venting

Things about me:

-They/any -Autistic, I go to a therapeutic school (it's great tbh)

Characters in my little sob story:

-B (mf who kinda SA'd me) -E (hate to use therapy speak but. guilt-tripping manipulator i blocked) -My parents and my younger sibling -My friends and partner :3 <3/p -A (blocked friend/possible groomer?) -H old caretaker, rlly emotionally immature and traumatized me

General TWs:

i came home from a good school where i'm doing really good and cleaned my room a bit

i read. i've been reading almost all day between school work. my brain feels stimulated everyday, i even get mentally tired some days

i have three house plants, granted one needs more water but i'm working on it, because i'm able to keep myself and other things alive

i'm eating. i'm eating pretty good, at least 1.5 meals a day on a bad day. i've managed 2 and a snack today. it's only 5:30 so no dinner yet but i'm sure i'll eat at least most of it.

i walk to and from school. i'm physically well enough to do that, albeit i struggle on the stairs at school lol. 4 and a half flights every day just to get to home room is not for the weak.

i'm hydrated. i drink just enough water to not get many physical symptoms of dehydration, at least. it's a habit i'm working on.

content warning from here on

i cant even see words that look like their usernames without startling or getting anxious its them

any fandom they were in feels unsafe and what if they’re in communities im in?!

i know they can’t hurt me but it still feels like they can