October 19th 2020
How is it October already? Idk if it’s just me, but 2020 has been the longest and the shortest year ever! It has also been the most chaotic year too. Like who would have thought that we’d be in a fucking pandemic??? It’s really insane what is happening and also scary. Like I know its all gonna be over and okay soon but nothing will be the same everything that we know Will be different and that’s fucking scary, I do not deal with change very well at all. Trying to see the positive perspective is also pretty hard, a lot of people have been telling me that ‘oh you know maybe the new norm will be a better norm? But what if it’s not? How do I deal with this. This whole pandemic has made my anxiety and worrying so much worse and thinking about the future is really freaking me out and it’s causing me to not focus on what I have to do now, online school. Everyone has their perspectives on this but for me personally I hate it. First off I live a small house with 7 people, I don’t even have my own room or my own space to even do my classes online and sitting behind my computer screen for hours is really not ideal. I feel so anxious about this whole situation and I just do not know what to do, how to deal with this change. I’m kinda really freaking out rn. If anyone has some tips or advice on how to help me please send them my way thank you! Hope everyone is doing well !
