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Spilled coffee and unnecessary noise
Chapter 4
Y/N
After returning from Malibu, I couldn't stop thinking about his message. "Your route in California has been tracked." It sounded like an FBI report, but beneath the dry tone lay something far more complex and dangerous. Benjamin Poindexter was obsessed with control, and for some reason, I had become part of that control.
On Tuesday, the rain poured down nonstop in Hell's Kitchen. At midday, when most of the employees had gone to the cafeteria, I saw Dex. He was standing by the window in the empty hallway, his shoulder pressed against the wall. His fingers nervously fiddled with an ordinary paper clip, bending and unbending it with alarming, precise regularity.
I exhaled, steeling myself, and approached him.
"Dex."
He turned his head sharply. The paper clip in his fingers instantly froze. "Y/N. You're back on schedule. There was a four-minute delay due to traffic on Fifth Avenue."
"Yes, New York City traffic is inevitable chaos," I smiled softly, taking a step closer. "Listen... Did you have lunch today?"
He frowned, as if I'd asked him something in a foreign language.
"Lunch is scheduled for 1:00 PM. Meals: protein, complex carbohydrates, 500 milliliters of water."
"Great. It's already 1:05 PM. There's a small Italian place two blocks from here. It's quiet, almost deserted, and they make amazing pasta. Come with me?"
Dex froze. I could see the gears clashing in his head: FBI regulations, his own personal rules, a fear of social distancing, and... a desire to be close." “I'm on duty. My job is perimeter security.” “Agent Lima will relieve you for thirty minutes, I already asked him,” I replied, bowing my head slightly. “It's just lunch, Benjamin. No interrogations, no paperwork.” He was silent for five long seconds. His gaze scanned my face, searching for a catch. Finding none, he nodded slightly.
“Thirty minutes. No more.” The diner was indeed half empty. We sat at a small table in the very corner. Dex sat perfectly upright, his arms resting parallel to each other on the table. When the waiter brought silverware, Benjamin first carefully adjusted his fork and knife, aligning them with the edge of the napkin at a ninety-degree angle.
Noticing this, I said nothing. I merely quietly pushed a straw toward him for his drink. "Your father..." Dex suddenly said, not looking up from his plate. "Does he know you're here with me?"
"No," I answered sincerely. "And if he did, he'd send a couple of jets. But this is my life, Dex. Dad loves me, but his protection sometimes feels like steel armor, making it hard to breathe."
Dex looked up at me. Something akin to understanding flickered in his gray eyes.
"Armor protects against blows," he said quietly. "Without it... you're too easily broken."
"Perhaps," I chuckled, looking down at my pasta. "But if you're always in armor, you'll never feel warmth. You hide too, Dex. Behind your uniform, behind rules, behind straight lines."
He froze abruptly, fork in hand. The pulse in his neck quickened.
"I need rules," a hard, defensive note crept into his voice. "Without them... everything falls apart."
"I'm not suggesting we break them," I interrupted him softly, covering his cold palm with my own.
Dex flinched at the touch, as if struck by an electric shock, but he didn't pull his hand away. He looked at my fingers on the back of his hand as if it were the most complex and incomprehensible physical phenomenon he'd ever encountered.
"I just want you to know," I whispered, "that with me, you don't have to pretend to be the perfect soldier.
Benjamin Poindexter
Her hand was warm.
This was against the rules. FBI internal regulations prohibit physical contact with a protected subject. My personal rules prohibit allowing people within two meters.
But when her fingers touched my skin, the noise in my head—that eternal, damned hum of screams, spilled coffee, and rustling tapes—simply shut off. There was absolute, ringing silence.
Pulse: 68 beats per minute. Below normal.
I looked at Y/N. She was eating pasta, awkwardly adjusting a stray strand of hair. There was no falsehood in her. She wasn't trying to pry my secrets, like the psychologists in the army. She wasn't afraid of me, like Illena. She... accepted my order.
"Benji, find the empathic anchor," Dr. Mercer's voice came back.
Now I knew who my anchor was. Not the tapes. Not my FBI service.
She.
If anyone tries to harm her—Fiske, street thugs, or even her own father, who wants to take her from me—I will destroy them. I will count to ten and clear her perimeter of any chaos.
As we walked out of the diner and back into the New York rain, I took a step closer to her, opening the larger umbrella over her head, letting the drops run down my own shoulder.
"Dex, you're getting wet!" she cried, trying to move the umbrella.
"It's normal," I replied. My voice was firm. "The main thing is that you stay dry." She smiled. And that smile is imprinted in my memory like a clear, perfect frame that I will replay in my head again and again.
Y/N
I've always felt that gaze. That same heavy, fixating gaze that leaves no blind spots. Deep down, I already knew Benjamin was watching me far more closely than FBI protocol required. The message about California, the remark about taking the route through the backyard... A normal agent wouldn't behave like that. But I didn't believe he wanted to harm me. There was no malice or greed in it. It was the desperation of a man grasping for the only lifeline in a storm.
I wanted to help him. Really. Not as a lawyer, not as Tony Stark's daughter, but simply as someone who knows how painful it is when your inner world crumbles.
Around four o'clock on Thursday, Agent Radeh called Dex in for an emergency briefing. Taking advantage of the fact that the duty room was empty, I decided to bring him his favorite black coffee without sugar from a trusted coffee shop. The door to the break room was slightly ajar. I quietly pushed it open with the toe of my shoe and walked in.
"Dex?" I breathed.
The room was empty. His work clipboard and his leather organizer lay open on the desk. I hadn't meant to spy, honestly. But my gaze accidentally caught something sticking out from the file.
It was a photograph. My photograph.
The hand holding the coffee cup froze. I walked closer and slowly lowered the mug onto the edge of the table. My fingers trembled slightly as I pulled out the photos.
They weren't just photographs. There was my entire life, dissected with frightening, meticulous precision. A photo of me with my dad at the entrance to the Tower. A shot taken through the glass of the coffee shop. A photo of me laughing on a street in Malibu—clearly taken from a surveillance camera or through a powerful lens.
Beneath the photos, in neat, perfect, blueprint-like handwriting, were tables:
"Y/N. Sleep time: 6-7 hours. Risk level: high (no armor). Center of gravity: family loyalty. Acceptable distance: 0.5 meters. In case of threat: neutralize the target of chaos within 1.2 seconds."
My heart pounded somewhere in my throat. Fear—pure, sticky fear—paralyzed me for a second. It was full-blown stalking. He knew when I drank water, when I changed my route, when I sighed.
But then I looked at the next sheet. There were no threats. There were his own notes, scribbled in a jagged, shaky hand:
"If she leaves, the silence will disappear. Y/N is my center. Stick to the rules. "Don't harm her. Protect her."
Fear gave way to a deafening, piercing pity. He wasn't a monster. He was a gravely, deeply ill man, struggling to cling to the edge of a cliff, and that edge was me.
A quiet, measured step sounded behind me. The door closed.
Benjamin Poindexter
The lock clicked.
I froze in the doorway. Y/N stood by my desk. She held pages from my organizer. My diagrams. My notes. My obsession.
My entire system, weeks in the making, collapsed in a second. The noise in my head returned with such force, as if a lathe had hit my skull. My ears rang. My pulse: 110. 120.
Chaos.
She saw everything. Now she knows. She will call my father. Stark will fly in and destroy me. I will be suspended, locked up, stripped of my uniform, stripped of my structure. Stripped of her.
“You... shouldn’t have touched this,” I whispered. My voice trembled treacherously. My fingers clenched into fists. I took two quick, heavy steps forward. “This is... a violation. This is confidential. Put it down!”
I looked wild. I knew it. My jaw clenched, my eyes widened, and my breathing became ragged, like a cornered animal. Any normal person in her place would have been screaming or running for the door.
But Y/N didn’t run. She didn’t even flinch.
She slowly lowered the papers onto the table, took a step toward me, and looked up at me with her surprisingly warm brown eyes. There was no disgust in them. There was no horror.
“Benjamin...” she said quietly, very softly. “I’ve known for a long time.”
I froze, as if struck dead. Stupor gripped my body.
“What?” I managed to force out.
“You were following me.” "In the coffee shop, near my house, even in Malibu," she took another step, closing the distance between us to half a meter. "I felt your gaze. At first, it was terrifying. But now I see those recordings... Dex, you're in a lot of pain, right? There's too much noise in your head."
I swallowed the dry lump in my throat. Dr. Mercer's voice in my head finally fell silent, giving way to her living voice.
"I... I need order," I said with difficulty, looking down at her hands. "You... you give me silence. If you tell your father... if they take me away... I won't be able to maintain control."
"I won't tell Dad anything," Y/N replied firmly.
She reached out and gently, weightlessly touched my wrist—where my pulse was pounding. Her touch sent a wave of warmth up my forearm, and that damned buzzing in my ears slowly began to subside.
“I won’t tell him, Benjamin. And I won’t run away. But you need help. Real help. We can’t continue like this as if everything is fine. Let’s find a way to get through this together? Without surveillance. Without fear.”
I looked at her fingers on my wrist. My pulse began to slow: 95... 85... 74.
She knew about my darkness. She saw the most shameful, the most terrifying fragments of my mind—and instead of destroying me, she offered her hand. For the first time in my life, someone wasn’t just demanding I be the perfect soldier, but wanted to fix me.
“How... how are we going to do that?” I asked quietly, looking up at her for the first time, my eyes no longer masked with the FBI agent’s mask.
Spilled coffee and unnecessary noise
Chapter 3
Benjamin Poindexter
Every object has its own route. The route is security.
I started keeping a diary of her movements on Tuesday. Not for the FBI. Not for Radeh's reports. For myself. I needed to know exactly where Y/N was when I wasn't around, to keep the noise level in my head at 70 beats per minute.
7:45 AM — Y/N exits Stark Tower. Black Cadillac. Happy at the wheel.
8:12 AM — Coffee shop on the corner of 44th and 8th. Y/N buys two large cinnamon cappuccinos. Spills three drops on a napkin. Chaos.
8:25 AM — Entrance to the DA's office.
I had the day off today, but I couldn't stay in the apartment. Without a purpose, the walls loomed around me, and Dr. Mercer's voice seemed too far away. So I put on civilian clothes: a gray, nondescript jacket, a cap. At forty meters, I'm perfect. I blend into the New York grime.
I stood in the shade of a newsstand across from the DA's office. In my pocket were compact binoculars and a stopwatch.
