BritBrat

Part 1

I'll take care of you

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Sasuke…Do you remember how we met? I said as we both sat under a cherry blossom tree. The soft pink petals slowly danced in the wind. One landing on my finger.

“Hmm..” He said with eyebrows perked up from him reading a book

I gave him a gentle smile “ how we met…It was near this same area right by this cherry blossom tree”

……

I was a small child walking through the forest picking flowers to press. I enjoyed the noises of the small critters running through the forest  as well as the wind rustling through the trees. It was peaceful for me. I stopped when I saw a then young sasuke and his father training near by the cherry blossom tree.He seems to be learning a sort of jutsu but can't grasp it correctly.His father grew more and more inpatient with Sasuke's failure and finally snapped “ Sasuke just stop….call me when you are serious and could do the fireball jutsu”” he said walking away. 

“Even your older brother at a younger age could master what you are struggling to do so easily” The father replied leaving an even more defeated Sasuke.

I stared at him for a few moments and felt pity for me.I knew of Sasuke from class but he always kept to himself. He ignores the girls that chase after him and the boys that wanted to be in proximity to him to also look cool. I never knew he had the same troubles as I did when it comes to having a father who no matter how hard you try just couldn't be pleased.I know this feeling all too well.

I walked over to him, taking a flower out of my bag.  I stood above him while he was crouching down clearly saddened. I gave him a sunflower. He stared up at me with his dark onyx eyes clearly confused. “ I thought you did your very bes…t and one day you will nail it.’ I told him with soft voice.

And after that day we were inseparable. Our families didn't really like eachother infact no clan liked the Uchiha clan because of the conspiracy of them wanting to rebel against Konoha and It doesn't help that hundreds of years ago of the conflict between the senju clan and the uchiha clan. But I didn't see Sasuke in that way. I loved him.

And today we are still as close as ever. We just recently graduated from th academy all though we were put in separate teams we still celebrated with a nice picnic today. I was upset that we were separated but Sasuke was even more upset.”Don’t push yourself too hard” he would tell me.He didn't think I could survive on my own. 

Sasuke has always been overprotective of me, maybe even possessive at times. But I pleaded with him that I will be okay and he won’t ever lose me. So we trained together and promised to get stronger so we can live a life that's ours. Not belonging to our fathers or the clans or anyone else but to us two.

And everything went well until that day of the massacre of the Uhicha clan by Itachi Uchiha.And it came as a shock to me just as everyone else. Despite the Clans representation Itachi came off as the “good one” among them. I knew Sasuke was close to him and loved him dearly. I remember hearing of the attack and rushing to see sasuke .Not listening to the cries of my parents warning not to visit him , I ran with tears streaming down my face hoping he was alive because nothing else mattered but Sasuke at that moment. 

And I was relieved when I learned he was alive. I held onto him dearly and fervently as if he would break and wither away from me if I didn't. I'm not sure why he killed them all except for Sasuke. And when I ask Sasuke it pains him to relieve the trauma and he mutters that he doesn't know.

Retelling of IWTV from Claudia's pov and her inner thoughts.

Part 1

It was a stormy night as I stared out the window from my bedroom at the dark streets of New Orleans. I watch as the grown people walk by without limitations in their life. I wish I had that. A life without limits , where I could be the woman that I so desperately wanted to be.

You see I have the unfortunate fate of being a child vampire. My mind grows ancient but my body remains that of a 5 year old. This is a fate far worse than burning in the sun. Many times I have contemplated stepping in the sun to end this suffering. 

 For this I hate both my vampire fathers for making me this way. I’m not sure who did it but I have a feeling this was lestat doing and Louis being weak minded allowed this. 

“Claudia ..it’s time to feed ,do you hear me?.. Claudia” Lestat said from outside my room

My relationship with Lestat was a complicated one because although I did love him I also hated him for making me what I am. It was lestat who turned me I was sure of it. Lestat and I would take whole families together. Although I don’t like to admit it I am more like lestat than I like to admit. His evil was my evil. He taught me everything I needed to know to survive and I still remember what he told me when I was awakened “ Not me ever again…but I will show you what to do” .

