evening cuddling. After about an hour she looked at me for a second, smiling a little like she was trying not to make it too obvious how much she liked how this was unfolding, and said she actually thought it was really cute that I was panicking about tomorrow (today), about people asking questions, and that I just got on my bike and came straight to her. “You really came all the way here just because you were overthinking it?”

And when I said yeah, she just shook her head and went, “That deserves a reward, honestly.” I remember nerously laughing because I didn’t know what she meant. And then she pulled me closer and asked very simply: “As your reward, will you be my girlfriend?”

I said yes before my brain even properly caught up.

By the time we came back down from that moment (it got a little intense 🫣), it was already close to midnight. And I had been fully planning to go home soon, but then we noticed the weather outside had shifted. Like, intense thunderstorms, lots of lightning, loud thunder, wind, not even that much rain, but wild and unsafe enough to make the idea of getting on a bike and cycling for half an hour feel unrealistic.

So I stayed for the night :))