At 1:00 PM, she went out for lunch. A colleague was with her—a young law school intern who laughed too loudly and walked too close to her. My hand in my pocket clenched into a fist. My fingers closed on a heavy steel coin. Distance: thirty-five meters. Angle: thirty degrees. Wind: northwest, two meters per second. If I tossed the coin right now, it would enter his temple directly through the carotid artery.
"Benji, find the pattern. This is a violation of the rules," Mercer's calm voice sounded in my head.
I closed my eyes. Inhale. Exhale.
I didn't toss a coin. I simply followed them, three blocks behind. Watched her smile, adjust her scarf, choose a salad. She didn't know I was there. My presence was her invisible shield. I spotted every blind corner, every suspicious car on the street. If her father couldn't keep her 100% safe without his iron armor, I would.
Y/N
I've had this strange, sticky feeling for the last three days. A personal paranoia.
I constantly felt like someone was looking at the back of my head. When I left the coffee shop, when I walked through the park, when I got into Happy's car. I turned around sharply several times, but all I saw were New Yorkers scurrying back and forth, bundled up in coats.
"Y/N, are you okay? You've been fiddling with that key ring in your hand all evening," Dad tore himself away from the hologram and looked at me from across the table.
"Huh? Yes, Dad. Just... overworked," I tried to smile and sipped my cold tea. "Lots of paperwork." "If that prosecutor of yours is squeezing you dry, I'll crush his office," Tony muttered, but his eyes gleamed with the usual warm concern. "How about taking a day off? We'll fly to Malibu for the weekend? Just you, me, and the ocean. Without the FBI and those surly agents."
"I'll think about it, Dad. Honestly," I walked over and hugged him from behind, burying my nose in his shoulder. He always smelled of expensive perfume and solder paste. I was safe at home. But the moment I stepped outside...
The next morning, I met Dex again at the prosecutor's office. He was in uniform, stoic, and crisply pressed.
"Good morning, Agent Poindexter," I said quietly, passing his post by the archives.
"Good morning, Y/N," he replied.
He called me by my name for the first time at work. His voice was even, but when I looked at him, a chill washed over me. His gaze... he wasn't just looking at me. He scanned every detail of my clothing, frowned when he noticed my new scarf, and his pupils dilated slightly.
"You changed the route from the parking lot," he suddenly said, his voice devoid of the tiredness of a man from an empty apartment. It was the tone of an appraiser. "You came through the backyard, not the main entrance. The lighting there is poor."
I froze, clutching the folder in my hands.
"Where are you from... you were on duty on the fourth floor, Benjamin?"
Dex didn't blink. His face remained a complete, impenetrable mask.
"I am responsible for monitoring the perimeter," he stated, taking a step toward me. "Always."
Y/N
The sound of the ocean always helped me breathe freely. Unlike the roaring, smog-choked, and anxious New York, Malibu breathed freely. Dad kept his promise: a morning flight on a private jet, and here we were, sitting on the terrace of our California home.
Tony looked different than he had in the Tower. He was wearing simple linen pants and a stretched-out T-shirt, holding a mug of black coffee, and there was a rare peace in his eyes.
"So, intern? Do you miss your Hell's Kitchen?" he winked at me, leaning on the railing and gazing at the waves. "I'm sure the prosecutor is crying into his pillow without your perfect file sorting."
"Dad, I've only been here four hours," I grinned, tucking my feet under me in the rocking chair. "But honestly... it's so quiet here, it's even unusual."
"Silence—that's what makes flying across the country worth it," Dad came up to me, placed his hand on my shoulder, and squeezed it lightly. "I've seen how overwhelmed you've been these past few weeks, Y/N. You looked like... like someone was chasing you. If there's a problem at work or someone's being rude, just say so. I could buy this prosecutor's office and turn it into an art gallery in five minutes."
"It's fine, really. Just a lot of work," I lied, looking out at the endless blue water.
I couldn't tell him about that creepy feeling of someone staring at the back of my head that had haunted me in New York. I couldn't tell anyone about Benjamin Poindexter either—his cold, scanning gaze, his daytime comment about my route through the backyard, and the deep, broken darkness I saw in his apartment. If Tony found out even a tenth of it, Dex would be destroyed or locked away in a secret S.H.I.E.L.D. prison. And I... for some completely illogical reason, didn't want that.
That evening, we grilled meat, argued about '80s cinema, and just laughed—the way only the two of us could. No Iron Man suits, no FBI, no law. Tony was just my dad, caring and funny.
But around midnight, when Dad went into the underground workshop to "tinker with some parts," I gave in to a strange impulse. I pulled out my phone and opened the prosecutor's office work chat. Dex's number was in my contacts.
I hesitated, but then wrote a short message:
"Warm in Malibu. Hope New York is calm."
The reply came exactly sixteen seconds later.
"New York City is 14 degrees. Wind gusts 5 m/s. No breaches of the Stark Tower perimeter have been detected. Your route in California has been monitored via FBI communications for your safety. Return on schedule."
I stared at the screen. "Your route in California has been monitored."
These words sent an icy chill down my spine. He wasn't just working a shift in New York. He was still tracking me, even three thousand miles away.
Benjamin Poindexter
Distance is chaos. Three thousand, two hundred miles.
When Y/N boarded the plane, my heart rate rose to 88 beats per minute. Dr. Mercer's voice on the iPod didn't help. I paced my apartment: four steps to the window, four steps to the wall.
One. Two. Three. Four.
New York had become too loud without her. Wilson Fisk, through his lawyers, had issued new instructions to the FBI. Agent Radeh was bustling. The city was buzzing. The only constant in my head these past weeks had become her—her even voice, her scent of vanilla, her habit of pouring coffee and looking at me without fear.
I had no right to fly to California. It would have been a direct violation of orders and a blown cover. But I had connected to a secure FBI database that tracks GPS trackers in escort vehicles and on the mobile devices of protected individuals.
Her dot glowed green on the map of Malibu.
When her message appeared on my screen—"Warm in Malibu. Hope New York is calm"—the noise in my head instantly died down. Absolute, perfect silence reigned. My pulse dropped to 72.
She thought of me. There, next to her all-powerful father, on the ocean shore, she wrote to me.
I typed a reply, strictly according to form. I couldn't tell her what had truly distorted my mind: that I was holding a steel coin in my hand and staring at its green dot on the monitor, that I hadn't slept for thirty-six hours, and that her departure had disrupted my entire life. If she doesn't return by 8:30 on Monday, I'll have to find a way to make her come back. Because without her, my structure will collapse.
Spilled coffee and unnecessary noise
Chapter 2
Benjamin Poindexter
My apartment is the only place where there's no noise. Everything is at right angles. The toothbrush is parallel to the sink. The plates are arranged by height. The tapes are in alphabetical order.
But today, order has collapsed.
The attack started at six o'clock in the evening. Dr. Mercer's voice in my headphones was too quiet, cutting through the white noise in my head. "Benji, find a pattern..." But there's no pattern anymore. Fisk has free rein over the FBI agents, Lima looks at me suspiciously, and at work I'm forced to smile and pretend I'm "normal."
I sat on the floor, my back pressed against the couch, my knees bent. My hands were shaking. I tried to insert a tape into the player, but my fingers wouldn't obey, and the plastic casing slipped and flew off.
Damn.
At that moment, the doorbell rang. Three short knocks. Not according to FBI regulations.
I didn't want to open it. I clutched my head in my hands, trying to drown out the ringing in my ears. But the door wasn't locked with the chain—I'd forgotten to double-thread it like I always do. It slowly swung open.
"Agent Poindexter? Benjamin?... You dropped this in the archives," Y/N's voice rang out.
She came in. Without permission. In her hand, she held one of my tapes—the very one with the 2011 session, the one I'd dropped from my jacket pocket when I was catching that damn folder.
She took two steps and froze. Her eye caught me—sitting on the floor, half-naked, my usual frozen expression a snarl. There wasn't the horror in her gaze that I was used to seeing in people when they learned what I was. There was only alarm.
"Get out..." I forced out. My voice cracked. "Get out. This is... a violation."
"You're not okay," she said quietly. She didn't run. She didn't call security. She slowly crouched down two meters away. "Are you having a panic attack? My father... he has those too. After New York. I know what it's like."
She compared me to Tony Stark. To a hero. She didn't see me as a monster. It was a logical error in her perception, but this error... it was reassuring.
"I need... a tape," I whispered, without looking up.
Y/N carefully placed the plastic rectangle on the floor and pushed it toward me. She didn't hand it over—she gave me space.
—Look, I'm just going to leave this here. And I won't tell anyone. Honestly.
I grabbed the tape, my fingers convulsively pressing against the tape. For the first time in a long time, someone else's chaos didn't destroy my world, but paused it for a second.
Y/N
The next day, the atmosphere in the DA's office was tense. I couldn't get the image of Dex out of my head—a hopelessly lonely, broken man, sitting on the floor in the dim light of his sterile apartment. He wasn't a hero like my father, and he certainly wasn't just some "FBI guy." There was darkness within him, but I could see how desperately he tried to keep it in check.
Around noon, Tony unexpectedly walked into the building. Accompanied by two security guards, wearing an impeccable three-piece suit and sunglasses, despite the overcast weather outside.
"Dad? What are you doing here?" I ran out into the hallway to meet him.
"I'm fighting bureaucracy." He put his arm around my shoulders, kissed the top of my head, and surveyed the room with mild disdain. "And making sure my taxes protect my property. That is, you."
My gaze automatically darted to the wall. Dex stood there. In uniform, perfect, absolutely impenetrable. No sign of yesterday's breakdown. But I noticed his fingers tighten slightly on his belt as Tony approached.
"And you're... Agent Poindexter, right?" Stark stopped right in front of Dex, removing his glasses. His gaze became as sharp as a scalpel. Tony had always been good at reading people, especially those who hid their flaws behind a mask. "I looked at your personnel file. Sniper training, perfect record, 100% hit rate. Impressive."
"Sir," Dex said curtly, looking straight ahead.
"There are some inconsistencies in your report from the army," Tony continued, lowering his voice so only Benjamin and I could hear. "There are too many 'accidents' surrounding you. I don't like people with unstable backgrounds around my daughter."
I felt the air in the hallway freeze. Dex didn't blink. But his jaw clenched so hard that the muscles in his cheeks were twitching.
"Dad, stop it," I intervened, stepping between them and turning to my father. "Agent Poindexter is doing his job well. He's a professional. No need for an interrogation."
Tony looked at me in surprise, then turned his hard gaze to Dex.
"A professional, then..." my father muttered quietly. "Fine. But I'm keeping an eye on you, Agent. One wrong move and you'll be guarding a warehouse full of rusty nails in Alaska."
