The words tasted bitter on my tongue. I told you things were fine. lied to myself saying this could be the only night like this. One night I couldn’t help being selfish. I couldn't help keeping you close, your breath on my neck, your hands on my waist. It felt like goodbye. It felt like a fresh start, tears pricking my eyes. It felt like the last thing I should be doing and the first thing I should have done a long time ago. Because this could end so badly, but I took that thought, that lingering doubt, and shoved it into the back of my head. Just tonight I said as I felt your pulse race against my fingertips. Your eyes were bright, even in the dim light, and I could barely look at you because that's all I wanted to do.
Shouldn’t have let you come this close when I knew I would end up having to push you away. But I couldn’t resist the rush, couldn’t resist the crying of my soul, and now here I was, my mouth dry as sandpaper telling you I'd be fine if things went back the way they were before. That I could forget tonight.
But deep down I knew I couldn't be what you wanted. You might think I am, but you were always wrong about me, from the very first moment we met. The words tasted bitter on my tongue. I told you I'm fine, move on. I told you we would... I could... live on normally after this. I keep a secret and I can. But dear honey eyes, you just destroy my soul with every smile. Every laugh. Every moment you are okay without me.
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