untilmynextstory

When Jack met Jamila, Shakespeare ceased to be literature and became anatomy, something living beneath his ribs, something with a pulse, something that explained why men in old plays looked into the face of love and lost all reasonable instinct, because suddenly he understood every doomed fool who had ever mistaken devotion for oxygen and every tragic lover who had ever decided that a world without the beloved was not a world at all, merely a country stripped of its sun, a sea abandoned by its moon, a body still moving long after the soul had left it.

He understood, with terrifying clarity, why Orpheus turned around.

Not because he was weak, not because he doubted the gods, not because he could not obey, but because love, real love, the kind that sinks its teeth into the marrow and remakes a man from the inside out, does not move comfortably on faith alone, and Jack knew, the moment Jamila looked at him, that he too would have glanced back into the mouth of hell just to make sure she was still behind him, even if it condemned them both, even if Hades himself stood waiting with a crown of ash and judgment in his hands.

He understood Romeo and Juliet then too, not in the foolish way people mocked them for, not as children too dramatic for their own hearts, but as two souls who had stumbled into recognition so violent it made the world before each other feel counterfeit, because when Jack met Jamila, he understood how death beside the one you loved could seem less cruel than life in a universe where their hand no longer fit into yours, where their voice no longer called your name across a room, where the earth kept turning with the audacity to pretend the stars had not gone out.

He was twenty-two when he met her, already walking toward army medicine with the grim focus of a man who had decided early that blood, discipline, and survival would be the shape of his life, while Jamila was twenty, bright-eyed and brilliant, stepping into software engineering like she had been born to speak in languages machines understood, her mind clean and electric, full of logic, architecture, systems, and possibilities he could barely name.

They should have been opposites, and perhaps they were, in the way the sun and moon were opposites, in the way land and sea met only at the shoreline yet spent eternity reshaping one another, in the way Apollo drew his golden chariot across the morning while Artemis guarded the silver hush of night, separate and sacred until eclipse made a miracle of their collision.

Jamila was sunlight over open water, all warmth and movement and impossible shimmer, the kind of woman who made ordinary rooms look briefly blessed, while Jack was moonlight over dark fields, quieter, watchful, made of shadow and gravity, a man who had learned to love carefully because carelessness had teeth; and yet from the moment they met, it felt less like attraction and more like orbit, as if some ancient god had taken their names, carved them into opposite sides of the same star, and set them loose across the heavens just to see how long it would take them to find their way back.

Jack was sure of her almost immediately, so sure it frightened him, so sure that the certainty did not feel reckless but ancestral, as if every man in his bloodline who had ever loved a woman properly had leaned across time and whispered, that one, as if the earth beneath his feet had changed its axis and expected him to adjust without complaint.

So on their second date, with no grand proposal planned and no velvet box burning a hole through his pocket, he took Jamila ring shopping.

Not because he was trying to trap her, not because he mistook desire for entitlement, and not because he believed love gave him ownership over her future, but because Jack Abbot had already decided that if the day ever came when he knelt before her, he would not do it empty-handed in spirit, would not arrive before the altar of her life unprepared, would not insult her by guessing at what she liked or, worse, choosing something that reflected his ego more than her heart.

To him, there was nothing more careless than an unprepared man, nothing more selfish than a man who dressed his own desires up as romance and placed them in a woman’s lap like tribute, expecting gratitude for a gift that had never truly considered her.

Jamila deserved better than that.

She deserved intention.

She deserved study.

She deserved a man who paid attention the way sailors once studied constellations, the way farmers read the sky before planting, the way ancient Greeks listened for the gods in thunder and tide, because loving Jamila, even then, felt like learning a sacred language, one made of glances, preferences, silences, laughter, and the small unguarded truths she did not yet know she was giving him.

He remembered her in that jewelry store with a clarity that time had never managed to dull, remembered the soft halo of her hair framing her face like something painted by a Renaissance hand, remembered the way the lights caught in the dark strands and made her look celestial, half-woman and half-constellation, remembered how her features had softened each time she slipped a ring onto her finger, her smile going shy at the edges though she tried to play it cool, dimples appearing like little moons in her cheeks while she turned her hand beneath the glass-bright glow and pretended she did not know he was memorizing everything.

