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Here is the EHRC Code of Practice in full. It's a tough read, but some highlights are:

Organisations can’t provide trans-inclusive, single-sex services, or they risk being sued for discrimination. e.g. domestic violence support for women including trans women, men’s rugby group including trans men (12.68).

Trans people will have nowhere safe to pee. If you’re a trans man, businesses can't allow you to pee in the men's, and you can also be ejected from women’s bathrooms if you’re perceived as a man. Vice versa for trans women. EHRC suggests a ‘third space’ bathroom, which is discriminatory and unworkable for most businesses. (13.130-133)

Sports organisations must exclude trans people from single-sex competitions (13.73).  A women’s only sports competition must exclude trans women because of their biological advantage or face potential lawsuits (13.74), but a trans man who has undergone testosterone treatment can also be excluded based on fairness rules (13.81).

Trans women are stripped of the legal definition of ‘lesbian’, and therefore no longer have legal protections if they’re discriminated against on the basis of sexual orientation. (2.50, 2.92).

Here is the Good Law Project's better explanation of the EHRC Code.

Frostheim

Jin is in there in what he considers an incognito look (Sunglasses. He’s wearing sunglasses indoors). He glues himself to the least offensive corner, which happens to be by a mannequin in a fuchsia fishnet body suit and purple strap on. 

He deliberately avoids looking at the big purple floppy close to his face

Instead he people watches, making sure none of his house members or any other shoppers get weird around you

He distrusts Tohma the least so he tells Tohma to keep an eye on you when you go out of sight, behind aisles he doesn’t want to go near 

Is Jin actually interested in anything there? Not really. He’s a hands and body kinda guy, willing to make restraints out of the clothes you were wearing before he got his hands on you

The one exception is the lingerie and costumes, but he considers what’s in a common sex store beneath him. He wants custom, tailored, high quality. Even if it is going to end up on the floor in shreds after the first few minutes of foreplay 

Tohma stays a respectable distance away from you, but he’s far more invested in what catches your eye. He’s taking mental notes, you can almost hear him scribbling away in his brain. 

If he’s feeling bold enough, he might even hold what you pick up for you and ask questions about why that particular item appeals to you

If you want to try on some truly slutty heels, he will be at your service. All you have to do is sit, let him put it on, and do a test walk. He’ll take care of the rest. 

In a way, dominant acts of service really appeals to him when it comes to you, and he can’t resist that opportunity to kneel in front of you while still having you rely on him. 

He’s sure to face Jin and give a sickeningly smug smirk when he sees Jin scowling by the strap on mannequin 

He is personally interested in moderate bdsm gear. Silk ribbons and blindfolds, a riding crop and gloves. He likes to fuck in finer clothes than they offer, not sex suits per se, but he will take a second glance at a sleek black bodycon dress and some elegant heels 

And Kaito, ohhh Kaito. Was dragged to the store kicking and screaming about how inappropriate it was for those Frostheim vultures (he thought it was Tohma or Jin’s idea) to take you to a place like this 

When he heard it was your idea, repayment for a favor with Jin footing everyone’s bill, he completely changed his tune 

“Whoa, what a great idea! Umm, what are you going there for again?” 

“I need a new vibrator, some lingerie, shoes, a-“ your list is lengthy and every item brings him one step closer to collapsing 

He’s trying so hard not to picture you wearing and using all of those items right then and there, but he will definitely imagine it later, maybe when he has a new cheap masturbator if he can manage getting one discreetly, because he would die if you found out he masturbated (oh no, the horror)

When he’s actually in there, he’s like a kid in a candy store. A very nervous, sweaty kid who has never had sugar in his life but craves it like it’s his lifeline

He ends up darting off to the first thing that catches his eye and bounces around like a pinball 

It’s probably up to you to explain the more advanced stuff 

“Why are they selling chopsticks?” 

“Those are sounding rods,” you told him. When he cocked his head, you added “they go up your urethra.” 

