You're not getting away 😁😋

Cant wait till I cn manage some more free time to cut tf outta myself. Gotta wait till fhe middle of the night.

Whats even the point of seeing these doctors. Were just waiting to rot and die. I cant make this a happy home, no matter how hard I try. Ill just die in it. I dont see the point in my doctors. In the meds. I almost dont even want to go. Or take the meds.

I dont wanna sleep ever again

Im not worth loving. Why do you want me so bad. All I.do. is fuck it all.up.

I cant do anything right

I js wanted to jack off and guess I fwll asleep. I feel so shitty. I shouldve js sucked it up.

Or I wanna crawl into his lap and tease and edge him good til hes fed up w me and pins me down.

I wish I could go on a walk. I feel do stuck inside. Want to have a picnic w him idk. Its stupid and too sappy prob. Also rhinkinf about him fucking me HARD in the closed off wooded area. Cominf back dirty and filled. Fuuuuuck.