Ring after ring after ring, silver and gold, oval and emerald, delicate bands and bold stones, quiet elegance and glittering declarations, and Jack watched her the way men once watched the horizon for ships, the way Orpheus must have listened for Eurydice’s footsteps in the dark, the way the moon pulls at the sea without ever touching it, learning what made her eyes linger, what made her mouth tilt, what she dismissed quickly, what she came back to twice, what made her hand look most like hers.

He did not rush her.

He did not steer her.

He simply stood beside her, young and already ruined, smiling like a man trying very hard not to show that he was watching the rest of his life choose its shape beneath a jewelry store light.

And Jamila, laughing softly as she slid another ring from her finger and placed it back into the tray, had no idea that Jack was not merely collecting her size or her preferences, but building a map, charting the coastline of her desires grain by grain, star by star, already preparing himself for a future he had no right to claim yet but every intention of earning.

“Jack, where are you takin’ me?” Jamila asked, turning toward him in the passenger seat as he drove through the late afternoon, her voice carrying that sweet Southern edge that made even suspicion sound like music, while the sun lowered itself over the city in a slow golden surrender and poured across her brown skin as if it had been waiting all day for the privilege of touching her.

Jack should have been watching the road with the strict discipline of a man trained to notice danger before it had a name, a man already half-married to order and duty and all the clean, brutal logic of army medicine, but God help him, Jamila made vigilance feel impossible, because every time the light caught the slope of her cheek or the curve of her mouth, every time her hair shifted around her face like a dark halo loosened by the wind, he felt something ancient and unreasonable rise in him, something that belonged less to the modern world and more to myth, to men who built temples because their hearts had nowhere else to put the worship.

He glanced at her, just once, and smiled like he was trying not to give himself away too early.

“Do you trust me?”

Jamila’s brows lifted, her mouth curving before she could stop it, and she turned fully in her seat with the solemn suspicion of a woman who had watched enough true crime to know that charm and bone structure had never saved anybody from being found in a ditch.

“I’m pretty sure that’s how murder documentaries start.”

Jack laughed then, not loudly, not carelessly, but with that low warm sound that seemed to come from somewhere deep in his chest, and Jamila hated how much she liked it already, hated how quickly it had started to feel familiar, like a song she had not heard before but somehow knew the words to.

“I would make a terrible murderer,” he said, one hand resting easy on the wheel, the other briefly shifting against the gear stick as the car rolled past rows of brick buildings washed in amber light. “I’m too organised, which means I’d overthink everything, leave no evidence, then feel guilty about depriving the investigators of a decent puzzle.”

“So you admit you’ve considered the logistics?”

“I’m pursuing medicine in the army, sweetheart, unfortunately my brain considers logistics before romance, breakfast, sleep, and most major holidays.”

Jamila narrowed her eyes at him, but her smile deepened until one dimple appeared, that single devastating indentation that had already begun ruining Jack’s sense of proportion, because every time he saw it, the world rearranged itself around the small fact of her happiness.

“First of all, don’t sweetheart me like you’re not currently driving me to an undisclosed location,” she said, folding her arms as though she were not enjoying herself. “Second of all, men who call women sweetheart in that calm voice are exactly the ones women end up warning each other about.”

Jack looked over at her again, and this time his smile softened into something quieter, something that had no business appearing on a second date, because it looked too close to recognition, too close to promise, too close to a man standing on the shore and seeing, not just the sea in front of him, but every storm he was willing to cross.

“I’ll accept that criticism,” he said, “but I need the record to show that I am not taking you anywhere suspicious.”

“The record will show that you refused to answer a direct question.”

“The record will also show that you got in the car anyway.”

Jamila turned toward the window with a huff, but Jack saw the reflection of her smile in the glass, saw the way she tried to press it down and failed, saw the way the evening light gathered along her profile as if Apollo himself had slowed his chariot just to admire the line of her nose, the softness of her lips, the quiet brightness of her eyes.

He was twenty-two years old, and still, in that moment, he felt impossibly young, almost boyish with wanting, not just wanting her body near him or her hand in his, though God knew even the brush of her shoulder earlier had nearly undone him, but wanting in the larger, more terrifying way, wanting her mornings and her bad moods and her opinions on things he had never cared about before, wanting to know how she took her tea, whether she liked rain, what songs she played when she was sad, whether she cried at films and pretended she didn’t, whether she slept curled into herself or sprawled like she owned the bed.