When Tony left for the prosecutor's office, I turned to Dex. He continued to stare ahead, but his breathing was ragged.
"Forgive him," I said quietly. "He's just... overprotective."
Dex slowly turned his cold, gray eyes to me.
"He's right," he said suddenly. His voice was muffled. "You shouldn't be near me, Ms. Stark. I'm... dangerous."
"You saved my life in the archives," I countered, taking a step toward him. "And you protect me here. I'm not afraid of you, Benjamin."
For a moment, something flashed in his eyes—a strange, painful gratitude mingled with fear. For the first time, he called my name to himself, but out loud he only quietly replied,
"For now."
Y/N
The clock in the half-empty archive showed ten thirty in the evening. All the prosecutors had already gone home, leaving me alone with mountains of files on Union Allied financial fraud. Dad had already sent three text messages—from a terse "Y/N, Happy is waiting outside" to a photo of his Mark 46 suit with the caption, "Or should I fly out and pick you up personally?"
I quickly replied, "Finishing in twenty minutes, don't worry!" and leaned back in my chair, tiredly rubbing my eyes.
Heavy, even footsteps sounded outside the archive door. Dex. He hadn't left, even though his shift had formally ended two hours ago.
The door creaked, and Benjamin entered the office. He was no longer wearing his police fatigues—only a formal shirt with the sleeves rolled up to the elbows. He stopped exactly ten feet from my desk, shrugging his shoulders.
"It's time for you to go home, Ms. Stark," he said. His voice was quieter than usual, but the familiar strained note was still there. "The building is being closed. The risk level increases by forty percent at night."
"Agent Poindexter... Dex," I lowered my hands and looked at him. "We're alone here. You can just call me by my name."
He frowned slightly. The change in address clearly threw him out of his rigid "protocol" pattern.
"This... violates the chain of command," he muttered, looking at the corner of the table.
"But it makes us human, not robotic," I smiled and gestured to the empty chair opposite him. "Sit." Please. You've been standing on your feet all day.
Dex hesitated. His eyes darted to the chair, then to the window, where the New York rain poured down like a wall. Finally, with a controlled sigh, he walked over and sat down. He moved the chair so it was perfectly parallel to my desk and rested his hands on his knees.
"Why don't you go home?" I asked quietly, resting my chin on my hands. "Your shift is over."
"I need to... do a task," he said, looking me straight in the eyes. His gaze was humorless, filled with a desperate, almost physical need for this work. "There's too much silence outside of tasks. Or too much noise."
"I understand," I replied softly. "It's the same with Dad. When he doesn't have a project or another threat to the world, he starts going crazy in the workshop. He doesn't know how to just... be. Without a suit, without a purpose.
"Your father is a genius. He controls the world around him with technology," Benjamin clasped his fingers. "I'm not a genius. I just know how to hit the target. And I need the right instructions so I don't miss."
"We're both not superheroes, Dex," I sighed, straightening up. "I live in a tower with a man who saves the universe, but I can't even properly draft a lawsuit without the help of a senior lawyer. Funny, right? Tony Stark's daughter—and completely ordinary."
Benjamin looked at me carefully. For the first time, his hard, wood-like features softened slightly.
"You're not ordinary," he said suddenly. His voice was even, but it held something deep and undeniable. "You don't create chaos. You... create space. It's easier to hear the rules in your presence." I froze, stunned by his words. In his jagged, distorted perception of the world, I somehow became not a source of irritation, but a strange island of silence.
"Thank you, Dex," I replied quietly, feeling warmth rise in my cheeks.
He didn't answer, merely bowed his head slightly, retreating back into his protective shell. But the panic in his eyes, which I'd seen yesterday in his apartment, gave way to a shaky, fragile calm.
Benjamin Poindexter
Y/N.
Her name is shorter than "Ms. Stark." It sounds simpler. It doesn't make my head buzz.
She left fifteen minutes ago in a black limousine with her bodyguard. I stood on the wet steps of the prosecutor's office and watched the car's red taillights disappear into the New York fog.
My head was quiet.
Dr. Mercer always said, "Find an empathic anchor, Benji. Someone who will be your moral compass when your own breaks." I used to think that compass should be Julie. But Julie avoids me. She's afraid. And Y/N Stark sat across from me in the empty archives and made no attempt to leave. She looked at me as if I were... normal.
I returned to my apartment. One. Two. Three. Take off your jacket. Hang it on the third hanger from the left.
I sank onto the couch and pulled out the cassette player. I pressed play. Dr. Mercer's soft voice from an old recording began to play, but for the first time in a long time, I caught myself not listening to her words.
Instead, I replayed the timbre of Y/N's voice in my mind. The smell of her perfume. The way she looked at me—without fear, without judgment.
She is Tony Stark's daughter. The man who has everything: power, money, armor. If Stark realizes what I am, he will destroy me. He will crush me, destroy my FBI career, and forbid me from ever going near her.
I jumped up from the couch. My pulse jumped again. 84 beats. Too many. I walked over to the wall where the dartboard hung, took the steel needle from my trembling palm, and threw it across the room.
Right into the center.
I have to protect her. Not because it's an FBI order or her father's request. But because if something happens to Y/N Stark, the noise in my head will become unbearable. And then I'll never be able to return to normal.
Spilled coffee and unnecessary noise
Chapter 1

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It was one of those evenings when the buzz in my head from endless reports and training sessions became louder than the noise of the city itself. I sat on the edge of the headquarters roof, my legs dangling into the void. The wind up here was cold and sharp, but it made me feel alive.
"Hey, be careful! If you fall, Sam will make me fill out three copies of the explanatory notes," a familiar voice said behind me, imbued with a touch of irony and warmth.
I didn't turn around. I already knew Joaquin was standing there, leaning against the doorway. I heard the barely perceptible mechanical click as his new wings folded, fitting snugly against his back.
He came over and sat down next to me. So close that I could feel the heat radiating from his shoulder. Joaquin was always like a battery—always in motion, always fixing something, adjusting something, flying somewhere.
"What are you thinking about?" he asked, looking at the scattering of lights below.
"About how everything seems simpler from here," I answered honestly, hugging my knees. "Problems seem small. Like those cars down there."
"You know," Joaquin turned his head, and I caught his gaze. The taillights of the planes reflected in his eyes. "When I'm in the sky, it's just like that. But sometimes... sometimes I miss having someone there to just say, 'Look at that sunset.'"
He paused for a second, then added a little more quietly:
"Lately, I've been catching myself thinking that I want to show you this view."
I felt my heart skip a beat. Joaquin didn't know how to play games—he was too sincere for that.
"What's stopping you?" I tried to keep my voice firm, even though everything inside me was shaking.
Instead of answering, he stood up and extended his hand to me. His palm was warm and reliable.
"Will you trust me?"
I placed my hand in his. At that very moment, wings unfurled behind him with a sharp, powerful whistle. It was always a mesmerizing sight: high technology becoming part of a person. Joaquin grabbed me by the waist, holding me so tightly that I could feel every lamella of his flight suit.
"Hold on tight, Y/N. And don't close your eyes—you need to see this."
A jerk. My insides remained on the roof for a moment, and my body soared upward. I involuntarily screamed and buried my face in his neck, inhaling the scent of ozone and his perfume.
A minute later, we leveled out. We weren't just flying—we were floating in the air current. The city below us turned into a map of glowing threads.
"Look at me," Joaquin whispered.
I raised my head. The wind blew in my face, making it hard to breathe, but looking at his triumphant, wide smile, I suddenly realized I didn't need oxygen.
"This is better than any meditation," I exhaled, feeling my fear finally give way to ecstasy.
"This is my world," he said, slowing and hovering in the air. "And I want you to be a part of it. Not just up here. But down there, too."
He flew a little closer to the clouds, and for a moment it seemed as if we were alone in the entire universe. Joaquin gently touched his forehead to mine. His breath was hot on my lips. “Y/N, I may not be the most experienced Avenger, and my wings may not work sometimes... but I will never let you fall. I promise.”
I pulled him by the suit straps and kissed him—right there, thousands of feet in the air. It was a taste of freedom, adrenaline, and something very right. In that moment, I realized: I no longer needed to sit on the edge of the roof alone.
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"Lighthouse in the Heart of the Storm"
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The salty foam of Driftmark and the heat of dragonfire—that's all I've known since childhood. My father, the Sea Serpent, taught me that the world belongs to those who can harness it, and my mother, the Almost Queen, taught me that a crown may be missing from one's head, but it must be in one's bearing.
I am Y/N Velaryon. And I never thought the quiet harbor of Oldtown could make my heart beat outside the rhythm of the tides.
King's Landing was suffocating with heat and the smell of horse sweat—the prince's name-day tournament had gathered everyone. I sat in the Velaryon box, feeling everyone's eyes on me. To be Rhaenys's daughter is to constantly prove that your veins are not just blood, but molten gold and Valyrian steel.
"Ser Ormund Hightower," the herald announced.
The knight in shining armor, with the emblem of a burning beacon on his shield, didn't gallop like a mad Daemon. He moved confidently, with a frightening calm. As he passed our box, he didn't simply bow his head in a formal gesture. His gaze—direct, gray, like the predawn mist over the bay—lingered on me a second longer than etiquette allowed. Later, at the feast, the smell of incense and roasting meat became overpowering, and I slipped out onto the terrace.
"Lady Velaryon," a deep, measured voice said behind me. "Are you hiding from triumph or boredom?"
I turned. Ormund Hightower stood in the shadow of a column. Without his helm, he looked younger, but his face bore the imprint of a strict Oldtown upbringing.
"Boredom is a battle of sorts, Ser Ormund," I replied, straightening my back. "And far more worthy men die in it than on the tourney field."
"A sharp word. Then again, I expected nothing less from the Sea Serpent's daughter." He came closer, but stopped at a respectful distance. "My uncle, Otto, says the Velaryons are a storm." And I've always preferred quiet waters.
"Then you shouldn't go near the shores of Driftmark," I narrowed my eyes, feeling a strange excitement. "We don't know how to be quiet."
"Perhaps," he smiled faintly, just the corners of his lips, "I'm simply tired of the silence."
Months passed. We saw each other at court, exchanging short but meaningful letters. Each meeting was a dance on the edge of a knife. The Hightowers and the Velaryons are two poles of power. His family is a bastion of Faith and tradition, mine is ancient magic and maritime expansion.
Ormund's point of view:
She's not like other ladies. Y/n lacks the soft, pliable quality prized in Oldtown. When she speaks of her father's ships, her eyes flash violet, and I feel my own dogmas crumble. I should seek an alliance beneficial to the Hightower Lighthouse, but all I want is to be the berth she'll return to after the storm. But will my duty allow me to bring a dragon spark into the family that could burn away all our peace?