I got ready to meet Lestat at the carriage outside and said bye to my Louie. Louis even though I loved was weak. He refused to join us to hunt and would rather feast on animals. He had a very soft nature which to a human would seem endearing but to a vampire a sign of weakness.

Tonight was I must admit a good night of feasting. Lestat and I drank from an aristocratic family. I found thrill in hunting families and I enjoy watching them suffer, especially beautiful women. It’s mostly envy on my part however since they have everything that I want.

When I came home I sat in my room and lounged on my bed staring at the endless dolls that decorated my bed. Each one I assume is for my birthday. They won’t tell me my age but I assume I must be at least in my 40s according to how many dolls I have. 

And although the dolls did resemble me I did despise looking at them as they were a constant reminder of this physical prison I was trapped in which was my body. 

…

I know nothing about Lestat and his past. Louis I know everything. He wears his heart out. He had a brother and a sister as well as a mother and they were human and I had a mother once and she was also human. I wonder if Lestat took us away from our humans, so he can selfishly keep us to himself. He would never let us go, we would have to escape from him.Louis was the easier one to manipulate out of the two so I will use him to one day kill Lestat.

But even though Lestate is the father of lies I still loved him. However I also hated him and my hate for him was stronger than my will to love him. I pester him many times on our vampire origins and he tells me he doesn't know.

“And of course you don't know..and I'm sure the vampire before you probably doesn't know and the vampire before that vampire also didn't know” I said sarcastically.

“What is the matter with her Louie?..She's pestering me again..I swear you grow more and more like Louis everyday with your constant bickering and wanting answers which you needn't know.” he would reply.

To him, pampering me in the finest clothing, extravagant gifts, and making sure I was well educated means I am bound to him for forever. Not asking questions ,not ever.

I was always curious about my mother. What was she like ? And if I was to grow up would I have looked more like her? But I will never know because I was robbed of that and she will forever exist as a fragment in my memories.

…

We are a family of vampires, just us 3 and we are active during the night and sleep during the day avoiding the sun like the plague or else we will burn in the sun.And today I sat during the night playing chess with Louis. I did enjoy spending time with him.It was more gentle with Louis because he raised me as a father would do and he taught me how to read, write as well as explore the arts. Louis saw me as his child but Lestat saw me as an extension of himself.

“Louie don't you grow bored of living here among the same people in the same city” I asked

His eyes perked up saying “hmm? What do you mean my claudia”

“Its just a thought you know to explore the world and discover people like us and what we are?” I chimed

“Claudia..” he said defeatingly 

I know he hates it when I talk like this. I have confronted him on my feelings of Lestat and how he holds us back but he shuts me down not wanting to arouse conflict. And if I could leave them both and venture on my own I would but I cant do that because i can not care for myself.Thats what pains me the most is that I know I can never be free from either of them or this life.

“But why must you not want to talk about it louie? Why must you be so accepting of this fate that Lestat has bestowed upon you?” I asked him with anger

I ran to my room not wanting to look at him even though he called after me. I lay on my bed surrounded by dozens of dolls and weeped silently. I opened my journal and drew the figure of a woman with endowments I would never have. The inspiration of the figure was from a beautiful naked woman I saw outside her window while strolling the city at night with my two fathers. 

Lestat being obtuse asking “ Oh look claudia had found her next victim” I quickly ran from him and towards louie for comfort. “NO’ I replied, “I wanted to be her."

I wanted to enjoy the happiness and sorrows of womanhood. I would do anything to get that. It's tiresome being treated like a child. Everywhere I go people point at me in awe of how adorable I am and never seeing me as the beguiling woman I so desperately wanted to be seen as. Every style I attempted, every jewelry I wore or how I styled my hair was a failed attempt of how a woman would look like.It was like a child playing dress up.