(tittle is from the song "Didn't Break it Enough" by Griff
This is my entry for @railmereid #renswritingchallenge
Summary: Y/n had a bad accident because of a personal unsub of the bau 5 months ago and has never been the same.Spencer blames himself but she doesn't know.
Pairing: Spencer Reid x Gender neutral reader. No pronouns are used
Warning: A few curse words. Mentions of self harm. Bad Breakup #twselfharm
I set my coffee cup on the table. Thinking about what he said "We can't do this anymore I'll be there in the morning to pick up my things"
Not home but there. The place we laughed together. Cried together. Loved together. Is just there.
How could he leave now when I need him the most.
If only I was the same. I have changed but that isn't my fault.
I roll over to see him getting his things from the side table. I look over and all his clothes are emptied from our closet.
"Sorry I didn't mean to wake you" he doesn't even look me in the eye. Talking to me like a stranger.
" No you just wanted to be gone before I woke up!"
"I don't like being lied to Spencer" I reach over to grab his hand he flinches and moves back.
"Y/n we can't do this you know that. We aren't working right" he raises his voice. I have never in our 3 years of dating ever heard him like this.
" Why are you leaving now when I need you the most!?" I couldn't control my tears as they are hot running down my face
" Do you think we could pretend? I wanted to go back before it all. Or just act like this is alright. I don't want anything to change not now
He looks at me for one second he looked like he did back at the museum when we look at the stars and told our secrets.
Then it's gone like all the memories the look fades away not to be seen anymore
" This isn't my job to fix you and care for you like a child" We have made it to the living room where he is getting the last of his things.
"THREE YEARS HAVE GONE BY AND NOW YOU ARE LEAVING ME AFTER MY ACCIDENT WHY?"
He grabs his last bag and speaks "Because I don't love you anymore. We aren't good for one another"
I look at him genuinely disgusted
" You don't break my heart because you have commitment issues ,your dad left you, Maeve's death, JJ loves you but not enough, your mom doesn't even remember you"
He looks shocked to say the least
"WHY WOULD YOU SAY THAT?"
"It's true you were so alone then I came for you and this is how you treat me. I fixed you and you can't even help me."
He walks closer to the door opening it
"Get out and hope you have a nice life"
He walks out the door and I shut and lock it. I look over to the key sitting on the kitchen counter.
Sitting on the floor crying
Running my hands over my scars
Am I really broken beyond repair?
Thank You for reading my first fanfic I hope you guys like it and I might post more💗💗
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