J E S S I C A ⠀D R E W

@venomiisms​ said:

“Change is exhausting. I feel like there’s nowhere to hide from all the newness of everything. Except here. With you.”

       clint had no idea what to say. words weren’t his thing at all, meanwhile she was saying these meaningful things and looking at him like that. that damn look. those green eyes, they burrowed through it all. he could try to write it off, to push the feelings away but those eyes always saw right through it. they made him sweat way more than he should. maybe that’s what he loved about her. 

       he opened his lips several times, multiple breaths to speak only to close once again, wordlessly the air was getting stale between them and it was like he could feel the disappointment. he didn’t know what else to try, he had to say something. 

       “ kiss me, ” he whispered, almost so quiet even he couldn’t hear it himself. it was a stupid thing to say, when had he ever asked for anything ? if he had more than this split second he’d be having a conversation with himself, the phrase ‘ barton, you dummy ’ would be bouncing around his head. but instead, he just slammed his lips against hers. it wasn’t a gentle kiss, it was a heavy one, grabbing her, holding her as close to himself as he could as if hoping that somehow him gripping her hard enough he was afraid to bruise her would mean something. 

       suddenly it hit him. usually feeling her stole his breath, made him breathless and wordless and suddenly the words came to him already. finally he parted, avoiding her gaze as he always did when he said something like this. he couldn’t ever look at her in case he sounded like an idiot. 

       “ you’re wrong. ” he knew he could expect some quick reaction from her, he should be acting fast but suddenly time stood still, almost taking an eternity to talk again in his mind. “ everything changes here. ” 

       “ this place used to just be a mess of endless stupid arrow shirts. there was nothing here before you. you changed everything here and if you feel like this is safe you’re only proving my point. everything changes, even this. even us. but change isn’t always bad. you changed this place from an apartment to a home. ”

     Still reeling from his kiss, it was Jessica’s turn to be speechless. When the words began pouring from Clint’s mouth, a variety of emotions bubbled around in her chest, the feeling of electricity sparking throughout her venom-laced veins. And in an attempt to rein in her vulnerability, Jess blinked hard a few times to keep her tears at bay. 

     Her hand left his so she could cradle his face, and her fingertips gently rubbed his fresh stubble. It amazed her that Clint saw past her flaws. Though, when she thought on it further, he didn’t see past them -- Clint saw her for who she was, flaws and all, and accepted them. He cared for her every single part of her, and that realisation brought a soft smile to her lips.

     Maybe he was right, this sort of change was something Jess could get used to.

     It had been at least a minute minute now, and Jessica still didn’t have the words to express how she felt, so instead she brought Clint’s face to hers once more, giving him a quick, yet soft kiss, before pulling back only a little. 

       “ what ? ” that was his initial reaction when any of his ex girlfriends hit him. which seemed to be a common occurrence these days. “ have you seen my family tree ?? drunk dad, idiot brother, somehow i’m the model barton. and don’t act like you’ve fallen off any less buildings than i have, this kid is going to be stubborn as all hell. ” he was just hoping it didn’t start today, he would have to call bobbi to figure out how to handle problem children. 

       “ pfft, old woman, ” he scoffed, just trying to get under her skin. “ you missed one hell of a party. ” even as he made jokes, he never took his eyes off his son. he could only imagine jess was enjoying watching him play, but clint was watching his arms. kid seemed to have far more barton in him than she let on, he was making plans. “ i dunno what’s with the hands, i am a hero, lady. cap says so himself. if anything, i think he’ll have to fight kate for the hawkeye name in a few years. it’s only a matter of time. ”

      “ you might hate to admit it, but he’s a barton. and it’s not the blue eyes or the bow that makes us a barton. that kid’s got a huge heart and when he grows up, he’ll walk through hell just to help people. best thing we can do, is show him who to point that thing at and wish him luck. ”

 Indignantly,   Jessica   folded   her   arms,   immediately   proving   his   “S T U B B O R N”   comment   as   soon   as   she   did.   With   her   lips   P O U T Y   pursed,   she   rolled   her   eyes,   growing   slightly   annoyed   that   C L I N T   B A R T O N   kept   making   good   points. 

 She   was   now   watching   him   as   he   watched   their   son,   however.   Jessica   could   tell   Clint   was    A D M I R I N G   the   kid’s   form,   even   though   he   was   still   at   such   a   young   age.   It   was   something   she   did   from   time   to   time,   too,   amazed   at   how   A D V A N C E D   his   little   toddler   body   was   already,   both   physically   and   mentally.   Sometimes   Jessica   would   play   certain   games   with   him   at   home   to   test   his   R E A C T I O N   T I M E,   though   occasionally   this   resulted   in   him   getting   a   little   too   E X C I T E D,   which   caused   his   venom   blasts   to   fire   off   wherever   he   waved   his   T I N Y   H A N D S.   

