Angel.

Omg so today my friends said something that really pmo

One of my friends jokingly said "if someone is racist in the fg it'd be you Azusa" WHAT THE FUCK???? MIND YOU THIS GIRL IS THE SAME GIRL THAT SAID LIKE "ARENT THE POLICE GOOD THO THEY ARREST THE BAD PEOPLE? " A FEW MONTHS AGO. And then I went to hb and told him what the girl said, expecting him to back me up right????? NO?? He responded by saying that he agreed?????

And I said "what the fuck dude, *girl* is right there. " and he responded by saying that because I was from where I'm from (an east Asian country), that I was probably racist because people "over there don't like black people". and I was like no?? I'm sorry but from my experience we don't gaf about white or black people. And then he said that " your people use whitening creams". ???????

1. I don't use whitening creams. Generalizing is a bit racist???

2. Using whitening creams isn't a sure fire sign someone hates black people???????? I'm sorry but when Westerners fucking look at china Korea japan and say that fucking love white people cuz they have big eyes and pale skin that shit is so fucking stupid??????? The beauty standard has existed for way longer, before we even knew white black or brown people existeddddddd. Something about white people, even the woke ones love to stomp down on other cultures while trying to be included (ie him doing the whole "Chinese time of my life" joke all the fucking time) . Like I know that this beauty standard has leas to colorism and not liking black people, which is obviously terrible. And like yeah there's quite a bit of people from my country with genuinely really ignorant views about poc (ie my brother and mother, but now that they've interacted with more poc they're more normal),

but Im sorry but I thought us staying up till 3am discussing our views would've been enough to show that I'm not a fucking bigot??? Sorry I thought months of talking everyday for hours on end would be enough to let him see past "the girl from *country*" thing.

And he CLEARLY doesn't even know that subject that well because where I'm from were not just racist to black people, we just generally have a superiority complex, like in every country there's stereotypes about every other country, and I'd argue honestly our stereotypes are pretty tame. Still not great to have stereotypes, but omggggggg. Him pointing out specifically my country being racist to black person is so peculiar because he genuinely thinks that east asians loveeeee white people. We don't!!!!!!!!!! You guys might seem cool to people that only see you guys from movies, but we think your manners are shit!!!!!!

I haven't been able to take my makeup off for more than two hours

I haven't studied

I haven't properly restricted

My scratches have been mad shallow