Viera Enthusiast

This is my fault alone.

Just tell me everything will be okay. Just hug me tell me you love me …I don't want to lose you because I am stupid

You tell me you still love me despite everything and because you love me you are that way because you care? But why do I feel so hurt and betrayed why do I have such a hard time believing it? Why do I then feel like I'm about to lose you forever?

Maybe it's time to accept that I might be a massive red flag and not capable of holding meaningful and healthy relationships. I guess I'm just to fucked up for all of this.

I'm at my parents place so I have to endure my depressive thoughts without being able to hide under a blanket and cry. Also I feel like I'm about to ruin my relationship. I'm afraid of losing him. I know I say shit like "I'm probably better off alone" but that's just me being frustrated I don't want to lose my partner but with how things are rn. Idk. Fuck my life I guess.

I guess it shows that I am in a fueled up mental state again. Sorry for all the (incoming) spam. I have to get shit out of my system.