The horror - and a bit of curiosity - slowly dawns on him and he backs away from the “chopsticks” to stumble toward something that doesn’t give him phantom goosebumps and an existential crisis 

He also keeps looking Jin’s direction, but he’s not looking at Jin. Tohma eventually takes pity when Jin gets mad about being gawked at, and leads Kaito to the other strap ons

“Nah man, I’m good! I’m cool! I don’t even like that stuff” Kaito glances at a picture of a model in a corset, the strap on and some cbt worthy heels and gulps. He immediately realizes he’s overwhelmed, sweaty, throbbing, and moseys much more timidly around the room, settling in the porn section 

Luca is mainly focused on keeping Kaito in check so he doesn’t do anything too disruptive or inappropriate. He keeps his eyes to the ground as much as he can, his hands clasped in front of him (to hide his interest) but his attention does wander toward the costumes

His cheeks are hot the entire time, he cant believe you’re perusing all of these lewd items like it was a regular grocery store 

That is not to say he’s judging you at all! Luca is far too much of a gentleman for that, he merely watches your confidence and interest with his own fascination, but at the same time he doesn’t want to seem like he’s leering at you 

Also taking mental notes when you pick up an item to hand to Tohma (he’s a little jealous he didn’t think of attending you first, despite not having faith in himself he’d be as composed as Tohma about it)

He does show outward interest when he finds the massage oils and flavored lubes, deeming those innocent enough

He thinks sweets and desserts are tied to romance, so he will pick up a sample pack to try, and some flavored condoms 

Vagastrom

Alan is stiffer than usual, in the uncomfortable sense. He doesn’t know where to look, he doesn’t know what to do with his hands, he doesn’t know if he should stay close to you to protect you from anyone else who sees a cutie like you and makes an inappropriate offer, but he doesn’t want to be too close and make you uncomfortable or like he’s snooping >,< 

He just settles for this very awkward middle ground, fidgeting, being in the way and trailing far behind you 

He agreed to go with you into town, but this was an impromptu stop that you suggested and his silent vote of “are you serious why would we go there together” was drowned out because, you know, he didn’t voice it or show any emotion except a single hard blink to express his mild panic 

He’s not a prude by any means, he sees sexuality as a part of health and self care for those who partake, but his sexuality hasn’t been shared with anyone and he only hears locker room talk from the boys

He certainly hasn’t been to a place like this, much less with a lady that he fancies

Once he remembers how to behave like a normal functioning human, he takes a look around. The lingerie and costumes are cute but don’t hold his attention

He does suddenly stop in front of the dildos

And he just stares. Contemplates. Muses, if you will. He’s looking at a massive, girthy dildo thats as big as his forearm AND fist. AND IT LITERALLY HAS A FIST ON THE END OF IT. He’s a mixture of alarmed and… relieved 

That can actually fit in people? He was worried about his size and girth, but if that is possible (the damn thing was the size of a baby) then he really worried too much over nothing

“See something you like?” Alan nearly jumped out of his skin when you sidled up behind him without him noticing and caught him staring at Mister Fister 9000. 

“Um. Is this really… used by anyone?” 

“It’s pretty hardcore, but it’s possible. Never underestimate the body’s resilience and elasticity,” you nodded sagely. 

“Oh. What’s an ovipositor?” Why did he ask that? He didn’t mean to ask that. He just blurted out the thing he saw that he didn’t know what it was but in hindsight that was a terrible idea considering it was not only phallic but tentacle shaped as well

“You know how you cum?” you asked too innocently

The longest silence stretched between you. You didn’t amend the question either, or follow up until he responded. Alan clearly needed time to wrap his head around the idea. 

“yeah”

“It does that, but instead of goo it cums eggs.” You made a circle with your thumb and forefinger, the size of a gumball. 

“…………. why?” 

“Because it’s more filling. And you get to squeeze them out, which is fun and messy.” You shrugged. “I haven’t tried one yet.” 

YET? O.O

You took the ovipositor off the shelf and checked the price. A little disappointed at how much of your budget it would eat up, you put it down. 

