𝘴𝘶 𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵𝘦

I kept your green hoodies,

you took all the color out of my life.

your love brings me growth,

but this isn’t what true love is worth

Now?

Well, now I long for you,

memories are so weird.,

the small things we choose to remember or can’t seem to forget.

Your youngest sister yearns for your sisterhood and you both actively deny me that., yall always have.

Ever since you guys found out about the abuse you both treat me with such great disdain.

I’m sorry I could never heal or be normal on a timeline that sufficed you both, but some sisterly love could’ve gone a long way.

But I’ll be dammed if yall blame me and say you guys aren’t responsible or not obligated in any form —

It’s been—interesting.

Today I watched a movie called “Candy” a movie about love, addiction, and their many failed attempts trying to get clean.

I’m not on any hardcore drugs by any means, but my life is ruled by the green.

Like Candy, I want to be in love, happy, an artist,

Watching Candy have desires to be more, fail to get clean, then hurt herself in her spiral down … I related a lot.

She did get clean in the end.

But there was 9 minutes left and I didn’t really see how it ended exactly.

I could very well still finish it, it’s not like I can’t,

But,

Where I left off,

She was in his arms again,

They were embracing each other once again,

So so tightly.

I don’t know if she stays with him or not,

I just know that I saw a lot of myself in Candy,

And I just want Candy to have a good ending.