He wanted to learn her the way ancient sailors learned the stars, not casually, not for beauty alone, but for survival.

That was what unsettled him most.

Jamila did not feel like a woman he had met.

She felt like a direction.

She felt like north.

The road curved toward the older part of town, where the buildings stood close together and the pavements were warm from the day’s heat, and Jamila watched the streets pass with interest, her skepticism shifting into curiosity as Jack pulled onto a quieter lane lined with small shops and window boxes overflowing with flowers that leaned toward the sun like worshippers.

“Jack,” she said slowly, stretching his name in that way that made him feel both accused and adored, “why are we somewhere that looks expensive?”

He did not answer immediately, partly because he enjoyed the rising suspicion in her voice and partly because he needed a moment to gather himself, because the truth was ridiculous even to him, and yet not ridiculous enough to stop him.

Instead, he parked along the curb, turned off the engine, and sat there for half a breath with both hands still on the wheel, looking out at the storefront ahead of them where the windows glimmered with the cold fire of diamonds beneath soft lights.

Jamila followed his gaze.

Then she went still.

Not dramatically, not loudly, but completely, like the sea drawing back from the shore before a wave broke.

“Jack,” she said, and this time his name came out softer, lower, threaded with disbelief.

He turned to her, and though he tried to keep his expression steady, the yearning was there in him like tide under moonlight, pulling at everything he had not said, everything he had no right to say yet, everything his heart had already decided before his common sense had even arrived at the meeting.

“Before you panic,” he said, “I am not proposing to you.”

Jamila blinked at him.

Then blinked again.

“You brought me to a jewelry store on our second date and thought the first thing you should say is, ‘before you panic’?”

“In my defence, it seemed efficient.”

“In your defence?” she repeated, turning toward him in full now, eyes wide and incredulous. “Jack Abbot, I am about to get out this car and walk home.”

“You don’t know where you are.”

“Women have crossed deserts, oceans, and bad marriages with less information than that.”

He laughed again, but there was something nervous beneath it now, something boyish and exposed, because as much as he had rehearsed the explanation in his head, as much as he had arranged the words carefully like instruments on a surgical tray, Jamila looking at him made language feel clumsy.

“I know this is… unusual,” he said, and the understatement made her give him a look so sharp it could have split marble, but he pressed on because if he stopped now, he would lose his nerve. “I’m not asking you for anything, Jamila, and I’m not trying to rush you or scare you or make assumptions about what you want from me, because that would be unfair and honestly stupid, but I do know that I like you, and I know that when I care about something, I prepare for it properly.”

Her expression shifted, suspicion still there, but softened now by curiosity, by the strange tenderness of being taken seriously before she had even asked to be.

Jack swallowed, his gaze dropping for a moment to where her hand rested in her lap, graceful and brown and bare, her fingers catching the sunlight like something sculpted from warm earth.

“I don’t ever want to be the kind of man who decides what a woman should want and then calls it romance,” he said, his voice quieter now, steady but full of something that pressed against the air between them. “If I ever ask you something important, something life-changing, something that deserves reverence, then I want to know I listened before I spoke, and I want to know I chose with you in mind, not with my pride in mind.”

Jamila stared at him, and for once, her mouth did not have a quick answer ready.

That silence nearly killed him.

It would have been easier if she teased him, easier if she scoffed or called him insane or told him he had lost his whole mind somewhere between the starter and the main course on their first date, but instead she just looked at him, really looked at him, as if she were seeing past the smile, past the controlled posture, past the military discipline he wore like armour, and into the young man beneath it, the one who had already started building a place for her in his life with his bare hands.

“You’re serious,” she said.

“I usually am.”

“No, Jack,” she said, her voice gentler now, almost careful. “I mean you’re serious about me.”

The late afternoon seemed to hush around them, the city dimming into a painted thing beyond the windshield, the sun lowering itself toward the horizon like Helios descending into the western sea, and Jack felt the truth rise in him, luminous and dangerous.

“I am,” he said.

Jamila let out a small breath, not quite a laugh and not quite a sigh, and turned her face toward the jewelry store again, where the diamonds sat in their velvet beds like fallen stars.

“On the second date?”