Alan is currently disassociating, you’re free to leave him. He’s not going anywhere 

Until his eyes catch a leather doggy pet play mask

His eyes light up a little and his blush gets a little darker. Breathing a little deeper. There’s also a leash and chest harness underneath it being worn by a muscled model and it just dawns on him. That could happen to me. I could wear that. 

He’s officially hit his horny brain capacity after that. He goes and sits down where you can try on shoes and waits for you to finish

He wants to check his wallet and bank account, and the price of that doggy mask and harness, but he’s too embarrassed to do it in front of you. He’ll come back. If he musters the courage. 

Leo jumped at the idea when you suggested it. It was thanks to his insistence that you were even there, because you showed interest when you passed the shop by and made an offhand comment. As soon as he was inside, he was looking for people to judge 

“Wow, this place is for pervs” he says while scooping up a collar that said ‘puppy’ on it, a doggy tail plug and leash, a vibrating cock ring and telling the cashier to hold onto them for him

He knows what he likes. He likes switching, degrading, being degraded, bratting and puppy play and he keeps an eye out for anything that would help him with that 

But he won’t give you the upper hand so he grabs all the things he’s interested in while you’re not looking, then quickly rejoins you to question and tease you about every selection 

“What’re you gonna do with that, hm?” “Its a dildo, Leo. I’m going to fuck it.” “Wow, you’re literally a pervert.” “Grow the fuck up and get yourself something that’ll make you behave.” 

Leo perks up big time at the opportunity. 

“What’s that, Honor Roll? Wanna make me behave? I don’t think you have it in you.” 

“If it was in me, I probably wouldn’t feel it,” you shot back. Leo bites his lip, loving the degradation. 

“Yeah, well I would, so that’s all that matters. Get some extra batteries or whatever.” 

“Are you admitting you’re shit in the sack?” 

“No,” he answered too quick. How the hell did you get him on the defensive? Why were you, a normie, showing such a fun side and making him so hard? 

He definitely saw you in a new light now, even if you’d always been mouthy and able to stand up to his manipulation

He imagined all kinds of kinky possibilities between the two of you now

Sho was the one who protested at the idea, but not too vehemently. He just scratched his head when you and Leo eagerly headed inside, and exchanged an uncertain look with Alan

Like Jin, he stayed in a corner he deemed safe. He’s not into all those extra frills and toys

Just give him someone cute that he cares about and is as raring to go as he is and he has everything he needs. 

He will peruse just to kill time, lingering a little longer on anything with studded leather, while being within earshot to make sure Leo isn’t too hard on you

Sho feels like he should pretend he doesn’t see what you pick up, but he’s mildly curious, and you were comfortable enough around him to do this openly 

He ends up on the seats near Alan, like two bored and flustered boyfriends in the fitting room while their girls tried stuff on

“So…” he said. 

“So…” Alan answered, glancing again at the colorful array of massive dildos. “Buncha stuff,” he said, gesturing vaguely to the merchandise. 

“Oh, Mio. What’s that?” 

“Huh? This?” 

He twists his arm and strains his neck to see it. A shallow cut runs across his upper arm. Pooling red against his skin. 

“Shion got me earlier.” 

You grimace.

“That looks pretty bad.” 

“I’ll be fine,” He waves it off, “bit of spit and it’ll heal.” 

Yuri would not be happy to hear that. 

Mio kneels beside the damaged wall and starts unpacking his toolkit. 

You rush into your room. 

By the time you return with a first aid kit, he’s already reaching for the hammer. 

You step directly in front of him. 

“Hm?” 

“I’m not letting you fix anything until I look at that wound.”

“And is this negotiable?” 

“Nope.” 

He huffs through his nose. 

“Okay.” 

___

Now you’re both sitting on the wooden floor of the raised chapel stage. 

Sunlight spills through the broken stained glass. Outside, birds chirp peacefully among the trees. 

You pull out a cotton swab. 

“This might sting a bit.” 

You hover it a few inches from his arm. 

“Ow!" 

You flinch in surprise. Then narrow your eyes.

“I haven’t even touched you yet.” 

