I realized that ultimately, my biggest problem with Kevin and Thea's relationship is simply that Kevin is my favorite character and my obsession, my hyperfixation, my wife & the thought that keeps me up at night. Like, no, you can't come to me and explain that Thea is perfect for him because she's a girlboss and puts him in his place, because honestly, I don't think he needs that. I even think it's bad for him.
The only truth he currently possesses is that he's the best, period. He is nothing else. And even that is only a recent development; for years he had to hide in Riko's shadow to not shine brighter, bigger. The one time he openly surpasses the King, ends with Kevin having his hand broken. ATFG almost ended up here! Kev would have killed himself in that damn nest.
He probably spent years listening to Riko tell him he's good, for a second place. So no, he doesn't 'need to be put in his place'. And I'm not stupid, I understand that people mean Kevin is a bitch and always talks shit. But Kevin only makes comments about exy, & people's exy skill. The foxes talk shit too, and Neil himself says it's hard to hate him for that when Kevin demands more from himself than he does from the others.
Like, yes, Kevin is annoying when he tells you 'your passes are bad', but look at me in the eyes & tell me that that justifies Thea hitting him with 'you're making up traumas and you brainwashed Jean'.
Obviously, not everyone needs to end up married with kids, but if he has to end up with someone, I need it to be someone who completely understands him. I need, for once, someone who puts him first. This isn't a criticism of the Foxes; they all have complicated pasts, and their way of moving forward is just to say, oh well, the world is cruel, and people like us don't deserve anything better. But Kevin deserves better, deserves better than to be just the son of exy, deserves better than to end up an alcoholic when all his closest friends meet their soulmates because of him. Do I need to write it in bold? To scream louder for the people in the back? KEVIN. DESERVES. HAPPINESS.
I need someone to force him to slow down and take time for himself, someone who will listen to him explain what happened and choose to stand up for HIM, because the fandom won't, and Kevin himself is too considerate of others, no matter what people say, to do so.
I need someone who will hear the "Kevin abandoned Jean" argument and be 100% Team Kevin. Someone who will look him in the eye and tell him, no, you don't have to feel guilty because you were, you are a victim. Yes, running away from a cult is a form of courage too. Yes, whatever you think, you didn't owe Jean anything, and by staying, you would both have died. You saved him & yourself, be fucking proud. To understand that Jean's complicated emotions are understandable because of the horrific abuse they experienced at the nest, but also to understand that objectively, these emotions are unjustified and Kevin did nothing wrong.
Someone who understands that "Being heterosexual is easier" is a fact, plain and simple. Someone who understands that back then, being gay while still being a regular human being was already dangerous. Someone who understands that even today, top athletes have a lot of trouble coming out, and that doing so reduces their career to "that gay athlete," but also puts their career and life at risk. Better yet for our nest trio, their careers are their lives. 💜
Someone who understands that Kevin saw what happened to Jeremy. Someone who understands that he saw what happened to Jean, and he's right. Being heterosexual, sadly, is still easier. I need someone who will hear Kevin tell Neil to run away and acknowledge Kevin's kindness, the fact that he thought of Neil before their season (that's all he has). Someone who recognizes that yes, for Neil, running away would be a form of weakness because he's spent his life running away, but that for Kevin, running away is a form of courage because he's spent his life locked away with his problems. That he's spent his life sharing a room with his problem, with his monster.
You people don't tell victims of abuse that leaving their home is being a coward & running away from your problems. Quick example, Sirius Black? Loved, as he should be! So why are we acting like it's not the same for Kevin? Why are we acting as if he is anything more than a messed up young adult with no power, no family and, at that time no future just fighting his way to perhaps be granted one more chance at the side of a man who didn't even know he was his father? That is brave. That is so fucking brave!
I need someone who will listen to what Kevin said about how 'even if Jean tells the media what happened, he won't be believed/nothing will happen', and who will understand that yes, Kevin cares about Jean. That yes, again, it's a fact, and it's sad.
Someone who will read into his acts of kindness & see just that. See how big of a heart that stupid man has; like the time he told Bee she could share his traumas with Jean if it helps him talk. We moved too quickly from that.
Someone who will be as obsessed with those beautiful green eyes as I am, who will want to listen to him talk about history just because Kevin seems so passionate about it, and seeing him happy is reason enough. That will listen to his probably stupid Marseille accent and melt, who won't listen to movies/animes with Japanese VO because it triggers him.
The whole fandom puts itself in Neil's shoes, in Andrew's shoes, in Jean's shoes. Jeremy will see Jean's point of view and explain to him how wonderful he is and did no wrong. Neil and Andrew will see each other. Everyone gives them reasons because they obviously deserve it and they've been through hell, but for once I need someone who isn't going to be "fair" in their approach. Someone who will look at Kevin and say, "Yes, I know they're all suffering and it's easy to just give you a bottle of alcohol or yell at you because you're a bitch, but actually, you're suffering TOO. And nobody sees that. So while the world is busy clearing a path for others, I'll take the time just for you."
Kevin is his father's son first & before anything because that man was picking up strays in the street & being like "no trust the process I have hope for this one" when the people in question didn't even believe in themselves!! He was on a mission & somehow put them all on a path where they found themselves a home to get to & people to have their backs. & you want me to accept that after that, he ends with "she's a girl boss because she puts him back in his place"?? In a world where Andreil understand each other completely, are constantly stuck in each other's orbit (to take back what Jean said). In a world where Jerejean are each other's safe place & they heal together while being soft & loving. In a world where Nicky speaks about Erik like his happiness, where Matt & Dan are the best & the healthiest relationship to exist?
I could talk for hours about why Thea, in particular, isn't what I want for him; talk about victim blaming, about how she talks about Kevin and Jean. About their age difference, about the fact that she's a proud Raven... But Thea herself isn't the only problem. The thing is, I'm absolutely in love with Kevin Day, he's constantly on my mind, and I need someone who will see what a wonderful person he is. Someone who will be a Kevin Day simp but also have other interesting qualities.
I'll be completely satisfied if there's nothing romantic about it and he just makes a lot of friends who force him to do non-sport-related activities like going to see historical movies or amusement parks. Just someone that will stand by his side & adore him because damn does he deserve it. Neil gets the love & support of the foxes unconditionally, Jean has the Trojans standing up for him. & Kevin is what, alcoholic?
Call me a Kevin Day glazer, IDC. You can't sell me the "puts Kevin in his place because he thinks he's the best" when I need "puts Kevin in his place because we have to get through his thick head that yes, he might be the best sexy player ever, but he's also SO much more." If he ends with Thea in the end, the only reason I'd be able to get over it is if that girl FIGHTS for him. Like grovel & chase & courts him. Like he is the people's princess.
Rant over, that's all I had to say for now lmao. Not that I expect anyone to read something this long.
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