One day, in the gardens of the Red Keep, I found him reading an old scroll.
"Politics or prayer?" I asked, sitting down next to him.
"History," he replied, closing the parchment. "Of how empires fell because of pride."
"Or because of fear," I added. "Are you afraid of me, Ormund?"
He looked me straight in the eyes, and in that gaze I saw not a knight, but a man waging an internal war. "I'm afraid of how easy it is for me to forget my responsibilities when you're around."
He gently touched my hand. His skin was warm, his grip firm. In that moment, I realized: my inner fire doesn't frighten him. He wants to warm himself with it.
Ormund came to Driftmark not as a guest, but as a petitioner. The Hall of Nine Hearths was full of shadows. My father, Corlys Velaryon, sat on his driftwood throne, his face stony. My mother stood nearby, arms folded across her chest—her piercing gaze seemed to see right through Ormund.
"Oldtown is rich," my father's voice boomed through the vaults. "But the Hightowers always look to the land, while we gaze beyond the horizon. Why should I give my daughter to one who would lock her in a high tower?"
Ormund stepped forward. He didn't flinch.
"Lord Corlys, I come to ask not for a prisoner, but for a comrade. Y/n is a sea that cannot be locked away. I do not offer her the walls of Oldtown as a cage." I offer my sword, my lands, and my loyalty to defend her interests as zealously as my own.
"Words are cheap," Rhaenys interjected, stepping forward. "My daughter is a dragonrider. She is the blood of Old Valyria. What will a Hightower do when Faith or duty commands him to turn against her family?"
Ormund dropped to one knee.
"My line honors the Seven, but my god today is truth. If the world demands I choose between honor and love for your daughter, I will choose her. For there is no honor in betraying the heart. In proof of my words, I surrender to the Velaryons' command three trade routes in the Sunset Sea, which the Hightowers have held for centuries. This is not a ransom. It is the pledge of our shared future."
I stood in the shadows of the gallery, biting my lip until it bled. He was giving up his family's influence for a chance to be with me. This was not the act of a politician, but of a man willing to burn bridges.
My father was silent for a long time, exchanging glances with my mother. In that silence, my fate was being decided. Finally, Corliss nodded slowly.
"You have a strength of character rarely found among those who live in the shadows of books and candles. Rise, Ormund Hightower."
When the formal part was over, I ran out onto the balcony overlooking the sea. Ormund found me there a few minutes later. The wind ruffled his cloak and my hair.
"You're mad," I whispered as he came close. "My father could have cast you out in disgrace."
"Then I would have built my fleet and come back for you." He wrapped his arms around my waist, and for the first time, I allowed myself to relax completely in his arms.
I pressed my forehead to his shoulder. The sun was setting on the horizon, painting the waves crimson. Our future would not be easy: wars, intrigues, and a divided kingdom lay ahead. But here, in the salty spray of Driftmark, I knew one thing: the union of the Dragon, the Sea, and the Beacon would be the brightest flame in Westeros.
"Your mother said I couldn't hold you," he said softly into my hair.
"She's right," I raised my head and kissed him, tasting salt and promise. "But you don't need to hold me. You just need to fly beside me."
The evening before Ormund left for Oldtown to prepare for the wedding, we sat in my chambers. The window was open, and the sound of the surf drowned out our voices. A map of Westeros lay on the table, pressed against it by his heavy dagger and my seahorse brooch.
"My Uncle Otto won't be pleased," Ormund said, tracing the coastline from Hightower to King's Landing. "He saw my marriage as a way to link us directly to the Crown, perhaps through one of Viserys's daughters. By choosing you, I chose a side, Y/n."
I approached him from behind, placing my hands on his strong shoulders.
"You have chosen the side of strength, Ormund. My father controls the narrow sea, and I have fire on my side. Doesn't Oldtown teach that knowledge and strength must go hand in hand?" He turned, intercepting my hands. His face was serious, the light of the single candle reflected in his eyes.
"Oldtown teaches caution. But when I look at you, I forget caution. I see a woman who can lead fleets. And that frightens me more than Otto's wrath."
"Frightens?" I raised an eyebrow, the hereditary Targaryen pride waking up in my voice.
"Yes," he said, pulling me closer so I could feel the heat of his body. "Because I fear that one day I will have to choose between my loyalty to you and my loyalty to the peace of the kingdom. And I know I will choose you."
The next morning, at the docks where his ship bobbed on the waves, Ormund did something no one expected from the stern heir of the Hightowers. In the face of my mother and my father's scowling guards, he called his squire. He carried a heavy chest of dark oak.
"Lord Corlys, Lady Rhaenys," Ormund bowed. "In Oldtown, we hold not only books, but also relics of the past."
He opened the chest. Inside, on black velvet, lay a circlet—delicately crafted white gold, adorned with pearl-thin drops of pure dragonglass and deep blue sapphires.
"This is the circlet of one of the Valyrian families that perished at the Doom. My ancestors bought it from a Lysene pirate hundreds of years ago. I want Y/n to wear it as a sign that her blood will not be forgotten in my house. That she is not 'Hightower's wife,' but Velaryon, whose light will illuminate my tower."
My father chuckled, which for him meant the highest degree of approval. Rhaenys smiled warmly at Ormund for the first time.
Ormund
I look at her standing on the edge of the pier, and I see more than just an ally. I see the woman who will be the mother of my children—children who will have the wisdom of the Hightowers and the indomitability of the Targaryens. My father called it madness. My uncle called it a political mistake. But when she smiles at me—not the polite mask she wears at court, but a real, open smile—I realize I'm ready to burn every book in Oldtown if only that fire in her eyes would never go out. She is my storm. And I'm finally ready to set sail.
Ormund's ship began to cast off. I stood on the highest point of Hightide Cliffs, feeling the wind in my face. A familiar shriek sounded in the sky above me—Melys, my mother's dragon, cut a scarlet streak through the clouds. I knew our future would smell of burning and salt. The marriage between Hightower and Velaryon was a bridge over the chasm that was only just beginning to open up in our family. But as I watched the sail with the burning lighthouse on it recede, I felt no fear.
I was a daughter of Sea and Fire. And if the world were destined to burn, I would meet that conflagration hand in hand with the man who dared to tame the dragon in my heart.
“We will meet again, Ormund Hightower,” I whispered, clutching the gift in my hand—ancient gold, cold and eternal, like my resolve.
On the horizon, sea and sky merged into a single line—dark, deep, and full of uncertainty. But it was there that our story began.
The storm outside the windows of Hightide Castle seemed like a pale echo of what had transpired in my chambers that last night before his departure. This wasn't a formal marriage bed, blessed by the septons, but it was our true vows, sworn in silence and gloom.
I remember the flickering candlelight as Ormund entered. He had discarded his armor and heavy cloak, appearing in a simple doublet. Without his knightly steel, he seemed less formidable, but more... genuine.
I stood by the fireplace, combing my long hair, where Velaryon silver intertwined with Targaryen gold. In the mirror, I saw him pause in the doorway, hesitant to disturb my solitude. "They say in Oldtown that calling on a lady uninvited is considered bad manners," I said quietly, without turning around.
"They say many things in Oldtown," his voice was low, vibrating with suppressed tension. "But I am not here as the Hightower heir. I am here as a man who fears this dream will vanish with the dawn."
He came closer. I could feel his presence on my skin—the warmth emanating from him mingled with the cool sea breeze from the window. His hands, calloused from his sword, gently rested on my shoulders. The gesture was so tender it took my breath away. In a world where we were both mere pieces on our families' chessboards, this sincerity was the most dangerous and most coveted gift.
Ormund
She smells of salt and some rare Essos incense, but beneath it, I smell life itself. When I touch her skin, I realize that all my vows, all my prayers to the Seven, were merely preparation for this moment. Her back is straight as the mast of her ship, but I feel it tremble beneath my fingers. Gods, grant me the strength to be worthy of this fire. I don't want to simply possess her; I want to dissolve in her, so that no war can separate us.
He slowly turned me toward him. His eyes—those same gray eyes that had once seemed like cold stone—now blazed with fire.
"Y/n..." my name sounded like a prayer.
I didn't wait for words. I touched his face, tracing the line of his jaw, and pulled him closer. Our first kiss tasted of despair and hope. There was no courtly grace; it was a clash of two elements. My inner fire met his unwavering fortitude.
As his hands slid over the silk of my dress, I felt vulnerable—and at the same time, incredibly strong. We sank onto the bed, and the heavy canopy hid us from the world, from duty, from names and titles.
That night, there was no "heiress" and no "knight." There were only two people seeking refuge in each other. His movements were confident yet cautious, as if he were afraid to destroy this moment. Every breath, every touch wove itself into our shared history.
"You are my home," he whispered in my ear as the world around me ceased to exist, leaving only the rhythm of our hearts, beating in unison with the tide. When the first rays of sun touched the windowsill, painting the room in pearly tones, Ormund was still asleep. His face had smoothed in sleep, the eternal furrow between his brows, born of the weight of responsibility, had disappeared.
I lay pressed against him, listening to his even breathing. An old spear scar was visible on his shoulder—a reminder of his mortality. And on my hand, the sapphire from his crown shone.
They say the Targaryens are alone in their greatness. But looking at him, I knew: I was no longer alone. Let Otto Hightower weave his webs, let my father count the ships. That night, we created something beyond the power of kings and dragons. We created truth.
He opened his eyes and, seeing me watching him, smiled—that rare smile, meant only for me. "Is it time?" he asked quietly.
"It is time," I replied, sealing our farewell with another long kiss. "But remember, Ormund: the sea always returns what is its own. And you belong to me."
He left while fog still clung to the rocks. But his scent still lingered in the room, and a single golden thread from his doublet remained on my pillow—a small proof that this night had not been a dream.
Farewell was only the beginning of a long wait. The days on Driftmark stretched like thick tar, and the horizon where his ship had departed became my only reality. I spent hours on the back of my dragon, rising so high that the clouds obscured the castle, trying to discern the sails with the golden beacon in the fog.
Letters from Ormund came rarely—sea mail was unreliable, and the political situation in King's Landing was heating up. But each message was imbued with that hidden meaning that only we understood.
"Here in Shademaiden, everything seems frozen in time. Uncle insists on studying the elder scrolls, but I see only dust in them. My thoughts constantly return to the sound of the surf at Hightide. Oldtown stands on solid ground, but I feel my footing now lies where you are." I knew there was a struggle behind those lines. His family, the Hightowers, were green to the core, loyal to Alicent and her children. My family, however, was the heart of the Black faction. Our alliance was a bridge many wanted to tear down.