“Oh.” Mio glances down. “Guess I got ahead of myself.” 

You slap his back. 

“Don’t scare me like that.” 

He laughs. “Sorry, sorry.” 

_____

A few moments of comfortable silence pass.

“Hey.” 

“Yeah?” 

“Why are your hands shaking?” 

You pause. 

“I actually don’t like looking at blood.” 

Mio laughs. 

“After all the missions you’ve been on?”

“Well, I don’t really have a choice, do I?” You squeeze some ointment, spreading it around with your pinky. “We see dead bodies in our textbooks everyday.” 

“That’s true.” 

You secure the bandage and pat it down. 

“There.” 

Mio studies your work, running a thumb over the edge of the bandage. 

“You know, everyone here keeps talking about you,” he says it like an afterthought.  

You blink up at him. 

“And I can see why. Only you would’ve forced me to stop working over a tiny cut.” 

“It is not tiny.” 

“It is.” 

“Mio.” You cross your arms like a disappointed mom. “You really should take better care of yourself.” 

He chuckles at the thought. “That’s harder for me than fixing anything at Darkwick.”

But his smile turns into something softer. 

“Though…Can I come to you again if I get hurt?” 

You scrunch your nose a bit. 

“You know I hate dealing with blood.” 

“Yeah. But you still did it.” 

You sigh. 

“Fine. But only small cuts, ok? Nothing too crazy. That’s for Professor Nicolas.” 

“Deal.” 

You expect Mio to start working immediately. But he doesn’t. Instead he leans back against his arm. His toolkit remains untouched beside him as he basks in the sunlight. 

For once, he isn’t looking at the broken wall. He's not thinking about repairs or the next thing he has to do.

He’s just…there.

You look down at the bandage one last time before smiling. 

“But even if it isn’t for that…”

Mio looks at you.

“You’re welcome here anytime.” 

For a moment, he just stares 

Then he laughs softly. 

“Careful.” 

“Why?” 

“I might actually take you up on that.” 

____

Jin, Tohma, Taiga, Romeo, Haku, Edward, Elias, Shion 

He is SPITEFUL. He won’t react at first and will go along with it, but if he can’t bury himself in you balls deep, he’s not going to let you cum. Shallow thrusts, he’s fisting the extra length of his dick that is woefully unable to get slick from your wet, slutty walls until you tell him otherwise. He could say fuck it and thrust hard until just the tip is kissing your cervix, but he wants to punish you in other ways first  His free hand is on your clit, pinching and slapping and rubbing. He’s enjoying all the ways you cinch around his cock head while he toys with you.  But you still don’t get to come until he gets his way. All contact ends when you’re close. His hands pin your thighs apart, he pulls out to watch your hole twitch and try to squeeze for what’s no longer there.

Alan, Luca, Subaru, Jiro, Ritsu, Sho, Zenji, Jo, Mio, Rui, Lyca 

Does as he’s told, struggling with restraint, feels so good. You’re rubbing your clit and watching him struggle not to be more selfish.  “Such a good boy.” You coo when he looks like he’s about to break, snap his hips forward to go deeper.  But that praise resets him. His eyes go wide, bottom lip caught between his teeth. The wet sounds just made him thing of how good it would feel when you gave him permission to bottom out. Until then, the powerful, sadistic look you gave him was enough to let you dangle his pleasure on the end of a fishing wire, just out of his reach. 

Kaito, Leo, Haru, Yuri, Towa (nonverbally), Ren 

✦ 𝐒𝐮𝐛𝐚𝐫𝐮 𝐊𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐦𝐢 ✦

But let’s just say, if you like someone else?

Someone more gentle, more sensitive, more delicate. More soft spoken and so, so, SO pretty. Subaru Kagami.

Now this... this is what makes Leo have to take things into consideration, because if he’s confident he can win against Sho, he’s not so much when it comes to Subaru. Because he’d have to snoop around for more information about this guy and it’s not easy when most things are classified.

What do you see in him anyway?

He always has that dainty smile and pretty face, so what?

