formerly known as @fuckingshitasspenislicker

*(read: the elementary/middle school that literally did not have a special education program because it "wasn't in the budget", and was just praying not to get sued over it (they did eventually), wasn't exactly equipped to acknowledge, much less work with my autism or then-undiagnosed ADHD)

When I can find the focus to just sit down and read, it's enjoyable enough. It's not the "completely sucked into the world and enamored with every little detail" type of experience I always hear about, but it's enjoyable. The problem's just getting there, and actually finding that level of concentration to be able to comprehend and digest the text, as opposed to just skimming.

Much as I like to try and come off like the well-knowledged intellectual type, it's frankly a major sore spot that I don't actually read. For the vast majority of what could charitably be called my reading career, I only consumed fanfiction, and even then I lost the ability to sit through that years ago. The last time I was really able to focus on a piece of literature was when I picked up Fahrenheit 451 at my city's Barnes and Noble after therapy one day a couple months back. I remember really enjoying it, as I'd never got the chance to read it or much of anything else in high school for myriad reasons. Even if I did enjoy what I read of the book, I sure as hell couldn't tell you anything about it now, not even the protagonist's name.

I'm not exactly looking for recommendations or anything. I know for sure that if I am going to be spending a lot of time reading, it probably needs to be in an environment where I can't really do much of anything else. Whether that means throwing me into a book store and picking me up in an hour or two, or locking me in a shed with a printed-out Netteflix fanfic, who can really say?