ᨶ႒ᩚVizperia

• His literal thought process was: 'Wait... She's a boy? I'M GAY!?'

• Consulted with his parents and they both explained that yes, he was indeed gay they knew it from the start.

• "Yocchan... We knew you were into men" *insert the baby mumbling I'm gay meme(please get the reference)

• Eventually asked you out and when you accepted? He was ecstatic.

• He always kisses your whole face saying: "I'm trying to memorize your face-please stop teasing me...

o(╥﹏╥)o"

Rin Itoshi

•Surprisingly, he knew that you weren't a woman when he first saw you, albeit a little confused cuz he thought you were cross-dressing 😭

• Was pretty much in denial about his feelings, he just couldn't believe he actually fell for someone.

• He tried gaslighting himself into treating you as a friend-or like the person he actually tolerated.

• His crush was obvious, to others not him. The way his eyes would soften when he's with you, or how he just seems so calm around you was a giveaway.

• Eventually accepted his feelings and confessed, though in a very direct and rambling kind of way, was embarrassed asf when he needed to repeat it cuz he spoke too fast.

• Never told anyone that you guys where together, not even his parents knew.

• Though everyone knows you both are in a relationship because now, Rin willingly reciprocates affection and not run from it. What a win.

Sae Itoshi

• Also knew you weren't a woman.🫡

• First thought about you… Was that you were pretty for a guy.

• Well that thought definitely started to haunt him cuz every time he sees you his brain is like 'pretty.'

• For someone so cold and indifferent to love, he seemed to know he likes loves you, and he doesn't care about it… Shocking!

• Not a single soul knows he was into you except himself, so imagine the shock you have when he showed up into your dorm with your favorite flowers-asking to court you.

• A very attentive and caring partner even when he is exhausted, Trust.

• also, he's the type to just stare at your face at random times.

• his reason is so simple it hurts(good ok): "you're pretty, and I'm admiring it."

• Ps:he likes to stare at your ass when ya ain't lookin..

Michael Kaiser

• didn't think of your looks that much, at first because well… He likes his face more¯_(ツ)_/¯

• though what grated him to looking at you differently was your kindness.

• in all honesty, he thought he hated you, like irritated huffs and glaring at you kinda hate.

• why? Because he hates the weird feeling of his chest whenever your near by.

• he hated the way you still look at him kindly even when he's mean to you.

• the moment he softened, and the moment the thoughts settled down was simply seeing you so peaceful.

• maybe this time, he realized he really is born unwanted, but that doesn't mean that as he grows. Love is incapable of being with him.

• Michael Kaiser realized that he wouldn't mind love, as long as its you.

• (shii wait it's too angst) ERM… Anyways, basically the summary of your relationship with the emperor is:chaotic, honest, and seemingly one sided but no, cuz in all of his tall built, blonde hair blue tips, and rose tattoo was a walking, and talking boyfriend lover that will do anything for you… Quietly.

Note: exploring different gender reader rn I think it's going great..?

Cuties side🩷(the safe ones,all cute and dolie)

Note:Short chapter cuz I'm gonna do a proper fic soon... Also not proofread cuz I'm lazy

Isagi Yoichi

• "Was it casual when he said he would love me till he died but the next week his mom invited me to his funeral as his final wish? "

You never expected to be here, Not even once.

Standing in front of his casket felt like a fever dream, like a sad reality you can't comprehend.

He wasn't like this last week.

He was the loveable boy screaming about his dreams to you.

How he wanted to be the best striker, or how he wanted to marry someone one day.

You never noticed him looking at you when he said that.

Was there even signs?

You didn't know, but when you heard his mother-iyo's voice in your phone crying and asking for you, you broke.

Why? Why did he leave asking for you? How can he just be gone when you haven't even saw him one last time, alive, happy, and bright?

You wouldn't know.

It was casual isn't it?

Rin Itoshi

• "was it casual when the suicide note you left for me was the wedding vows you wrote the day your mom said she wouldn't mind us dating?"

You can't stop.

The letter on your hand was the last thing you have of him.

You keep rereading it until tears marked the paper.

It was his vow, his promise of love for you.

It was written when his mom said she wouldn't mind you being with him.

In fact, she knew you both were destined.

But the worst part?

You never knew how he loved you, how he dedicated his every goal for you.

How could you? When he never said it directly.

You didn't even know.

You always thought that You and Rin was just casual.

Nothing more and nothing less.

Reo Mikage

• "was it casual when you rested your forehead on my shoulder telling me if I was a girl you'd love me the 'right way?' "

Reo was ugly crying.

Not the pretty crying you were used to, because whenever he cried-

You always thought he looked pretty.

Now, he was hugging you shoulders tightly, like if he didn't you would disappear.

Maybe you would, just maybe.

Your shirt was soaked with his tears as he was crying in your shoulders.

Well, before you pushed him away slightly.

He stumbled a little then started wiping his tears at the back of his hands.

