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Diagnosis I've been given over the course of my life: ADHD, bipolar 2, cyclothymia, generalized anxiety, PTSD, OCD, major depression, anorexia, major depression w/ psychosis, borderline personality, narcissistic personality, persistent depression w/ psychosis, CUD, AUD, schizoaffective depressive, gender dysphoria (I do believe I had fit the criteria for most of these at the time except for the bipolar 2 and adhd. I believe I had conduct disorder as a child not ADHD!)

Diagnoses I have been diagnosed with and agree I currently have: schizoaffective depressive type, borderline personality, narcissistic personality, AUD, anorexia, gender dysphoria

Diagnosis I have traits of and heavily relate to: antisocial personality, schizoid personality, schizotypal personality, hoarding, obsessive compulsive personality

Other non-dsmv: maladaptive daydreaming, workaholicism, thanatophobia (not current)

Substances I have (ab)used: marijuana/ THC, benzos (specifically, ativan and valium), codiene & alcohol. Currently only use alcohol & have been an alcoholic for 5yrs.

About my personality disorders:

I have been diagnosed with BPD several times in inpatient facilities, however I do not have a fear of abandonment.

I was diagnosed with NPD once. I reject the ideas of covert and overt narcissism. I do not have any self awareness of being low self esteem and cannot relate to NPDs who vocally have low self esteem. Nobody in my life would except I was a narcissist.

I believe I may have ASPD, never been diagnosed but told multiple times I had traits, that I most likely had conduct disorder as a child, and have been called a "sociopath" by medical professionals.... Not that I think I need a diagnosis nor have any desire to seek one out.

How I experience my mood symptoms:

Short-duration hypomanic episodes (2–3 days)

Hypomanic episodes with insufficient symptoms

Depressive episode, with mixed features

Dysthymia with intermittent major depressive episodes

Schizospec:

I met all criteria for schizophrenia. I've had every symptom at some point.

I believe that my schizophrenia is why I heavily relate to both schizoid personality and schizotypal personality. Of course my official diagnosis is schizoaffective due to the mood symptoms.

I experience "internal hallucinations" not just external!

I genuinely feel that I am weird and odd and believe this is part of my schizophrenia.

I am less asocial then I'd like to be.

Dissociation & identity:

I feel I have distinct personalities, but I do not experience amnesia, I do not call them alters, I do not consider myself a system or to have DID.

I experience both derealization and depersonalization

Anxiety:

I no longer fit the criteria for generalized anxiety (yay yippie!)

I do have social anxiety and as a subset have extreme phone anxiety

History of panic attacks

Other:

Age regressor

History of self harm

Suicidal

Homicidal