all the bright, precious things fade so fast

1. manifested simply

— I woke up, thought ‘butterfly’ and within half an hour there was a butterfly in my garden that couldn’t fly so I saved it.

— the best thing about manifesting a simple word like that is you don’t expect it because you haven’t put pressure on a certain form of it. for example, my manifestation could have resulted in the word butterfly being used in a conversation.

2. played an intuition game

— it was just one of those tiktoks that say “choose the shape your gut tells you to choose”. I chose one. the tarot card I got was ‘judgement’. I knew nothing about tarot and searched it up.

— the judgement card, when upright means: awakening. transformation. karmic justice. renewal. life changing decisions.

— when reverse, it means: self doubt. fear of change. avoidance. stagnation. lack of closure.

— essentially it equates to: a higher level of consciousness and spiritual awakening.

3. actually said that my husband was my husband

— I am someone who has always felt a bit irked out by myself when thinking about my partner. I feel like a fangirl. the moment I said to myself: “James Fraser is my husband”, something clicked inside me.

— however I feel like this is a more personal factor. it probably applies to others, but not everyone.

the combination of these three things made me feel good. they made me feel positive. when people say: “you don’t need to be positive to shift” they aren’t lying, but it is so much easier to be optimistic and continue persisting and affirming when you feel good about yourself, your manifestations, your consciousness.

just keep chipping at it because it will work itself out.