Fibromyalgia Life

you have to keep the goal in mind

do you want to win? or do you want to understand that person and resolve the issue? (ask yourself once, then ask again)

the ego loves to win an argument, but relationships are not about feeding your ego

healthy relationships dilute the ego

Well she was almost done stuffing him and then I noticed that you can put scents in your bear and fucking love cotton candy and the girl basically car salesmen style sold me on the scent pad and asked where I wanted the scent to go

And I didn’t know where it should go but she herself being quite the plushie enthusiast was like “you’re gonna hug him a lot right? may I reccomend right here” and pointed to his forehead

So I was like “awe cute yeah that sounds good” (my bulbasaur is totally stuffed mind you and I even had her make him extra firm )

and then the girl rolls up her sleeves and was like “alright bulbasaur! Here we go! I apologize in advance but this is gonna look very inappropriate!”

And she fisted my super full bulbasaur all the way to her elbow saying sorry to him and to me over and over again. It took her several tries to get the scent pad in place since my bulbasaur was so stuffed and she looked like she was straining and saying “I don’t know why they didn’t think about this design more, so many parents are gonna complain about this one day, I know it”

SECOND: I HAVE TO PREPARE MYSELF FOR THE CHILD PURCHASING THE ANALLY INCLINED POKEMON ASKING ME, “why is it in it’s butt?”

LIKE I DON’T K N O W BUT IT ISN’T MY FAULT AND I CAN’T VERY WELL SAY I’M “RAWING BULBASAUR” IN FRONT OF A CHILD AND PARENT COMBO BUT EVERY TIME I LAUGH AND SAY, “that’s just the way it is” WHILE I FORCE STUFFING INTO THE POOR TOY’S ASSHOLE AND ASK MYSELF HOW MY LIFE CAME TO THIS

when we got bulbasaur my manager looked at me, looked at its anus, and said she was sorry.

Chronic illness isn’t looking sick.

Chronic illness is being in pain 24/7 but putting a smile on your face anyway.

Chronic illness being exhasted after just taking a shower.

Chronic illness is having panic attacks terrified to go do anything worried you’re gonna have a pain episode.

Chronic ill is feeling like a burden to everyone around you.

Chronic illness is feeling so alone because no one understands, they can try to understand, but they won’t, and they can’t.

Chronic ill is people thinking you’re a hypochondriac or attention seeker.

Chronic illness is no one believeing you.

Chronic illness is not being able to get the right medication because the doctors think you’re just “drug seeking”

Chronic illness is feeling like failure because you can’t do things normal people can.

Chronic illness is hot shower/baths at 4am because you are having a pain episode.

Chronic illness is bawling because how bad the pain is.

Chronic illness is 9 prescription medications everyday.

Chronic illness doctor appointment after doctor appointment.

Chronic illness is basically being the doctors guinea pig; testing, being poked, feeling violated.

Chronic illness is surgery after surgery

Chronic illness is having 20+ surgeries at 19 years old.

Chronic illness is losing friends because they just don’t understand.

Chronic illness is awful.