Jack looked at her profile, at the golden light along her cheek, at the dimple threatening to return even as she tried to remain stern, and he felt so helplessly fond of her that it was almost painful.

“Technically, I knew on the first one,” he admitted.

Her head snapped back toward him.

“Jack.”

“What?”

“You cannot say things like that to me while parked outside a ring store.”

“I could have said it while driving, but you already thought I was taking you somewhere to die.”

She pressed her lips together, fighting a smile so hard he could see the battle moving across her face.

“You are absolutely ridiculous.”

“I’ve been called worse.”

“You are insane.”

“Possibly.”

“You are dangerously intense.”

“That one feels fair.”

“You barely know me.”

Jack’s expression changed then, not into offence, but into something solemn, something that made the air feel warmer and heavier, like summer rain gathering above dry land.

“I know,” he said, and his honesty disarmed her more than any pretty answer could have. “I know I barely know you, and I’m not pretending that I do, but I know enough to want the privilege of learning the rest slowly, properly, without rushing you, without making you feel cornered, without turning my certainty into pressure.”

Jamila’s gaze searched his face, and Jack let her, because there was no manipulation in him, no polished trick, no hidden net beneath the words, only a frightening earnestness that made him feel as vulnerable as Orpheus walking out of the underworld with the whole of his heart behind him and one command standing between hope and ruin.

“I know you’re brilliant,” he continued, voice low, “and I know you like arguing even when you agree, and I know you pretend not to enjoy being complimented even though your left dimple gives you away every single time, and I know you check exits when you walk into restaurants, which means either you’re cautious, nosy, or you watch too much crime television, and I know you spoke about software engineering like it was less of a career and more of a kingdom you intended to build brick by brick until the whole world had to respect the architecture.”

Jamila looked away before he could see too much of what that did to her, but he saw enough.

He always saw enough.

“And,” he said, softer still, “I know that when you laughed last night, I thought about it again before I fell asleep.”

Her eyes closed briefly, as if she needed a second to survive him.

“You are dangerous,” she murmured.

“I thought we established I’d make a poor murderer.”

“Not that kind of dangerous.”

Jack’s smile faded into something more tender, and for a moment he looked at her like she was the only fixed point in an expanding universe, like every star in the sky had been born only to teach him what orbit meant.

“Then what kind?”

Jamila turned back to him, her eyes bright with the kind of feeling she was not yet ready to name, and her smile came slowly, like dawn coming over water.

“The kind women write poetry about and then regret.”

Jack’s breath caught, just barely, but enough for her to notice.

She noticed everything.

That was another thing he loved already, though he had no right to call it love yet, no socially acceptable reason to admit that some part of him had stepped into her gravity and simply stopped fighting the fall.

“Come on,” he said, opening his door before he said something unforgivably honest. “Let me be prepared, and then you can tell all your friends I’m insane over dinner.”

Jamila did not move at first, watching him step out and come around to her side like manners were not performance to him but instinct, something bred deep into the bone, something steady and old-fashioned without being possessive.

When he opened her door, he offered his hand.

She looked at it.

Then she looked at him.

“If I go in there with you,” she said, placing her hand in his palm but not yet letting him help her out, “you understand this does not mean I am agreeing to marry you, have your children, take your last name, or let you start acting like you have claims on me.”

Jack’s fingers closed gently around hers, warm and careful, and the contact moved through him like lightning striking open sea.

“I understand.”

“And you understand that I will tell my friends you’re crazy.”

“I’m counting on that.”

“And you understand that if the saleswoman starts smiling at me like she knows something I don’t, I will leave you in there.”

“I’ll deserve it.”

Jamila stepped out of the car, and when she stood in front of him, close enough that he could smell the soft sweetness of whatever lotion she wore, close enough that the wind lifted a strand of her hair against his sleeve, Jack had the wild, almost unbearable thought that if Aphrodite herself had risen from seafoam and walked barefoot through the world, she might have carried herself like this, amused and luminous and entirely aware that men had been losing wars for less.

He did not say that, of course, because he wanted to live.

Instead, he shut the car door and walked beside her toward the jewelry store, careful not to crowd her, though every part of him wanted to reach for her again, wanted to know whether her hand fit his as perfectly on purpose or whether the universe was simply showing off.