Six months later, we met again—at the wedding feast in the Red Keep. The hall was full of whispers, and every step I took, arm in arm with my father, was accompanied by Queen Alicent's piercing glances.
Ormund stood at the dais, dressed in a ceremonial doublet in the colors of his house: green and gold. But as soon as our eyes met, everything else—the music, the laughter, the clink of goblets—faded into the background.
When the dancing began, he approached and, bowing to my father, asked for my hand in marriage for one dance. Corlys nodded, his eyes narrowing, as if assessing the strength of the steel in this Hightower's backbone. We whirled to the rhythm of the volta. His hand on my waist was firm, reminding me of that night on Driftmark.
"You've turned pale," he said quietly, leaning close to my ear. "Are the intrigues of the capital draining the life out of you?"
"There's too much poison in the air here, Ormund," I replied, looking at Otto Hightower, who was watching us from the balcony. "Your uncle looks at us as if we're committing treason."
"For him, love is treason, if it doesn't bring profit. But he forgets that I'm no longer a child to be led by the hand through libraries." Ormund
She's here, in the very lair of my kin, and she shines brighter than all the candles in this accursed hall. I see how Aemon looks at her, how Daemon assesses her. Each of them wants to exploit her power, her dragon, her fleet. But they don't know what I know. They didn't see her vulnerability as she fell asleep against my chest. I feel the ancient knightly pride awakening in my line. If war comes, I won't let them drag her into their dirty games. Even if I have to go against blood.
After the dance, we slipped away to the Godswood—the only place where the weirwood's silent presence offered the illusion of safety.
"Ormund," I pressed my palm to his chest, feeling the beat of his heart beneath the thin fabric. "The clouds are gathering. King Viserys is weak. Without him, the world will shatter. Your family will demand your sword."
"I know," he covered my hand with his. "And I have already chosen who this sword will serve."
"But you are a Hightower!" My voice broke into a whisper. "You will be called a traitor."
"Let them call me so," he said, pulling me close, forcing me to look directly into his determined gray eyes. "The Faith teaches us that husband and wife are one flesh. When we exchange cloaks before the Septon, my duty to Oldtown will be second only to my duty to you. I will not fight for Otto's ambitions. I will fight for you."
In that moment, I realized his restraint was merely a sheath for the incredibly sharp and strong blade of his will. He was not "still water." He was a deep well, at the bottom of which lay a loyalty capable of outlasting any dynasty.
"Y/N," he knelt down on the mossy ground of the Godswood. "I promised your father a comrade, but I promise you more. I promise that in a world that will soon burn, I will be your shield. And if one day I have to choose between my life and your smile, I will choose the latter without hesitation."
I raised him, unable to hold back my tears—not from fear, but from the realization of the price we might have to pay.
"We will not burn, Ormund," I said firmly, lifting my chin. "We will be the flame that cleanses this shore."
We stood under the canopy of the weirwood, two representatives of warring worlds, bound by a secret night and a clear oath. Ahead was the Dancing Death, but the second he touched my lips again, I knew: our sea will never dry up, and its lighthouse will always show me the way home.
The air in the Red Keep grew even heavier as the one feared even by his own allies entered the fray. Aemond Targaryen. The one-eyed prince, whose shadow from Vhagar loomed over the lands like a harbinger of the end of the world.
If Ormund was the calm light of a beacon, then Aemond was an uncontrollable conflagration. And that conflagration was now directed at me.
It happened during a royal hunt. I had stepped away from the group to water my horse at a stream when my heavy tread made the animal snore nervously. Aemond emerged from the shadows of the trees. His leather jerkin creaked, and his single eye—cold, piercing—scanned me from head to toe.
"Lady Y/n," his voice was like the rustle of steel on stone. "I hear you spend much time in the company of my cousin from Oldtown." A dismal sight, it must be. Ormund Hightower smelled of dusty books and prayer wax.
I straightened, not looking away.
"Ser Ormund smells of honor, Prince. A rare scent within these walls."
Aemond closed the distance between us with a single, sharp movement. He was taller, his presence overwhelming, an aura of pure, unbridled menace emanating from him. He reached out and touched a strand of my hair, running it through his fingers.
"You are the blood of the dragon," he whispered, a dangerous thirst tinging his voice. "You have no place among candles and bells. You need the sky. And someone who can hold you there. Hightower will break under the weight of your fire. And I... I'm only just beginning to warm up."
"You are dreaming, Aemond." I pushed his hand away. "I'm not a trophy to be claimed by anyone who claims the largest dragon."
He chuckled, and there was as much bitterness in that grin as there was arrogance.
"We'll see. Viserys is weakening. Soon the king's will will mean nothing. And then I will take what I consider my right of blood. Be prepared, cousin."
Ormund
I saw the way he looked at her at dinner. Aemond makes no secret of his intentions—he's a predator who's scented his prey. My fingers tighten on my sword's hilt every time he comes within ten paces of Y/n. He thinks I'm just my uncle's dutiful nephew, a weak knight of honor. He doesn't understand that for her sake, I'm willing to commit a sin no septon can ever atone for. If he dares touch her against her will, Oldtown will declare war not on the Crown, but on him personally. And I won't hand her over to this madman.
That same evening, in the garden, what I feared most happened. Ormund and Aemond collided on the narrow path. The tension was so palpable, it seemed the air would spark.
"Cousin," Aemond smiled cloyingly, patting the hilt of his sword. "They say you asked for Lady Velaryon's hand. Boldly. But aren't you afraid her dragon will scorch your white robes?"
Ormund stood motionless, his face a mask of absolute calm, but I saw his knuckles whiten.
"My robes can withstand any flame, Prince, if it comes from a heart I respect. But your lust for power could blind you more than the loss of an eye."
Aemond instantly grew serious. His hand rested on the hilt of his sword.
"Be careful with your words, Hightower. Oldtown is far away, and I am here. Y/n is a true Targaryen. She belongs to the strongest."
"She belongs to herself," Ormund stated firmly, stepping forward and shielding me with his body, even though I stood slightly away. "And anyone who wants to challenge her choice will have to go through me first." As Aemond, with one last furious glare, disappeared into the castle corridors, Ormund turned sharply to face me. He was breathing heavily.
“He won’t leave you alone,” he said, taking my hands in his. His palms trembled slightly with anger. “Y/N, we need to speed up the wedding. My uncle will be furious, but I don’t care. I’ll take you to Oldtown, or Driftmark, or to the ends of the earth.”
I saw not only love in his eyes, but also a burning desire to protect—what Aemond called weakness, but I considered the greatest strength.
“He doesn’t want me, Ormund,” I said quietly. “He wants victory. He wants to take from you what you value most.” "Then he lost before the battle even began," Ormund pulled me close, hiding my face in his chest. "Because I've already given you my soul. And he can't take that back, even if he kills me."
I pressed myself against him, listening to the beating of his heart. The wind howled in the shadows of the castle, reminding me of the wings of Vhagar, but in Ormund's arms, I felt for the first time that even dragonfire could retreat before true, human resolve. We were in the eye of the storm, but now we had a common goal: to survive and preserve the fragile and pure essence that had emerged between the Sea and the Lighthouse.
The night in King's Landing was stuffy, scented with jasmine and rot. Aemond's threats still echoed in my head, causing a shudder that even the warm wind couldn't quiet. When Ormund entered my chambers, locking the heavy oak door behind him, that sound became my only salvation.
He didn't light the lamps. The room was dimly lit, dipped only by the moonlight falling on the carpet. Ormund looked exhausted—his confrontation with the prince and the political games had worn him thin.
"Y/n," he whispered, closing the distance between us.
I didn't answer. I simply stepped toward him, wrapped my arms around his neck, and pulled his lips to mine. It wasn't a gentle kiss, but demanding, almost desperate. There was a fear of loss and rage in him that someone like Aemond would dare claim us.
Ormund responded with the same passion he had suppressed for so long beneath the guise of a noble knight. His hands, usually so restrained, now greedily crumpled the silk of my dress, moving up to my shoulder blades. He picked me up, forcing my legs around his waist, and carried me the few steps to the bed.
As the fabric of my dress slid off my shoulders, exposing my skin to the moonlight, his breath hitched. He looked at me as if I were the only deity he truly believed in.
“You do not belong to him,” he said hoarsely, kissing my neck, collarbones, and moving lower. “And you never will.”
His lips were hot, and his fingers were rough from training, but his every touch sent a jolt of electricity through me. When he stripped himself of his clothes, I saw his body—strong, toned, scarred by duty. He was my knight, my Hightower, but now he was simply a man who craved me to the point of madness.
He entered me slowly, looking straight into my eyes, as if sealing an unspoken pact. I arched up to meet him, digging my nails into his shoulders. This was not like our first night, so tender. Now it was a battle. Every movement was a declaration of dominion, every moan a vow of fealty.
In the rhythm of our breathing, I felt the force of the tide and the heat of a dragon's lair. He moved deep within me, assertively and powerfully, making me forget Aemond, the war, the crown. There was only this space between us, scented with leather and desire. Ormund:
I feel her melting in my arms, and this feeling is stronger than any victory on the battlefield. Aemond may own the largest dragon in the world, but he will never know what it feels like to have Y/N trust you with her nakedness and her soul. Every shudder she makes beneath my body is a hammer strike on the anvil where my destiny is forged. I will destroy anyone who tries to take that away. She is my sea, and I am ready to drown in it forever.
When the last surge of passion left us empty, we lay entwined on the crumpled sheets. Ormund's heavy breathing gradually evened out. He held me so tightly, as if he feared that if he let go, I would disappear.
"Tomorrow I will speak to your father again," he said quietly, stroking my hair. "We will leave." I don't care about propriety. I won't leave you here where he can breathe down your neck.
I pressed my ear to his chest, listening to his heart calm.
"Aemond doesn't know love, Ormund. He only knows will. But will is powerless against what binds us."
He lifted my chin and kissed my forehead—long and solemn. There was more protection in that gesture than in the entire army of Oldtown. We both understood: beyond the door of this room, a world awaited us that wanted to tear us apart. But here, in the silence after the storm, we were not Velaryons or Hightowers. We were one, a whole that no dragon could break.
At dawn, as the sky over King's Landing began to turn an unsettling gray, I knew: no matter what happened, this night was our true wedding. And if we were destined to burn, we would burn together.
