I've been here so long

body regularly goes

you have fur and it itches and stings and hurts. you are not meant to have fur. you are meant to have fur. your skin hurts.

teeth too big. too sharp. chew chew chew. your tongue is bleeding.

dogs cant eat this food. dogs cant eat this food. you are a dog. you are not a dog. this food makes you very sick. you do not know why. the doctors do not know why. you are very sick.

you have ears. everything is very very loud. you can tilt them back but it does nothing. nobody knows you are upset. you do not know how to be upset like a person. the noise is very very loud.

you are in pain but you can tell no one. they will laugh. they will tilt their heads and look at you like you are a freak. they will hurt you worse. you are in pain.

your legs are the wrong shape. you do not know what the right shape is. they are not always the same shape and neither is quite right.

cw addiction & self romanticising for Slipped My Mind

i am therian but claiming that all therians and otherkins are physically humans make me nauseous and angry. i know that im not physically a cat or dog or horse (these are my kintypes) but i also know that im not a human physically. i dont have a tail or long snout or something like this. but i still not a human. and i dont like the word "alterhuman", im not a human in any way, not even in alter way.

i am an alien, possibly of some divine origin. i like to lurk around divinekin and alienkin blogs bc they are close, but they are kins. and im not an alienkin or divinekin, i am but without 'kin. i know that i look kinda human-like, thats why i sometimes use words 'anthropomorph' and 'humanoid' to describe myself, but never human. when they call me a human it makes me sick. its like a misgendering for dyshoric transgenders, maybe even worse bc there is no one to believe me.

i know that many of you who happened to read it thought "delusional!" about me. many people thinking that and saying that, its very human of them. bit its not a delusion. and its so tiring to endlessly explain them who i am. and so painful to nod and say "yes i am human" so they wouldnt lock you in a psych ward again. i am not a human. i am not a human at all.

Infinite in Both Directions

Reaching Out by Nicole  Oliver Martinez

I am a monster but you caress the muzzle that has hurt so many with care.

I am broken but you lick my wounds and kiss my scars.

I am unlovable but you love me anyway.

This beast does not deserve you.