Inside, the store was cool and bright, the air faintly perfumed, the glass counters arranged like small altars beneath constellations of light, and Jamila slowed as she entered, her earlier teasing falling into a quiet sort of wonder she tried very hard to conceal.

Jack watched her take it in.

Not the diamonds first, not the price tags, not the glitter, but the shapes, the settings, the artistry of it all, the language of gold and stone and craftsmanship speaking to that architectural part of her mind, and he felt something inside him settle with certainty so deep it was almost frightening.

He wanted to give her beautiful things, yes, but not because beauty alone could impress her.

He wanted to give her considered things.

Chosen things.

Things that said, I saw you, I listened, I remembered.

A saleswoman approached with a professional smile, and Jamila immediately cut her eyes at Jack as if to say, behave, which made his mouth twitch.

“Good afternoon,” the woman said warmly. “Are we looking for anything special today?”

Jamila opened her mouth, probably to say something sensible, something clarifying, something that would spare them both from the absurdity of the situation, but Jack spoke first.

“We’re just learning what she likes,” he said, with such calm conviction that Jamila’s breath hitched almost imperceptibly beside him. “Nothing more than that.”

The saleswoman’s expression softened in a way Jamila absolutely noticed, and Jack felt Jamila’s elbow brush his side in warning.

He looked down at her.

She smiled up at him, sweet as honey and just as dangerous.

“I told you,” she murmured.

“I know.”

“She’s smiling.”

“I see that.”

“I’m leaving you here.”

“You said that already.”

“And yet you’re still misbehaving.”

Jack leaned slightly closer, not enough to be improper, just enough that his voice became something meant for her alone.

“If this is me misbehaving, Jamila, you’re going to be very disappointed when you find out how good I can be.”

For one glorious second, she forgot how to respond.

Jack saw it.

Jack cherished it.

Then her eyes narrowed, and she turned toward the counter with the dignity of a queen pretending she had not just been knocked off balance by a soldier with tired eyes and a devastating mouth.

“Show me something simple,” she said to the saleswoman, her voice perfectly composed except for the faint warmth in it. “Elegant, not boring, and please do not bring me anything that looks like a man chose it to prove he had money.”

The saleswoman laughed softly, and Jack looked down, smiling like a condemned man who had no interest in appeal.

There she was.

There was his Jamila, though he would not dare say his aloud, not yet, not before she gave him the right, not before he earned it with patience and reverence and the kind of devotion that did not clutch but cultivated, that did not conquer but tended, like fertile land waiting for rain, like a lighthouse keeping watch over a restless sea.

Ring after ring appeared on black velvet, each one catching the light in small bursts of fire, and Jamila tried them on with a mix of curiosity and embarrassment, as though she were amused by the drama of it all and secretly, dangerously touched by the fact that he cared enough to ask.

Jack paid attention like a man taking sacred instruction.

He noticed how she dismissed round stones too quickly, how her fingers lingered over emerald cuts, how she liked gold but paused longer over warmer tones, how she frowned at anything too bulky, how she smiled despite herself when a delicate band caught the light like a narrow river under the sun.

He noticed the way she flexed her hand when a ring felt wrong, the way her mouth softened when one felt close, the way she glanced at him once after trying on an oval stone and then immediately looked away, as if sharing the reaction too soon would reveal more than she was ready to give.

“That one?” he asked quietly.

Jamila looked down at her hand, then at him.

“It’s pretty.”

“That’s not what I asked.”

Her eyes lifted, and there it was again, that spark between them, that answering flare, like two celestial bodies recognizing the pull before impact.

“What did you ask, then?”

“I asked if you liked it.”

She swallowed, and Jack watched the movement with a tenderness that nearly undid him.

“I do,” she said, softer than before. “I like this one.”

The saleswoman smiled and began noting details, but Jack barely heard her, because Jamila was looking down at the ring on her own hand with an expression he knew he would remember when he was old, when his curls had gone fully silver, when their life had gathered years the way shorelines gathered shells.

He imagined, against all reason and permission, that same hand reaching for him in the dark.

He imagined it resting on his chest.

He imagined it holding his child’s fingers.

He imagined it wearing something he had chosen not because it was expensive, not because it announced him, but because it belonged to her as naturally as moonlight belonged to the tide.