Dawn was just beginning to stain the heavy curtains the color of dried blood. The room was filled with that peculiar, dense silence, broken only by the rhythm of our bodies. Ormund, usually so reserved and noble, this morning was possessed by some kind of furious, quiet thirst. His hands held my wrists tightly above my head, and his movements were deep and measured, as if he were trying to imprint himself on my memory forever.
I threw my head back, biting my lip to keep from crying out, when a sudden crash at the door shattered the intimacy of the moment.
The bolt Ormund had locked the night before gave way. The door swung open, slamming against the wall, and a tall, swaying figure appeared on the threshold.
Aymond.
He reeked of strong wine and horse sweat from a mile away. His hair was disheveled, and his single eye glowed with a mad, feverish glint. He clutched a half-empty goblet in his hand.
Ormund didn't flinch. He slowly, with deadly calm, covered me with the blanket, shielding me from view, but he didn't rush to climb off the bed, remaining a living shield between me and the intruder. His back tensed like a taut bowstring.
"You..." Aemond hiccupped, smiling crookedly. His gaze fell on the tangled sheets and our bare shoulders. "Look at that. Our holy man Hightower has decided to prove that he has steel, not a prayer book, between his legs."
He took an unsteady step inside, nearly tripping on the threshold. The sapphire in his eye socket gleamed ominously in the morning light.
"Out," Ormund's voice was quiet, but there was a metallic edge to it I'd never heard before. "Get out, Aemond. Before I forget we're of the same blood."
"Of the same blood?" Aemond tossed his goblet aside, and the dregs of wine splashed crimson across the tapestry. "You're your uncle's shadow. You're a safe haven. And she..." He turned his gaze to me, a mixture of rage, drunken lust, and undisguised pain. "She was made for war and fire. With me, she'd fly above the sun, but with you, she'd suffocate in the boredom of Oldtown."
Ormund
My hand searches for the dagger under my pillow, but I force myself to breathe. If I kill him now, I'll sign Y/N's death warrant. But to see his gaze on her shoulders, to hear his drunken ravings... It's torture worse than any fire. He thinks power is the right to batter down someone else's door. He doesn't understand that true power is the fact that Y/n is squeezing my hand under the blanket right now, choosing me every second. I won't let him ruin this moment. I won't let him desecrate what we've built.
I propped myself up on my elbows, feeling the draconic fury of the Velaryons boiling within me.
"You are pathetic, Prince," my voice didn't waver. "You barged in here like a bandit because you know that otherwise you'll never get even a shadow of what we have. You may own Vhagar, but you'll never own someone's heart."
Aemond froze. His face contorted in a spasm. He grabbed the hilt of his sword, and for a moment I thought blood would spill.
"Do you consider yourself victorious, cousin?" Aemond spat the words in Ormund's direction. "Enjoy the remains. When the real storm comes, its fire will burn your beacon to the ground. And then she will come to me herself, lest she drown in your freshwater sea."
He spun on his heel, nearly collapsing, and walked out, slamming the door so hard that the windows shook.
The silence that fell over the room was foul. Ormund finally exhaled and sank onto the edge of the bed, covering his face with his hands. His shoulders shook.
"Y/N," he whispered, without turning around. "We need to leave. Today. Right now. He won't stop."
I moved closer to him, hugging him from behind, pressing my cheek to his warm skin. The morning bliss was irrevocably ruined, but in its place grew something more lasting—the realization that our enemy now had a face.
"Let him try, Ormund," I kissed the scar on his shoulder. "The lighthouse is not afraid of the storm. And the sea... the sea always hides in its depths those who dare defy it."
Dawn had finally arrived, but the shadows in the corners of the room only grew deeper. We knew this was the last peaceful night of our lives. But looking into Ormund's determined eyes, I knew I was willing to endure this hell, just so his hand would continue to hold mine.
The tension in the room was almost palpable, heavy as the armor Ormund was accustomed to wearing. He sat on the edge of the bed, his fingers clasped together so tightly his knuckles were white. His breathing was ragged, and his gaze was fixed on the broken goblet on the floor, as if the shard reflected the entire collapse of the calm he had been trying to maintain.
I saw knightly nobility warring with primal rage within him. Aemond hadn't simply interrupted us—he had desecrated our privacy with his presence, and for Ormund, whose honor was paramount, this was an unbearable blow.
I slowly slid off the pillows and knelt before him, right on the carpet, bathed in the pale morning light.
"Ormund," I called softly, placing my palms on his tense thighs. He shuddered and looked at me. Stormy shadows still danced in his eyes.
“You don’t belong on the floor, Y/N. Get up. This drunken madman doesn’t deserve you…” “Shh,” I interrupted him, gently running my fingers along the inside of his thighs, feeling the taut muscles roll under his skin. “Forget about him. He’s not here anymore. There’s only you and me.”
Ormund held his breath. His hands settled on my shoulders—protesting at first, but a second later his fingers dug convulsively into my skin, betraying his true state.
When I touched him with my lips, he let out a low, guttural groan that mingled relief and barely restrained passion. I moved slowly, deliberately gentle, trying to push the image of Aemond from his mind and replace it with the feeling of complete, undivided possession of me. Ormunda:
Gods, I must make her rise, I must think of defense, of ships, of the way to Oldtown... but her lips... they are the only thing keeping me from rushing after my cousin, sword in hand. She takes my rage, turning it into pure, hot lead in the pit of my stomach. Her devotion is not just words. It is the way she looks up at me, knowing that in this moment I am completely in her power. My proud princess, my storm...
I felt his fingers tangle in my hair, guiding, pressing me closer. His body, previously taut as a string, gradually began to relax, surrendering to this rhythm. All the heaviness of the morning, all the poison of Aemond's words dissolved in the warmth of my caresses. When he finally reached his climax, he screamed my name, and there was no longer any anger in that cry—only pure, searing tenderness.
Ormund pulled me up, forcing me to stand, and held me tightly against him, burying his face in the crook of my neck. We sat for a long time, listening to the lock behind the door awaken.
“You are my peace, Y/n,” he whispered, his voice finally even. “I’m sorry I let him frighten you.”
“I cannot be frightened as long as you are near.” I pulled back and looked into his eyes. Now they were clear as the sky after a storm. “Now let’s go. We need to prepare. If we leave, we will do so with the dignity befitting the Velaryons and Hightowers.” He nodded, and in that nod was the determination of a man who had found his true purpose. We were no longer victims of other people's machinations. We were a union that had just undergone its first baptism of fire and mud, emerging even stronger.
The journey from King's Landing to Oldtown was supposed to be our honeymoon, but it turned into a march, guarded by our own fears. We left the capital that same day, without waiting for the official farewell to the king. My father lent us the finest fast ship in the Velaryon fleet, the Sea Shadow, whose sails caught the wind faster than rumors could spread through the castle.
Ormund never left my side the entire journey. He personally inspected the deck, scanning the horizon, expecting to see the massive silhouette of Vhagar there.
"He wouldn't dare attack a Velaryon ship on the open sea," I said, trying to calm the trembling in his hands as we stood on the bow.
"Aemond doesn't know the word 'won't dare,'" Ormund replied, pressing me to his side. "But while we're on the water, you're in your element. And I... I'll be your shore."
When Hightower appeared on the horizon—a colossal tower, its fire at its summit rivaling the sun—I felt my insides tighten. Oldtown greeted us with the ringing of hundreds of bells and the heavy smell of old paper and incense.
We were met by Lord Hightower Senior and, of course, Otto Hightower, who had arrived here before us. His face, lined with the wrinkles of political battle, expressed nothing but icy calm.
"Welcome home, Lady Velaryon," Otto said, his voice like a chest lid slamming shut. "I hope you find our walls more... secure than those of the capital."
Ormund
I see my uncle looking at her. He sees Y/N not as my wife, but as a political asset. A dragonrider to be tamed and put to work for the Greens. But he doesn't know I've already promised her otherwise. Every night in this high tower, I check the bolts. Aemond is far away, but his shadow has seeped into our thoughts. I feel Y/N yearning for the sky, and my heart breaks that I'm forced to keep her in this "safety" that feels more like a gilded cage.
Our chambers in Oldtown were cool. The stone walls absorbed sound, and only the distant sound of the sea reminded me of Driftmark. Ormund approached me as I stood by the window, looking out at the city below.
"You're afraid," he said firmly, hugging me from behind.
"I fear this world will force us to become enemies, Ormund." Aemond was right about one thing: the storm is coming. And the Hightowers will be at its very center.
He turned me to face him. In the firelight, his face seemed carved from granite.
"Look at me."
I looked up.
"Let the whole world crumble. Let kings kill each other over an iron chair. Here, in this room, there are no factions. No black and green. There is only us. And if the sky falls, I will hold it above your head as long as I have the strength to stand."
He scooped me up in his arms and carried me to the bed, which smelled of lavender and cleanliness—so unlike the stuffy atmosphere of King's Landing. That night, our caresses were slow, almost solemn. We made love as if we were building a fortress around ourselves. Every touch, every moan was a brick in a wall that neither dragonfire nor betrayal could breach.
The wedding took place not in a stuffy sept under the stern gaze of the gods, but on the cliff where Oldtown meets the fury of the Sunset Sea. It was a celebration meant to demonstrate the power of the union: the Hightowers provided the gold and tradition, but the Velaryons wielded the elements.
In the center of the ceremony, directly behind the bride and groom, stood Callista, Y/N's dragon. Her scales, a deep indigo with silver veins, glittered in the rays of the setting sun. She was the living embodiment of menace and majesty. As the septon began his prayer with a trembling voice, Callista emitted a low, rumbling sound that shook the windows of the Hightower. It was not a roar, but a warning: this union was consecrated by fire.
Ormund stood before Y/N in a heavy green cloak embroidered with golden beacons. But his gaze was fixed not on the dragon, but on the bride. Y/N wore a gown of the finest Valyrian silk, flowing over her body like sea foam.
"I am yours, and you are mine, from this day until the end of my days," Ormund said, his voice rising above the sound of the surf.
He removed the light Velaryon mantle from her shoulders and covered her with his heavy cloak. At that moment, Y/N felt not the weight of the fabric, but the warmth of his protection. In response, she touched his cheek, and Callista, behind them, spread her wings wide, casting a shadow over the entire procession. It was a silent vow: Hightower gives her the earth, and she gives him the sky.
The feast was long and noisy, but for the two of them, it passed in a blur. As soon as the doors of the wedding chambers closed, cutting off the cries of the guests and the music, the silence seemed deafening. Ormund approached Y/N, who stood by the window, looking out at the sleeping dragon in the courtyard. Callista curled up at the foot of the tower, her breath sending wisps of smoke into the night sky.