 ❛ Hey,   at   least   I   have   some   sort   of   D E - A G E I N G   nonsense   that   keeps   me   looking   young   forever   ——   or,   at   least,   for   a   W H I L E. ❜   Jessica   flicked   at   Clint’s   nose   lightly   with   a   single   finger.   ❛ While   you’ll   turn   all   W R I N K L Y   and   G R E Y.   In   fact,   I   think   I   see   a   grey   now. ❜   Reaching   into   his   blonde   locks,   Jess   pulled   out   a   random   hair,   tossing   it   away   immediately   so   he   wouldn’t   notice   it   wasn’t   said   colour.   ❛   And   of   course   you’re   a   H E R O,   Clint, ❜   she   continued,   her   gaze   now   returning   to   the   kid.   ❛ And   S O   A M   I,   it’s   just   never   stopped   feeling   W E I R D   to   say   it.   Especially   since   it   took   so   long   for   me   to   A C T U A L L Y   feel   like   one   in   the   first   place. ❜   She   shifted   uncomfortably,   briefly   thinking   back   to   how   she’d   been   treated   after   the   S K R U L L   I N V A S I O N. 

       “ jess, that kid’s a barton. if he wants to crawl up a wall with the bow and arrow, he’ll die before he stops trying. ” it probably didn’t help ease her mind any, but recklessness was his family gene. the thing about recklessness is either way, that kid was going to go out of his way to have fun. even if it meant running through the park, shooting toy arrows down the field. 

       “ hate to break it to you, but my hawkeye outfit was sunglasses way before your outfit had any. and if you think there’s no leather jacket in my closet, you’re forgetting something called the eighties, honey. ” he sat down next to her, mainly just so he could finish his pizza in peace. “ you’re far too dramatic. ”

 ❛ Clint! ❜   She   hissed,   the   hand   that   was   pressed   to   her   face   falling   to   hit   against   his   chest.   She   knew   he   was   right,   though.   Between   the   P O W E R S   she   gave   him   and   the     P E R S O N A L I T Y   Clint   passed   on,   Jess   knew   she’d   essentially   be   raising   an   A C R O B A T   in   training. 

 Scoffing   at   the   rest   of   what   he   said,   Jess   sat   down   next   to   him.  ❛ I   was   in   S T A S I S   during   the   80′s.   Kinda   hard   to   forget   something   you   weren’t   even   there   for   in   the   first   place. ❜    She   spoke   to   Clint,   but   her   eyes   followed   their   son   as   he   W A D D L E D   about   the   park,   aiming   the   bow   at   various   trees   and   street   lamps.   After   watching   him   play   for   another   minute,   she   turned   to   look   at   Clint.    ❛ D’ya   think   he’s   going   to   end   up   like   us?   Y’know,     “H E R O E S”  ❜    she   used   her   fingers   to   form   air   quotes   around   the   word,   disliking   using   it   to   describe   herself   in   casual   conversation,   as   it   sounded   T O O   C H E E S Y   to   her.

@venomiisms​

       “ sure thing, buddy, ” he said, mouth full of pizza as he pushed him off down the path. “ hit it up. ” 

       he couldn’t help but smile and feel so smug, watching as his kid ran off playing ‘ avengers ’ as he liked to. clint bought him that bow and arrow as a joke, but he was honestly so happy he took to it. 

       “ this must be killing you. ” he couldn’t help but laugh as he leaned over to her. he was purposely rubbing it in, just to be an ass. it was half the fun of having a kid with your ex girlfriend, anyway.

 ❛ At   least   he   can’t   C R A W L   U P   W A L L S   or   S H O O T   V E N O M   from   his   fingertips   with   that   bow   in   his   hands. ❜   Secretly   however,   Jessica   was   loving   seeing   her   kid   ——   T H E I R   kid   ——   so   happy.   She   was   loving   how   involved   Clint   was,   despite   how   secretive   the   pair   had   immediately   agreed   to   be   after   finding   out   Jess   was   pregnant   four   years   ago.   And   more   and   more,   she   was   adoring   the   time   she   spent   with   Clint   P L A Y I N G   H O U S E   in   their   own   special   way.

 She’d   be   damned   if   she’d   let   him   know   any   of   that,   though.   ❛ But   yeah,   it’s     A B S O L U T E L Y   killing   me, ❜   Jess   teased,   falling   backwards   against   a   wide   tree   with   the   back   of   her   hand   dramatically   slapping   her   forehead.   ❛ I’ll   just   have   to   buy   him   a   leather   jacket   complete   with   toddler   shades   to   E V E N   I T   O U T. ❜

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