The yearning that moved through him then was not hunger alone, though hunger was there, sharp and human and impossible to deny; it was something larger and more reverent, something rooted in the deep earth of him, something that wanted not to take but to build, to plant, to return, to become worthy of being trusted with her name in his mouth and her future anywhere near his hands.

Jamila glanced up and caught him staring.

“What?” she asked, her voice quieter now, stripped of some of its teasing.

Jack could have lied.

He could have made a joke.

He could have hidden behind charm, because charm was easier than truth and far less likely to frighten a woman on a second date in a jewelry store.

But he looked at her beneath those soft white lights, with all those diamonds burning around them like fragments of fallen stars, and he found he could not make himself cheapen the moment.

“I’m trying to remember this,” he said.

Her expression changed.

“Why?”

“Because one day,” he said, carefully, gently, as if laying something precious between them and not asking her to pick it up yet, “I think I’m going to be very grateful that I did.”

For a long moment, Jamila said nothing.

Then she looked back down at the ring, turning her hand slightly, watching the stone catch the light.

“You really are crazy,” she whispered.

Jack smiled, but his voice, when it came, was steady as a vow spoken under stars.

“Only about you.”

Their love was a symphony, not loud for the sake of being heard but perfectly composed, deliberate as a hand hovering over ivory keys before the first note, every breath and glance and touch arriving where it was meant to, as if some unseen conductor had been standing beyond the veil of their lives long before they met, waiting for Jack Abbot and Jamila Vermont to finally find the same measure.

After that second date, when the evening had folded itself into something soft and dangerous, when the city outside had gone blue-black beneath the moon and the stars had begun pricking holes in the dark like heaven itself wanted to spy, Jack understood that what was happening between them was not simply want, not simply chemistry, not the ordinary hunger of a young man undone by a beautiful woman, but something older than language, something tidal, something celestial, something that moved through him with the terrifying certainty of the sea answering the moon.

He had thought himself disciplined before Jamila, thought himself steady, thought the army had already begun carving him into a man of restraint and reason, but then she said his name in the dark, soft and wanting and ruinously sure, and every law he had ever obeyed became smoke, every sensible thought scattered like birds startled from a field, every carefully built wall inside him lowered its drawbridge as though it had only ever been waiting for her arrival.

He did not think of conquest, because Jamila was not territory to be taken, nor treasure to be seized, nor some mortal prize for a man arrogant enough to believe love meant possession, but he thought of worship, of temples built from marble and devotion, of sailors who kissed the earth after surviving storms, of farmers who fell to their knees when rain finally broke over starving land, of Orpheus looking back not out of weakness but because the beloved voice behind him was worth more than obedience to the gods.

That was how Jack loved her already, helplessly and with the full surrender of a man who knew, even at twenty-two, that he had reached the place where his life would divide itself into before and after.

When they became one, it was not crude or careless, not some fleeting collision of bodies mistaken for intimacy, but a crossing of oceans, a meeting of weather systems, a sacred eclipse in which the sun and moon stopped chasing one another long enough to touch, and Jack, with Jamila close enough to feel like warmth beneath his skin and fate beneath his hands, swore with the kind of silent desperation men saved for battlefields, deathbeds, and altars that he would spend his life loving her if she allowed him the honor.

He swore it to every god who had ever meddled in the affairs of lovers, to Aphrodite rising from seafoam with mischief on her mouth, to Hera watching over vows with stern and ancient eyes, to Selene dragging her silver chariot across the night, to Poseidon roaring beneath the black belly of the ocean, to every power that had ever watched humans ruin themselves beautifully in the name of love.

He swore it on his mother and father, on the generations before him whose names he carried in his blood, on the bones of every Abbot who had known how to keep a promise, that Jamila would not be a season in his life, would not be a woman he remembered with regret, would not become some almost-love he spoke of years later with a glass in his hand and sorrow in his throat.

Jamila would be his wife.

Jamila would be his lover.

Jamila would be the woman whose name lived behind his teeth when he prayed, cursed, laughed, bled, survived, and came home.

And God, the way she held him close, the way she seemed to pull the very tide out of him, the way her breath trembled against his skin like wind moving over summer grass, the way his name left her mouth not as a sound but as a summons, made something in Jack tighten with such unbearable tenderness that he almost could not endure it, because desire was one thing, sharp and human and blinding, but being wanted by Jamila felt like being chosen by the sun.