"You are now a Hightower by law," Ormund said quietly, unfastening the golden brooch on his cloak. "But I know your heart will always belong to the wind."
"My heart is where you are, Ormund." Y/N turned, her eyes purple pools in the dim light.
He didn't hesitate. His lips found her neck, inhaling the scent of sea and lavender. It was a night when the legality of their marriage only fueled their passion. Ormund picked her up, sitting her on the high windowsill, the silk of her dress rustling, revealing her thighs. Ormund
She is my wife. Now no one, not even Aemond on his Vhagar, has the right to breathe in her direction. I feel her pulse beneath my fingers, her heat, her impatience. Oldtown values order, but this woman harbors a chaos I could worship. Her every movement is a command from my flesh. I will destroy anyone who tries to disturb this peace.
He entered her sharply and deeply, causing Y/N to cry out and clutch his shoulders. This wasn't just intimacy—it was a complete fusion. The rhythm of their bodies matched the crash of the waves against the rocks below. Ormund moved with frantic force, as if trying to pour all his untapped tenderness and all his protective fury into this act.
Y/N arched beneath him, feeling the very flame that bound her to the dragon ignite within her. She was a rider, and now she was leading them both to the pinnacle of bliss. As the peak reached them, Callista let out a long, triumphant cry in the courtyard, echoing off the mountains.
They lay in tangled sheets as the dawn sun gilded the spires of Oldtown. Y/N felt Ormund's heavy hand on her waist and his calm breathing.
"We have created something more than just a marriage," she whispered, looking at the crown lying on the bedside table.
Ormund opened his eyes and kissed her shoulder.
"We have created the beginning of a new dynasty. And though all of Westeros drowns in the blood of its kings, here, under the shadow of the Beacon and the wings of the Dragon, will be our peace."
But a small black dot was already visible on the horizon. A raven. Another harbinger of war. They knew the peace would be short-lived, but after that night, the fear vanished. All that remained was a willingness to fight for what they had so fiercely created in the shadow of the great tower.
We finally got more shots of Ormund!
”We act with holy purpose” Ormund Hightower… yeah I’m sat
Countdown to The Punisher: One Last Kill [20/25]
The Punisher | 1.03 Kandahar
"The Trajectory of the North Star " 2
From Y/N's perspective
Friday arrived faster than I expected. Dex was waiting for me at the entrance to the pizzeria at exactly 6:59 PM. He was wearing a simple dark blue button-down shirt and perfectly pressed jeans.
"Hi, Ben," I smiled, approaching him.
"You look..." he hesitated, searching for the right word, "statistically flawless."
I laughed, taking his arm. His muscles were tense as a taut string.
"I consider that the best compliment you can give me."
The evening flowed surprisingly smoothly. Dex was attentive. Overly attentive. He noticed every little detail: the way I fixed my hair when I was nervous, the way I put the olives aside.
"You don't like olives," he stated. "And you prefer pink peppercorns to black peppercorns."
I froze, holding a slice of pizza.
"Where are you from... I didn't mention that today."
Dex froze for a second. His pupils dilated.
"I was just watching you in the office when we ordered lunch last month. I remember details. It helps me at work."
"You're a very attentive partner, Ben." I covered his hand with mine.
He flinched at the touch, but didn't pull away. Instead, he slowly turned his palm over, intertwining his fingers with mine. His grip was iron, almost painful, but there was so much hope and a kind of childish despair in his eyes that I didn't pull away. “I want you to know,” his voice grew quieter, “I really appreciate it. That you saw me.”
“Dex, you're a great guy. Just a little… closed off.”
“I'll be open to you,” he promised with such seriousness that it made me uneasy. “I'll do everything I can to make sure you don't regret your choice.”
When we said goodbye at my building entrance, he didn't try to kiss me. He simply stood there and watched me walk inside until the door slammed shut.
Upstairs, I went to the window. Ben was still standing there, on the sidewalk. He was looking straight at my windows, even though I hadn't turned on the light yet. He stood motionless, like a statue, for another ten minutes before disappearing into the night.
That evening, I chalked it up to his odd behavior. I didn't know he had my old keychain in his pocket, the one I'd lost in the office a week ago. And that right now he was inhaling my scent from it, feeling his world finally make sense.
Ben's POV
She touched my hand. Skin to skin.
At that moment, the noise in my head—that endless, wrenching static—vanished. Only the rhythm of her heart remained.
I returned home and went straight to my board. There were no longer any operational plans there. There were photos of Y/N. The ones I'd taken discreetly on my phone in the office. The ones I'd printed out.
I ran my fingers over her face in the picture.
"You chose me," I whispered. "Of all the people in this city. Of all the agents. You chose me."
It was a huge responsibility. I couldn't let her down. If she was my North Star, then I had to be her protector. Her shadow.
I opened a second tab on my computer. Her brother, Matt Murdock. Lawyer. Blind.
I didn't like him. Too suspicious. He "hears" too much. He's a nuisance. He might try to talk her out of talking to me. He might sense something wrong with me.
I have to be careful.
I went to bed, but I couldn't sleep. I replayed our date in my head. 42 minutes of conversation. 12 of my responses. 15 of her smiles. I memorized every word.
"Dex, you're a great guy."
These words became my new code. I repeated them to myself a hundred times until they became a prayer.
Tomorrow is Saturday. We don't have a shift.
That means I'll be without her for 48 hours.
Unacceptable.
I got up, put on dark clothes, and grabbed my car keys. I wouldn't bother her. I'd just… check if she was safe. The streets of New York are dangerous, especially at night. She needs someone to keep an eye on her.
When I parked two blocks from her house and saw the light in her window, I could finally breathe a sigh of relief. My heart rate evened out.
Everything was right. Everything was in its place.
I'm here, Y/N. I'll always be here.
From Y/N's perspective
Saturday morning began with a strange premonition. You know that feeling when the back of your neck tingles, like someone's staring at your back? I chalked it up to paranoia, something I'd picked up from Matt. Living with a superhero brother (which I knew, of course, even if we never discussed it out loud) takes its toll.
I left the house to stop at my favorite coffee shop. The air was cool, the typical New York smog mingled with the smell of baked goods.
"Y/N?" a familiar voice said.
I turned around. Ben was standing at the newsstand, holding a cup of coffee. It was the same one I usually order—a latte with almond syrup.
"Dex? What are you doing here? This isn't your neighborhood at all." He came closer. His movements were overly precise, almost mechanical. He wore a baseball cap pulled low over his eyes and a gray sweatshirt.
"I was jogging," he answered without a shadow of a doubt. "The route was nearby. I thought you could use some coffee."
He handed me a glass. It was hot. Just the way I like it.
"Thank you, that's very sweet, but..." I narrowed my eyes. "Ben, it's almost six miles from your house to mine. That's quite a run for 'just a stroll.' And you don't look out of breath at all. You haven't even broken a sweat."
Dex froze for a second. I could see the gears turning in his head, searching for a logical explanation.
"I'm very good at breathing," he finally said. "FBI training." I didn't mean to scare you. It's just... I was thinking about our evening last night. It was... effective.
"'Effective'?" I couldn't help but giggle. "You're incorrigible, Benjamin Poindexter. But thanks for the coffee. Since you're here, shall we walk?"
We walked through the park, and I told him about my childhood, about how Matt taught me how to navigate in the dark, and how hard it was to lose my father. Dex listened as if his life depended on my every word. He didn't interrupt, didn't look around. He absorbed the information.
"Your brother," he suddenly interrupted. "He's very protective of you. He can be... an obstacle."
"An obstacle to what?" I paused.
"To your happiness," he quickly corrected himself. His gaze hardened for a moment. "People often try to control those they love, masquerading as caring. I want you to be free."
At that moment, I thought he was talking about his troubled past, which I only knew about from scraps of gossip around the office. I didn't realize he was talking about territory. His territory.
Ben
She laughed. The sound of her laughter is the perfect frequency. It vibrates somewhere in my ribcage, where there's usually a gaping void.
I made a mistake with the jog. I rushed it too much. The doctor always said, "Ben, don't scare people with your intensity. Be like everyone else." But how can I be "like everyone else" when my brain operates at three hundred frames per second, and she's in every frame?
When I returned home after our walk, I felt a physical pain from her absence. The apartment felt like a sterile crypt.
I walked over to the wall with the notes.
Matt Murdock.
I started digging deeper. How can a blind lawyer know so precisely where I am in the room? Why does he always turn his head toward the sound of my breathing before I can take a step?
I looked through the Murdock family's medical records for the last ten years. Nothing special. But his circle... Foggy Nelson, Karen Page. And that rumor about the Devil of Hell's Kitchen.
If Matt Murdock is that guy in the mask, then Y/N is in danger. Every day. Chaos follows her because of her brother.
I clenched my fists so hard my knuckles turned white.
"I won't let him put you at risk," I whispered, looking at her photo.
I needed more control. I installed a small program on her work computer in the office. Just to know her schedule. To know who she was texting. This isn't surveillance. It's security protocol.
That evening, I sat in the dark, listening to the audio recordings of her voice I'd made on a voice recorder during our walk.
"Dex, you're very considerate..."
"Ben, come with me?"
I closed my eyes. I imagined how one day her shoes would be by the door in this apartment. How the kitchen would smell like her vanilla. How I wouldn't have to steal her time from this city anymore, because she would be mine completely.
Suddenly, my phone vibrated. A message from Y/N:
"Matt's hosting dinner tomorrow. He wants you to come. Are you ready to meet the family?"
My heart skipped a beat.
Introduction. Testing.
Matt Murdock wants to test me. He wants to hear the lies in my heartbeat.
I smiled. He doesn't understand who he's dealing with. I can control my pulse. I can control my breathing. I can become anyone to stay close to her.
I replied,
"I'd love to meet your brother, Y/N. See you at eight."
I opened my desk drawer and pulled out a set of throwing knives. Slowly, with surgical precision, I began cleaning them. Tomorrow would be an important day. The first battle for my North Star.
Y/N
The atmosphere in Matt's apartment was so electric it felt like touching the wall would shock me. Ben arrived promptly at eight, with a bottle of expensive wine and a bouquet of my favorite flowers (how did he know about peonies if it's out of season?).
Matt stood by the window, his cane leaning against the wall. He looked calm, but I could see the tension in his shoulders.
"Benjamin," Matt extended his hand for a handshake. "Y/N has told me a lot about you."
Dex shook my hand. For a long time. For about three seconds, he simply held Matt's hand, and I saw my brother frown slightly.
"Only good things, I hope." Ben's voice was soft, almost soothing. Too perfect.
