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the main focal point as to why we're all here is to become something; anything. as long as it's grand and big and fantastic and composed of the greatest dreams we've had, then that's what we want to be. we're all here in competitions with our own selves, learning from others regardless of levels but admired for their talents. by competition, i mean that we're.. all sort of outsmarting ourselves with our capabilities and beyond. always reaching for something bigger, bigger and higher than what our standards are comfortable with.

i can't live without a great challenge without perseverance. i kinda strive for that kind of stuff, it keeps me going. keeps my passion always running. always on the go. the quest for a manifestation of something that has grown as a part of me is always active, in which i half-heartedly dislike compliments. they distract me. i begin to feel comfortable when i could be learning or perfecting my faults, and that's important. we're all here with a gift that we've cultivated in the beginnings of their discovery. but everybody's so eager of wanting to leave the earth with an impact from their homage to the arts that we don't think of our own selves, or we don't remain rational.

it's also vital to know your obstacles along the way, and furthermore prepare yourselves for them. it's going to take me awhile to get to where i want to be, and i understand that.

i've come this far. so, as for me, my aspirations is to remain content with the fact that i'll be able to play, write, truly live out what it means to live. a foolish man could only decline success! but that doesn't really mean a thing if it has become meaningless to me.

and i think that’s kinda cruel.

writing.

@badhoneys.

drafted.

@vutriolic, @tempuris, @mortenrose, aetus.

active threads.

( ... )

plotting.

@pullstrings, @filenctfound.

Tagged by: @pullstrings. Tagging: @aetus. @badhoneys. @hedonyms. @filenctfound. @chaoticer. @daseotsal. @gumihc. @terminuum. @spvtnik. @vuranos.

writing.

( ... )

drafted.

@spellbks, @flxriciide, @vutriolic, @tempuris, @mortenrose.

active threads.

( ... )

plotting.

@badhoneys, @pullstrings, @filenctfound.

note: UM i just wanted to thank those who reblogged the ad from a few days ago! it’s been several months since i wrote for an original character, and i’m unhappy with my writing, so i wanna get back to exercising through a hobby that i enjoy.

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Self-Knowledge Questionnaire

Below the surface everyone is pretty complicated. Based on your answers, we think the following three traits are important strands in your personality:

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INDEPENDENCE: You don’t set out to be different for its own sake; you are more easily guided by what interests and moves you. You are more concerned about what is right for you than about the pressure to fit in. In sex you are more aware than others of impulses which are not entirely conventional. You know the value of selective irresponsibility, of forgetting occasionally about being ‘good’.

RATIONALITY: You like clarity and intelligent simplicity and you get frustrated at messy thinking. This can make you seem unreasonably pushy to some, but it is actually a virtue: you are motivated by a horror at pointless effort and a longing for precision and insight into how things and people work. Your ability to synthesise and bring order is essential in producing thinking which is truly helpful.

“ou peut-être hier, je ne sais pas.” or, maybe, yesterday; i can’t be sure. ー l’étranger, camus (1942).

the grey nonchalance in expressing uncertainty, or the lack of thereof. conviction falling at a deficit. it was always you, that felt a strange, indifference to what worsens the deepestー if assumed, most melancholic moods in people. you have always challenged humanity in the best of your efforts; always tending to a form of authority that your voice cannot be drowned out by people of the weak. you are amoral. you are unprincipled, unconcerned, ungoverned. your whims are kept best to your plans. you approach situations with your instinct rather than experience, which defies a disliking towards traditionalism, a love for spontaneity. a little sun in your eyes and you get angry; meursault’s murder of the arab.

yet, the phone rings. you are obligated to read.

“the telegram from the home says: YOUR MOTHER PASSED AWAY. FUNERAL TOMORROW. DEEP SYMPATHY. which leaves the matter doubtful; it could have been yesterday.” ー l’étranger, camus (1942).

the ringing ends. you are left with a message.

“YOUR MOTHER PASSED AWAY. FUNERAL TOMORROW. DEEP SYMPATHY.”

compulsions is a tell-tale sign of your weakness, as a result to feeling irritable when aggressive. coming to defeat these particular urges crowns him as a person of a determined purpose. reluctantly feeling trapped in a situation that may be helpless, he is always, perhaps even desperately, seeking relief. he expresses his hopes and dreams with confidence as if it had been unfairly stomped on by disbelievers; a form of an insult to his honest goals. in essence, he longs to be valued as an important individual along with his qualities. he is yearning to stand out from the crowd, to be able to receive admiration, but the days leading to be has him under anxiety.