Leo has a pretty face too.

Or is it that you just like lame ass soft spoken people?

Ugh, he can’t deny that he’s indeed jealous af.

As for Sho, he’s quite chill, because to Sho, winning or not doesn’t matter. He loves to see you happy but also he can’t deny that he has a bit of jealousy stirring in him. But he’s in no position to be jealous and... if you like Subaru, then maybe it’s better than any random dude he doesn’t know. Subaru is a perfect candidate, isn’t he? And Sho expects that if you two ever have mutual feelings, you both deserve that happiness.

✦ 𝐅𝐫𝐨𝐬𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐦 ✦

If you said you like someone from Frostheim, they’d be quite displeased.

As for Sho, he thinks maybe if it’s Lucas or Kaito, it’s okay, because those two seem “normal” in some way and Sho is quite overprotective.

But Jin or Tohma? Damn, like, he doesn’t know anymore. He might not want that to happen.

As for Leo: NO!

Don’t you dare. Okay, maybe he doesn’t want to admit that but Lucas or Kaito is fine. But the captain and the vice-captain?!

No, no, no, no, absolutely no!!!!!

Don’t you dare!

He’d rather Alan force him to shake hands with Tohma in peace and a good relationship rather than let you date either Jin or Tohma!!!!!

✦ 𝐑𝐨𝐦𝐞𝐨 ✦

If it was Romeo… huh, Leo actually finds that quite interesting. He didn’t know you had a thing for snappy guys. But well, if it’s Romeo, then at least your eyes still work. The man is gorgeous and stunning, isn’t he? A very good negotiator too. He can let you go with that. Though he’s unsure how exactly Romeo will react if he finds out about this, so let’s just keep it a secret.

✦ 𝐄𝐝𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐝 𝐇𝐚𝐫𝐭 ✦

Worst option they can think of?

Like, wtf do you see in that guy? Okay, maybe they’re being a bit too harsh, they don’t know the guy that much, but still, they feel like there’s some power imbalance there! You ought to be careful. What’s wrong with your taste in men???

✦ 𝐉𝐢𝐫𝐨 & 𝐑𝐮𝐢 ✦

If it’s Jiro or Rui, oddly enough, both of them find these two very suitable to be your partner and might give up if you’re really into these guys. Sorry, but they don’t have the heart to break such a lovely relationship and the feelings you have with these two.

✦ 𝐉𝐚𝐛𝐛𝐞𝐫𝐰𝐨𝐜𝐤 ✦

If it was anyone from Jabberwock, they have no comment. I feel like they wouldn’t want to cause trouble by crossing Towa’s line anyway, unless… hmm, they do? Teehee.

But Haru, Haru is reliable, they have to admit that. And they feel like he can treat you really well. So yes, not that bad. At least you know how to choose a man of family.

✦ 𝐑𝐞𝐧 ✦

Ren… to be honest, I don’t think they’re in any position to judge this, because Ren himself would question that first.

“Why the hell do you like me?!”

He confuses himself like he hasn’t done anything, at least in his impression, he hasn’t done much. And aren’t those two first-year ghouls always circling around you? How can you not fall for that “burnout” bandana guy, but instead fall for him?

Ren: Damn, like, check your standards!!

Let’s just say if you have a crush on Ren, then Leo and Sho would stop whatever they’re doing, because well, he may not seem to be the best boyfriend material, but he’s learning and has room to improve. Besides, if you fail with that little crush of yours, then they can jump right in to mend your broken heart, gwahahahahahaahah!!

✦ 𝐋𝐲𝐜𝐚 ✦

If you like Lyca… damn it!!! They’re fighting a losing battle, wtf. They’d give up immediately when they know. Everybody’s got a soft spot for a puppy, isn’t that right?

✦ 𝐑𝐢𝐭𝐬𝐮 ✦

If you fall for Ritsu, they might question a few things, but soon accept that yes, by any theoretical standard, Ritsu Shinjo is indeed a very strong candidate for your partner, maybe even more so. But would they stop whatever competition they’re having? No!

