percy

people on here make ocs and they're mostly men and they ship characters and they're always men and they have favourite characters and they're always men but sometimes they say the men are like women not trans ones though because that would be guh-ross and harsh the vibe of the #fandomspace and they write fanfiction about men and talk about how complicated and #deeplywritten their male favs are and they'll watch movies and tv shows with mostly male casts in every way that matters and not question it because well what do you want them to do about it and they don't even care that that's what they're doing to them it's pure coincidence they always like the male characters better it's pure chance that women are only interesting as yaoi cheerleaders and actually when they write female characters as yaoi cheerleaders they're doing them a favour because they were just so poorly written in the source material it's the charitable thing to do men men men men men men men and if you say anything about it well you're being a killjoy you're being no fun you're being homophobic you're being a misandrist god what is it about women right what is it about women always trying to ruin our fun? why do they care so much? they're just women. who wants to think about women at all.

funfact my first education was in music so.... what i feel when i see her:

IM A ZOMBIE IN MY BODY IM A TRAIN OFF OF THE TRACK I FEEL DIRTY I FEEL ROTTEN AND THE COLORS ARE ALL FLAT IM A SAD SHELL OF A WOMAN AND I’VE GOT MAGGOTS FOR THE BRAIN BUT THATS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN WHEN MY BABY GOES WHEN MY BABY GOES AWAY HE GOES AWAY

i think there's an interesting trend regarding how often andrew is portrayed as refusing to do anything for neil without his consent even outside of sexual contexts. like removing neil from a situation he's struggling with or when neil is in a vulnerable state of mind re: injury/sickness/intoxication/etc. it's curious to me bcus i think a huge part of andrew's character IS doing things he views as necessary for the protection of his people regardless of what they feel about it. like if neil is injured/unconscious i dont think andrew's going to be debating if it's okay to pick him up without a yes. he's going to be doing whatever he needs to get neil safe/secure/taken care of, and i don't think he would hesitate or regret any of those actions.

if, this evening, the image of a certain childhood comes back to me, how can i keep from welcoming the lesson of love and poverty it offers? since this hour is like a pause between yes and no, i leave hope or disgust with life for another time