I felt caught between two fires the entire dinner. Matt asked questions—polite, but with a twist. About his career, about his parents, about what Ben does in his free time.
"I practice shooting," Ben replied, carefully cutting the steak. His movements were so precise that the pieces of meat were absolutely identical. "It helps me focus. There's too much noise in the world, Mr. Murdoch. You should know."
Matt paused, a glass of wine at his lips.
"Yes. Noise can be unbearable. But sometimes it's important not just to drown it out, but to understand its nature. You seem like someone who's used to suppressing everything that doesn't fit into the pattern."
"Stability is the key to success," Ben smiled, looking at me. "Since I met your sister, my world has become much more stable."
Matt abruptly set his glass down on the table.
"Y/N, could you help me with dessert in the kitchen?"
As soon as we walked away, Matt grabbed my elbow and whispered,
"Y/N, get away from him. Now."
"Matt, what nonsense? He's acting perfectly!"
"That's the point!" My brother's voice trembled with tension. "He doesn't have a pulse. Well, he does, but it doesn't change. Not even a beat. I asked him about his parents' death, about the shooting, about you... His heart beats like a metronome. He's not a person, Y/N. He's a machine that imitates a person. There's such darkness in him that it's chilling to stand next to him."
"You're just jealous and always looking for monsters in everyone," I angrily pulled my hand away. "He's an FBI agent; he's passed hundreds of psych tests."
I returned to the room. Ben sat in the same position we'd left him. He was staring into space, but the moment I walked in, his eyes instantly focused on me. They held such devotion, such adoring longing, that for a moment I felt afraid.
"Everything okay?" he asked.
"Yes," I tried to smile. "Matt's just... worried."
Ben stood up and came over to me. He ignored Matt's presence in the kitchen. He took my face in his hands—they were cold, but very gentle.
"He shouldn't worry," Dex said quietly, and I felt his breath on my lips. "I will never hurt you. I am your wall. No one can get past me to get to you. Not even him."
That night, as I was walking him home, I let him kiss me for the first time. It was strange. There was no passion in his kiss in the usual sense—it was a desperate attempt to anchor himself, to ground himself. He held me as if I were the only solid object in a sinking world.
I didn't see how, after the kiss, as he walked away from the house, Ben took out a handkerchief and carefully wiped his lips, trying to keep the feeling clean. And I didn't see how he looked up at Matt's window—a look full of the promise of swift reprisal against anyone who stood between him and his Star.
Y/N
Something had changed since that dinner. No, not in my relationship with Ben—that had seemed perfect. He had become perfect. He picked me up every evening, always knew when I was tired, and brought me exactly the tea I needed. It would have been like a fairy tale, if not for the growing feeling of being enveloped in a cocoon.
At work, I started noticing oddities.
"Y/N, have you seen my report on the Syndicate?" asked a colleague, Agent Thompson, approaching my desk. "I left it here this morning."
"No, I haven't seen it..."
"I put it away," Dex's voice came from behind me. It appeared out of nowhere, silently, as always. "It was too close to the edge. It could have fallen. I moved it to the filing tray."
Thompson looked at Ben strangely, muttered "thank you," and hurried away. Dex's gaze was devoid of warmth.
"He's hanging around your desk too much," Ben remarked evenly, turning to me. "It's distracting you from your work."
"Ben, he's just a colleague. We're working on the same case."
"Not anymore. I've submitted a request to management. I'll be your sole partner on this case. It will be... more logical. We understand each other better."
I wanted to object, to say it was too much, but he smiled—that soft, practiced smile, the one reserved for me. And I remained silent. After all, it really was easier to work with him. He was efficient.
But that evening, when I went into the bathroom and accidentally knocked over my makeup bag, I noticed my lipstick was angled differently. I always put it with the cap to the left. Now it was to the right.
Someone was in my apartment.
Matt? No, he always tells me when he comes in.
My heart skipped a beat. I walked into the living room and looked around. Everything was in its place. Too much in its place. The pillows on the couch were plumped with geometric precision.
I walked to the window and looked down. Ben's black sedan was parked across the street. He hadn't driven away after dropping me off. He was just sitting there in the dark, staring at my windows.
I didn't turn on the light. I stood in the shadow of the curtains, and for the first time, I felt truly cold.
Ben
She noticed the lipstick. I saw it through the camera I installed in the smoke detector. Her fingers trembled. She's smarter than I thought. Smarter and more observant. That makes her even more valuable.
But the fear in her eyes... that was a mistake. I have to be more careful. I don't want her to be afraid of me. I want her to understand: everything I do is for her purity.
The world around Y/N is full of chaos. Matt Murdock with his secrets, FBI agents staring at her feet, the filth on the streets of Hell's Kitchen. I'm the only filter. I'm the thin line that separates her from the madness of this city.
I pulled out my journal.
"Subject: Matt Murdock. Status: Level 1 Threat.
He's trying to poison her mind against me. He told her I'm a 'machine.'" I squeezed the handle so hard the plastic cracked.
A machine? No. Machines don't feel that all-consuming, fiery need. Machines don't choke on the scent of her hair.
I played the recording of her breathing in her sleep. I recorded it last night when I snuck into her apartment while she was sleeping under the influence of the mild sedative I'd slipped into her wine. I just sat on the edge of her bed for two hours. I didn't touch her. I just listened.
It was the most peaceful time of my life. For those two hours, there were no voices in my head. No orders from Fisk. No FBI code. There was only her.
My phone beeped. A notification from the tracking system on her phone. She was calling her brother.
I put on my headphones.
"Matt, I think you were right," her voice trembled. "He's... he's strange. I feel like he's everywhere. Even when he's not around."
"Y/N, get out of there," Murdock's voice was hoarse. "Come to my office. Right now. I'll find a way to hide you."
I slowly removed my headphones.
Hide her? From me?
I looked at my hands. They were perfectly still.
Matt Murdock had made a critical mistake. He thought he could take away my foothold. If Polaris disappeared, I would fall into the abyss. And if I fell, I would take this entire city with me.
But first, I'll take him.
I stood up and walked to the closet. There, in a case, was the suit I'd prepared. Not an FBI uniform. Something more... suitable for hunting.
"You shouldn't have interfered, Matt," I whispered, checking the balance of the throwing discus. "Family is important. But Y/N is my family now."

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Arty Froushan in Daredevil: Born Again - S02E05
"The Trajectory of the North Star 1"
Y/N's POV
The FBI office in Manhattan was always filled with the same hum: the clicking of keyboards, muffled arguments, and the smell of over-roasted coffee. But around Dex, it was always quiet. Not the comfortable silence I get at home with Matt, when we just sit on the couch and he "listens" to the city. No, around Special Agent Benjamin Poindexter, the silence was… vacuum-like.
"Obsessing again?" I quietly placed the paper cup of coffee on his desk.
Dex flinched. It would be completely imperceptible to the average person, but having grown up with a brother whose senses were heightened to the extreme, I've learned to read the slightest changes in the air. Ben slowly raised his head. His gaze was direct, cold, and frighteningly focused.
"Thank you, Y/N." I was just reviewing the Hell's Kitchen raid report.
"You've been reviewing it for forty minutes, Ben. The letters won't change even if you burn a hole in them."
He smiled faintly. It wasn't a genuine smile, more a technical contraction of his facial muscles, which he deemed appropriate in the situation.
"Order is important," he said in his even, toneless voice. "Without order, chaos reigns."
I sighed and sat on the edge of his desk, ignoring the way he subtly moved a stack of papers to keep me from knocking them over. Dex was the perfect partner. He was never late, always had my back. But there was something... broken about him. Like a clockwork mechanism with one gear spinning too fast. Matt was silent for a long moment when I first mentioned Dex at dinner. He said, "His heartbeat is very steady, Y/N. Too steady for someone who does this kind of work. Be careful." But Matt was always paranoid.
"Look, Ben," I said, fiddling with my ID badge. "We closed the Fisk case (or so we thought). We've been working together for a year now. And in that year, you've never been anywhere but the shooting range and this office."
He froze, looking at me. Confusion flickered in his eyes, as if I'd asked the question in a language he hadn't yet fully mastered.
"I need to stay in shape."
"You need to eat some real food. That pizza place on the corner of 45th opens on Friday. Want to come with me? Seven o'clock."
The world around us seemed to stand still. Dex didn't blink. I could see him processing the information. "Go to a pizza place" was turning into a complex algorithm in his head.
"You mean... social interaction outside of work?" he clarified.
"I mean a date, Dex. A regular, boring date between two colleagues who like each other."
I saw his Adam's apple twitch. He nodded slowly, and in that moment, something changed in his eyes. The cold glint gave way to a strange, hungry interest.
"Seven o'clock," he repeated. "I'll be on time."
Ben's POV
"Date."
The word pulsed in my head like a malfunctioning neon sign. Y/N Murdock asked me out.
I sat in my apartment, staring at the cassette player. The doctor's note had preached the importance of structure, that I needed a "North Star," someone to guide me. Until that moment, my star had been my job. My star had been the FBI code.
But now there was Y/N.
She's Matt Murdock's sister. She smells of vanilla and gunpowder. She's the only one in the office who doesn't look away when I stare at her too long. She's not afraid of my accuracy. She calls it "talent," not "an aberration."
I stood up and walked over to the wall where my targets hung. Each one had a perfect hole in the center.
"She wants to come with me," I said into the empty room. My voice sounded strange.
I pulled out my laptop. I knew the basics: her address, her Social Security number, her blood type (from her employee file). But that wasn't enough. Now that she'd claimed me as "hers," I needed to know everything.
I started searching. Social media. Old law school photos. Articles about her father, "Fighter" Jack Murdock. I stared at the screen for hours, absorbing every detail of her life.
There she is, laughing at graduation.
There she is, standing next to her blind brother at the entrance to their old apartment.
There's her favorite ice cream flavor, in a random post from five years ago.
Something clicked inside me. The chaos in my head, which I usually suppressed with strict discipline, suddenly began to line up. Every thought, every impulse now had a vector.
Y/N Murdock.
I looked at the clock. 72 hours, 14 minutes, and 20 seconds remained until Friday. Too long. Time stretched like thick syrup. I wanted the sun to rise and set three times right now.
I walked to the window and looked out toward her neighborhood. She was there now. Maybe drinking tea. Maybe thinking about me.
I felt my fingers instinctively begin to mimic the trigger, but I stopped myself. No. This is different. Does she love me? She said "like each other." That's the beginning.
I will be perfect for her. I will learn what she likes. I will become what she needs.
I took a small notebook from my desk drawer and wrote on the first page:
"Friday. 7:00 PM. Y/N. My North Star."