gil's route permanently altered my brain chemistry

The room is bathed in the warm yellow hue of a single lantern, the air heavy with the scent of his favorite ink and the faint, rhythmic sound of cicadas outside. For the first time in an eternity, Zenji isn’t hovering; both of you are sitting on the edge of the futon, his weight finally creating a tangible press against the fabric. His purple locks, untied and falling over his shoulders, brushing against his skin with a softness that makes him shudder—a physical sensation he had nearly forgotten how to process.

As he slides his glasses off, his thin red eyes trace the flush on your face. Any sense of ghostly self-control tends to fly straight out the window when he looks at you like this. He began to disrobe you with an agonizing slowness, his breath scorching against your collarbone. Every time you winced or shifted, he was there with a compliment, a verbal benediction to soothe your nerves.

“To look upon you like this… it is the only masterpiece I ever truly wished to see,” he murmured, his fingers—slender and calligraphy-trained—brushing patterns of profound love against your skin.

He leans in closer, the scent of him becoming overwhelming. His voice is no longer an echo; it is deep, textured, and vibrating against you. Zenji—human, solid, and radiating a feverish warmth—breathes harshly against your skin. You can feel the sweat from his brow dampening your temple, a physical proof of his existence that makes your heart hammer against your ribs.

He discards his own clothes with a frantic, uncoordinated grace, his skin flushed and sensitive to the very air of the room. When he sits before you, completely bared, he looks as though he’s waking up from a lifelong sleep. You reach out, your fingertips barely skimming the curve of his jaw, and you let out a broken, jagged sound—part laugh, part sob. "You are real," you murmur, more to yourself than to him. "You’re so beautiful..."

The sudden weight of your words has rendered him completely mute. He tries to speak, his lips parting, but his throat hitches, and only a small, shaky exhale escapes. Unable to find the language to match the miracle of your touch, he simply moves. He pulls you towards him until you are straddling his lap.

The moment your skin meets his, Zenji lets out a choked gasp. His hands fly to your waist, gripping you with a strength that is certain. He arches into you, his head falling back as he marvels at the friction, the feeling of your slick folds gliding against his length even through your panties. He buries his face in the crook of your neck, his fingers spreading wide across your lower back to press you even closer, desperate to feel every inch of the contact he had been denied for so long.

Slowly, he leans down. He envelopes your nipple into his mouth, his tongue laving over the sensitive peak with a desperate hunger. The mewl you let out causes him to shudder, every moan that leaves your mouth sending shivers up his spine. He brings his hand up to fondle your other breast, his touch firm yet careful, as if he’s still adjusting to the fact that he won't simply pass through you.

The sensory overload seems to overwhelm him, and he needs to see you—all of you—anchored beneath him. His hands move from your waist to your shoulders and begin to guide you backward. He handles you like the rarest of gems, until your back meets the soft fabric of the bed. He follows you down, looming over you.

Greedy for the music of your gasps, he pries your legs apart with his knee, grinding his thigh against your pussy. He perks up at the sound of your sharp intake of breath, a hum playing on his lips even as his eyes remain clouded with a desperate, human need. He breaks away from your breast, trailing wet, scorching kisses down your stomach until he reaches the waistband of your panties. He pauses, looking up at you with those red, ink-dark eyes.

“May I proceed, my muse? Or is the prose too bold for the evening?”

You can barely process the words through the haze of pleasure, but you nod eagerly. Zenji’s smirk softens into something more genuine, a look of profound gratitude. Your trust is a heavy crown, but one he wears with pride.

“T-touch me, Taro… please,” you murmur, arching your hips. He crawls beside you and brings his forehead to yours, his skin burning against yours. His hand travels down, his fingers collecting your slickness before he begins to rhythmically circle your clit. You shiver, your hands finding purchase in his hair, pulling him closer. He groans into your neck. Gone is the ghost who watched from the shadows; here is the man who finally has the hands to hold what he loves.

“More,” he breathes against your pulse. “I want to hear everything. Every sigh, every note of your undoing.”

He trails his lips down the center of your body, marking every inch of skin as if he were claiming a territory he thought was lost to time. He moves with a deliberate, agonizing slowness, his hands sliding down to the backs of your knees. He hooks your legs, guiding them upward until they rest securely over his shoulders. He settles between your thighs, face-to-face with your dripping heat. He looks starved. He watches the way your pelvis rolls instinctively, trying to meet him, and he chuckles.

“My Dear, you’re so eager!” he teases, though his own hands are trembling. He places a soft, lingering kiss on your entrance, causing you to squeal. “So sensitive… and so very much mine.”

His tongue slides out, lapping at your folds with a steady, rhythmic pressure. But he isn't content with just a taste; he needs to know every part of you is solid. His long, slender fingers reach down, prodding at your entrance before sliding deep inside you. You gasp as he hooks them, his fingers applying a firm, circular pressure to your g-spot while his tongue continues its relentless work. He isn't just tasting you; he is devouring the reality of you, those delicate fingers that once only ghosted over biwa strings are now sinking into your warmth.

When he finally pulls away, the slick sound of his fingers leaving you makes your head roll back. He moves up the bed to position himself, the mirth in his eyes has completely vanished, replaced by a staggering, raw vulnerability. He holds himself above you, his muscles taut and shaking with the effort of remaining human.