When he finally looked at you his eye are puffy, speaking in a broken shaky voice.

"If you were a girl-then maybe, maybe loving you won't be a sin."

but why not now? Why when you were a girl?

That was the question in your mind.

Though it was never answered.

You know it wasn't worth arguing to, you left Reo-who was still crying.

Because you knew, you know better than him.

You two are just best friends at the end of the day.

Nagi Seishiro

• "was it casual when you would check up on my mental health even though you were struggling yourself? "

You don't understand Nagi Seishiro.

You never could, or never would.

Because to others he was indifferent, like they didn't exist, or just not important at all.

But to you, he was the opposite.

He'd always sit by you, asking about your day even if he was tired.

He always tried to light up your day.

What you don't get about him though, was how could he keep going when he himself has no light.

Was it you?

Were you the one that has him going?

The one that kept him living?

No, that'd be delusional.

You and Nagi was nothing at all.

Not even a label.

Karasu Tabito

• "was it casual when I learned her breathing patterns to notice when she was overwhelmed or anxious? "

Karasu notices everything.

The dust settled in the window, the crying kid at the corner, or the little crack in the wall.

He definitely notices you too.

How your body reacts to pressure, how your breath turned ragged at attention, and the deep short breaths when you're nervous or scared.

He would always check on you when he noticed.

Whether it'd be handling all your works silently, diverting the crowd's attention to his, or when he'd argue with everyone who intimidated you.

You never noticed, or maybe you just ignored it.

Because you never thought of it.

You never assumed.

In the end-

You never knew if it was for you.

But for him it has always been you.

Not that he minded reciprocation.

He knows you were just friends anyways.

Kunigami Rensuke

• "was it casual when you convinced your parents to name your newborn sister after me? "

Another sibling made it's way to his life.

Kunigami was standing next to the little one, even though now-he was colder and sharper, he didn't lose his softness next to his sisters.

He wasn't sure why, but when his parents asked if he has a name in mind, he said yours.

Your name.

His parents of course, question the choice.

Why would he think of a friend's name?

After much persuasion of course, his sister started her journey bearing your name.

Even now, he didn't know why he chooses that name.

You weren't even together.

Yet you were always on his mind.

Your name, your presence.

Shidou Ryusei

•"was it casual when I told you about a painting I saw in a dream and you painted it for me and remembered every single detail?"

You vividly remember your dream last night.

A beautiful flower kept on a red vase, the light reflecting on the water making the color shine.

You were addicted to that color.

The shade of red, purple, and blue of it mesmerizes you.

You kept talking everyone's ear off of it, that dream was etched on your brain.

And naturally, Shidou came to hear about it too.

Watching you ramble about it ignited an explosion inside of him.

So he began.

Delicately painting it in perfect soft strokes that was unnatural of him, he remembered every detail.

The cherry red vase that was sheer enough to let the reflection of light passes through water that made the colors of the flowers pop.

Even he himself was confused on why he did it.

He was confused about why he felt other things rather than the explosions he kept saying.

He was confused on why he was so happy giving it to you.

He was confused.

He was confused on why he did that for you.

Afterall, you were nothing but just casuals.

Your relationship was just casual.

Isn't it?

Chigiri Hyoma

•"was it casual when you turned trans for me because being mlm was a 'sin'? "

No one agreed that loving a male when you are a male yourself is right.

They treated it like a crime.

A sin.

But Chigiri was not fazed.

Not having someone he loves himself, or yet, he agrees to the norms.

Until you.

You confessed about your true self.

You liked men.

And suddenly Chigiri wasn't that unfazed anymore.

He started caring.

He started noticing.

The disgusts in others faces seeing to men together, or how others never accepted people as kind as you.

They never cared for the kindness, they only cared about the norms, that men and women is the standard.

They never cared about how men loving the same gender is still love.

That love is love.

So he adjusted.

he started to become more feminine.

Dressing in ways that no one would know he was a man.

When he saw how no one batted an eye when he hold your hand in public-laughing and smiling at you, he felt relieved.

Though what kept him awake at night was one question.

Why is he doing this for you?

Perhaps it's for you to be happy, to be accepted blindly, that even if the truth is in front of them, they won't care because they assumed.

Assumed he was a woman.

Assumed that it was the normal.

But it isn't.

And that's what kept him awake at night.

Sae Itoshi.

• "was it casual when you took off your cross to kiss me?"

The Itoshi family was religious.

They knew what was right, and what was wrong.

Or was it?

Because to them, loving the same gender is wrong.

It wasn't acceptable.

And Sae grew with it.

He was religious himself, always keeping a cross necklace in him.

But that changed with you.

You weren't just a person to him, it was something more.

Something he couldn't comprehend.

Something he couldn't grasp.

Maybe that's what made it addicting.

He knew it was wrong.

That it was a sin.

But he couldn't care less as everyone else was focused on the sight before them.

Celebrating christmas as fireworks decorated the black sky.

He couldn't care less when he ripped off his necklace.