Because if Ritsu doesn’t feel the same about you, he might act very professional and pretend he never knew your feelings, and if he ever confronts you about it, it could be quite a hard pill to swallow.

But if Ritsu likes you back? He already has your wedding plan laid out in a stack of documents, so yes, Leo and Sho would likely give up.

✦ 𝐉𝐨 ✦

If you like Jo? Immediate give up. How can they even win against them?!

Jo gives you the best of both worlds, and that makes them doubt if they can even provide half of the happiness Jo can. And also, you always look at Jo like they hung up the stars. You are just that lovesick, they immediately know they stand no chance against the captain of Dionysia.

✦ 𝐌𝐢𝐨 ✦

If you like Mio, listen, Leo is actually quite chill about this because even if he doesn’t admit it, he views Mio as a very decent and good partner for you.

But Sho? Oh, oh, oh, such an unusual sight to see, he’s even more jealous than Leo this time. Like, how come you like that pink-haired guy instead of him? Has he not tried enough? Has he not proven his worth? Should he work harder, or do you want him to learn how to invent things too? Should he flex his biceps more when he maintains Bonnie? Like, tell him!! Tell him what you want exactly, please, please!!! This is driving him crazy.

Hahaha. Torture much.

✦ 𝐓𝐚𝐢𝐠𝐚 • 𝐄𝐥𝐢𝐚𝐬 • 𝐇𝐚𝐤𝐮 ✦

Those that these two can’t quite put their finger on: Taiga, Elias and Haku. They definitely don’t want to cause trouble with Taiga and Elias, mostly because Alan is going to go on and on and lecture them about this.

Elias. Now, isn’t he such a mysterious man? Are you into red-flag liars? What a distinguished taste in men you have. But really, they feel like Elias has more experience and knows more than them combined. To say it doesn’t hurt their pride a bit would be a lie, but… it feels like you’re addicted to this man as much as he’s addicted to sweets. And Elias, let’s just say he stays humble, but he’s quite cocky when he knows you like him.

Taiga. Oh so you’re into rough play? Why didn’t you say so from the start? Okay, I was joking around. I feel like they’d also give up when they know you like Taiga, but they would still give out one or two pieces of advice because the guy is unhinged and they’re unsure what’s going on in his mind. But seeing how you’re just as much of the same freaky freaky as Taiga…

sighs heavily Okay, maybe you two would be a good match!

Haku. Hey, like, they don’t really find any problem to talk about with this guy, but isn’t he a bit suspicious? Even more than Elias, because at least that guy is on campus most of the time. But this dude? And how he’s always walking around talking with a floating doll, even going as far as to film thin air while speaking to nobody…

Okay, maybe it’s his ability, but still… they’d still be questioning a lot of things, ngl. But I feel like Haku would have liked you first, and these two just suddenly realize that. Because he just pretends to be subtle, and he clearly knows about the secret competition Sho and Leo have.

✦ 𝐙𝐞𝐧𝐣𝐢 ✦

Zenji… do they even know the man exists?

I think it’d be funny because with other candidates, they can at least try to understand your type and your preference but a floating doll? That’s unlikely to give them any insight into what you want in a partner. Immediate give up.

✦ 𝐘𝐮𝐫𝐢 ✦

Yuri… maybe they’d try to convince the man to join a poly relationship but Yuri might be against it, or at least not comfortable with that unless it’s you and Jiro. He has his boundaries and priorities straight.

These two likely don’t have the heart to break your heart, so they’d just stay quiet and subtle to see how things go between you two.

✦ 𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐟𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐚𝐥 𝐅𝐢𝐥𝐞: 𝐒𝐡𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐆𝐞𝐧𝐤𝐚𝐢 ✦

If in case you like Shion, whether Sho and Leo want it or not, they would have to give up because you are already married to Shion on paper and by law, and the witness priest who testified is Ritsu Shinjo.

If they want to go against that? It would likely end with them becoming prison buddies with whoever that Enzo guy is.

✦ 𝙺𝚒𝚗𝙰 ✦