“I’m afraid,” he confesses softly, his gaze locked onto yours. “I’m afraid that if I close my eyes, I’ll wake up cold and invisible again. Hold me. Hold me so I know I’m still here.”

You don't hesitate. You reach up and wrap your arms around his neck, pulling him down into a desperate, bone-crushing embrace. You hold him so tight that your heartbeats overlap. His hands clutching at your back as if he’s trying to merge his very soul with yours.

When he finally enters you, the sensation is so sharp, so present, that he has to bury his face in the crook of your neck to hide the sob that catches in his throat. He isn't just seeking pleasure; he is seeking proof of life. He buries himself to the hilt, remaining still for a long moment as his body adjusts to the overwhelming friction and heat. He grits his teeth, his fingers intertwining with yours. He begins to move—a slow, deliberate pace that hits every sensitive nerve with precision.

“You feel like… everything,” he gasps, his rhythm quickening as he loses his grip on his practiced composure. He couldn't find it in him to feel guilty when you felt so good against him. His movements are rhythmic and desperate, a man trying to write a lifetime of longing into a single night. He isn't quiet. He groans your name like a prayer, his hands clutching at the sheets or your hips as if he’s afraid that if he lets go, he’ll drift back into the ether.

He pounds into you, the squelch of your joined bodies the only sound he cares about now. He watches your eyes roll back, watches the way your body jerks under his, and it drives him over the edge.

As your climax hits, Zenji follows you instantly. He thrusts one last time, deep and desperate, emptying himself into you with a loud, broken groan. He came to the feeling of you clenching around him as your own orgasm washed over you. He collapses against you, his face hidden in the crook of your neck, his breath coming in jagged, sobbing hitches.

He doesn't pull away. He stays inside you, his human heart slowing down against your chest. When he finally lifts his head, his eyes are wet with silent tears. He reaches out, his thumb tracing your bottom lip.

“I spent so long as a ghost, watching the world pass by like a story I couldn't join,” he whispers, his voice trembling. “But tonight… tonight you made me a man. I love you. More than the ink loves the page, I love you.”

You look up at him, your vision blurring as your own tears finally escape. You reach up, your hand cupping the back of his neck, pulling him down just enough so your foreheads touch.

“I love you too, Taro,” you respond, your voice quivering but certain.

Subaru 

He asked you out on a date. “It's totally ok if you don't want to go. I totally understand if–” You sandwich his face, forcing him to look at you.  Kiss. “Subaru, I would love to go on a date with you.”  He becomes a bright red tomato.  “Y-Yes. I’m sorry- I mean, thank you.” 

Haku

He's flirting with you again. “If you'd like we can take this somewhere else–” Kiss.  His eyes widen.  “What are you doing princess?”  You shrug. “Just doing what you'll never do.”  He smirks. “Oh, are you sure about that?" He grabs your waist, pulling you closer. "Come here.”

Zenji

You're trying to study, but Zenji has been reciting poems non-stop for hours. "For each ecstatic instant, we–" Kiss. His eyes grow wide. "I-It feels like my heart is going to burst!" He grabs his chest. "A warning next time would be nice. I almost became a ghost again!"

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Yuri

“Do you understand, worm–?” Kiss.  His eyes widen. His ears flush. His mouth contorts.  “H-H-How dare you, you worm–” Kiss.  “Insolent worm–!”  Kiss.  “Stop calling me worm.”  He doesn't answer. He just runs to his office and locks the door.  And... he stays in there for a while.

Jiro

“There are many benefits to kissing. For one, the bacteria in our–” Kiss. You smirk.  “If you want a kiss. Just say it.”  “I want to kiss.”  "Lol that was fast." 

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Ed

“Did you know that UFOs were created by the government to-” Kiss.  Ed blinks. Then smiles “There are more polite ways to ask someone to be quiet.”  “Yeah. But I thought you would like this way the best.” He brings you closer.  “Indeed. In fact, I'd like some more.”

Rui

(Based on an actual voice line.) “Man, I wanna hit the beach so bad! I used to surf all the time and on the way home, I would pick up girls–” Kiss.  He freezes.  You raise an eyebrow.  “What were you saying?”  “N-nothing!”

Lyca

He's talking about his day. Being all cute. “It was so fun! And then–”  Kiss.  “W-what was that for?”  “Don't know. Just felt like it.”  “Y-you can't just do it when you feel like it.” “Why not?”  “Because it’s dangerous.”  ...Dangerous?

Elias

You had asked him a personal question. But you can tell he’s BS-ing the whole story.  “And that was when I met the demon–” Kiss.  Elias looks at you, amused.  “Now, what was that for?”  “For lying.”  “Got caught.”  He scooches a little closer. "If that's the consequence, then I suppose I should lie more often."

Jo

“Then, Shion went and started–” Kiss.  He blinks. Then smiles warmly.  “And what was that?”  “You’re just so beautiful… I couldn’t help it.”  He hugs you immediately.  “How adorable. I was actually thinking the same thing.” 

Mio

"I have to go. Romeo asked me to-" Kiss.  He blushes.  “I– I have to–” Kiss. “I can't–” Kiss. You pout. “Can’t you just… stay?”  He grins bashfully.  “Then… mind asking me again?” 

Shion