He couldn't care less when he grabbed your face and kissed you.

He couldn't care less.

Sae doesn't care.

Because to him-

You were something else.

Bunny Iglesias

• "was it casual when you kissed all my insecurities? "

You wouldn't say you were an insecure person, but you wouldn't say you were a confident person either.

Bunny, unfortunately or fortunately knew that.

You couldn't tell if you should be embarrassed-or be shy at the attention he was giving you.

He was tracing his lips on your face, you torso, and every feature you can't stand to look at.

You weren't sure to what he was doing.

And he wasn't sure himself to what he was doing.

All Bunny knew was that it could make you happier.

You wanted to question him.

Ask him-

What are we?

He was softly pressing his lips on your nose, and then your eyes

What do I call you?

He lifted his lips off your eyes and kissed your mole.

My friend?

He left that specific spot and hovered near your lips.

My lover?

He seemingly gathered his courage and kissed the corner of your mouth.

Or just someone.

Someone that would kiss your insecurities.

Someone that wasn't anything.

Michael Kaiser

• "was it casual when she said she wanted to spend the rest of her life with me? And she did. But it wasn't the rest of my life"

Kaiser always knew he was incapable of love.

He was born unwanted.

Unwanted by the world.

Unwanted by his parents.

So hearing those words gave him false hope.

"I want to spend the rest of my life with you! "

You had said that with such joy he almost believed it.

And he was glad he didn't.

Because he thought that you would spend the rest of your life loving him.

It was true.

But it wasn't all his life.

To you though, it was the rest of your life.

And he always knew there was no joy in both of your worlds.

He was your world.

But were you his?

"Would you still love me if I was a stone? "

You had asked him once.

He didn't answer, but right now he wanted to scream it at the world.

Standing in your tomb, or should he say you.

That yes, he would still love you even if you're a stone.

It's just that he would prefer if you were standing with him, and not laying.

Because Michael Kaiser's final answer to you was-

I love you.

Ness Alexis

•"was it casual when I came out to my homophobic parents and they made an exemption because it was you?"

Ness knew how his parents were.

They never supported him.

And certainly they will never accept him.

The real Ness.

The one that loved you, A man, just like him.

But another things he knows is his parents adoration for you.

He never took any jealousy to their attention to you.

Actually, he adored you too.

And that was enough reason for them.

Maybe that was the reason they agreed, it was you, after all.

Ness never thought they've accepted him.

Though he could only harbour his own feelings deep in his throat because he knows.

You weren't into him.

You don't like men.

You only supported.

He guesses that he could only store and keep his feelings to his heart.

His real heart.

Hiori Yo

•"was it casual when you said 'i love you, so I'll wait for my parents to die to marry you'? "

Hiori was tired of his parents.

They never cared about the real him that he wants to express, they only wanted the hollow shell that he gives.

You never made him feel like the hollow person he performs.

You make him warm.

You made him feel.

You made him feel loved.

That was the only reason he could give.

He wanted to hold your hand.

Kiss you like the normal couple would.

Hug you with something that's not just for friends.

Damn it, he just wanted to show you off the world and he couldn't do it.

So he made a promise.

He engraved his words to a ring.

And deep in your heart.

"I love you, and I'll wait and wait until their gone till I can love you without restriction."

He held your hand to his as punctuated his words.

He means it.

He'd wait.

Just for you.

Bachira Meguru

•"was it casual when you learned to write in your left hand so you could hold my hand in your right? "

Bachira always has paint in his hands.

But if he has to choose between painting and holding your hands-

He'd choose you.

The one that made him feel genuine joy.

The one that choose him over anyone else's.

So he learned.

He practiced.

He adapted.

He started writing in his left hand.

You took note of that.

Once his hand writing was finally readable enough, he sneaked his right hands to your left.

And kept holding it till class ends.

You definitely noticed, just that you didn't say anything.

Because Meguru was someone that would do that for a friend.

Because you knew being just friends with Meguru would ruin you.

So you kept quiet.

And let him hold your hand.

Yukimiya Kenyu

•"was it casual when you prayed before we kissed because you didn't want to get punished?"

Yukimiya Kenyu was scared.

Scared to be punished.

Scared to be in love with you.

But he was never scared to show his love.

He was never scared on feeling your lips in his.

He says he's scared, but he also says he isn't.

He might just be a hypocrite because of it.

But he doesn't care.

Because as long as you were still there, still in his shirt, still in his arms, and still in his heart.

He knew he would take it.

But he was scared.

So he prayed.

Prayed to be spared, and prayed to love you.

He prayed so everything he does wasn't considered a sin.

He felt ashamed-really, he knows he can just love you freely, but the way people treated him filled him with doubt.

A sin.

A crime.

A rebel.

He prays, not to talk but to be accepted.

If he could tear himself just so loving you wasn't a sin, then maybe he would.

Because loving you wasn't a sin for him.

Loving you was the life he wanted forever.

Note:Hi(let's act like i didn't make someone cry)

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