He had known attraction before her, had known the quick flare of interest, the passing heat of pretty faces and easy conversations, but this was not heat alone; this was gravity, this was the earth learning the shape of its own orbit, this was a man standing at the edge of the known world and realizing the horizon was not an ending but an invitation.

“Jamila,” he breathed, and her name sounded different in his mouth then, less like a name and more like scripture, like a prayer he had not been taught but somehow remembered.

She touched his face with a softness that undid him more completely than any urgency could have, her fingers tracing him as if she were learning not merely the lines of his jaw or the slope of his cheek, but the man beneath the skin, the boy who had grown into discipline because chaos had frightened him, the soldier-in-training who trusted structure because tenderness felt too unpredictable, the young man who had looked at her across a dinner table and known, with no proof except the wild arithmetic of his own heart, that he was finished.

“You’re staring,” she whispered, laughter tucked into the words, breathless and affectionate and a little shy despite all the boldness she had shown him.

“I know,” he murmured, because lying to Jamila already felt impossible, and because even then, even before rings and vows and children and night shifts and gray curls, Jack understood that love demanded honesty before it demanded poetry.

“You always this intense?”

“No,” he said, and the answer came too quickly, too seriously, because he wanted her to understand that this version of him, this undone and open and almost reverent version, belonged to her alone. “Only with you.”

That made her quiet in a way that pleased and terrified him, because Jamila was quick, Jamila was sharp, Jamila had a mouth made for teasing and a mind made for dismantling foolish men brick by brick, yet she looked at him then as if he had reached into some hidden place and touched something she had not meant to show him so soon.

Outside, the moon climbed higher, pouring silver over rooftops and windowsills, and inside, the world reduced itself to the sacred hush of two people finding each other in the dark, not with the clumsiness of strangers but with the awe of lost kingdoms recognizing the same old flag, with the sea rushing toward the shore and the shore opening to receive it, with stars collapsing into constellations because chaos had finally been given a shape.

Jack wanted to tell her everything then, wanted to confess that he had already imagined her old beside him, already imagined her laughter in rooms he had not lived in yet, already imagined her hand wearing a ring he had chosen with the care of a man selecting a star from the sky, already imagined mornings where she fussed at him for leaving shoes in the wrong place and nights where he came home heavy with the world and found her waiting like a lighthouse refusing to let him drown.

But he did not say all of it, because even in the flood of feeling, he knew love was not proven by overwhelming a woman with the full weight of a man’s longing, and Jack would rather bite his own tongue bloody than make Jamila feel cornered by the force of what he already knew.

So he kissed the truth into the quiet instead, kissed it into her hairline, into her temple, into the bend of her laughter, into the places where speech became too small and feeling had to find another language, and every time she drew him closer, every time she answered him with that same impossible tenderness, the vow inside him rooted deeper.

He would earn her slowly.

He would study her properly.

He would learn the weather of her moods, the architecture of her ambitions, the passwords to her silence, the small ceremonies that made her feel loved, the sharp edges of her fears, the hidden softness behind her wit, and every private constellation that made up the universe of Jamila Vermont.

He would not rush her to the altar simply because his heart had already run there barefoot.

He would not place his certainty around her neck like a chain and call it devotion.

He would become steady enough for her to lean on, patient enough for her to trust, humble enough to be corrected, tender enough to be safe, and strong enough to stand beside her without trying to stand over her.

That was the vow beneath the vow, the one no god could witness because it was carved too deep for heaven to see, and as the night moved around them like dark water, as Jamila’s breath softened and the universe seemed to hold its own, Jack rested his forehead against hers and felt his whole future gather itself into one luminous point.

Her.

Always her.

Not because she had been promised to him by fate, not because myth or moonlight or desire had made the choice for them, but because in a world full of noise and ruin and brief, forgettable things, Jamila felt like the one truth he would spend the rest of his life proving himself worthy of keeping.

He remembered when he lost part of his leg during his time at war; it had been fifteen years now, fifteen whole years of scar tissue and prosthetic fittings and phantom aches that came with rain or exhaustion or memory, and still he remembered it with the bright, cruel clarity of yesterday, as if the wound had never truly closed but had simply learned manners, as if it had dressed itself in skin and time and let the world believe it had stopped bleeding.

Apparently army medics were not exempt from becoming casualties themselves, and Jack had learned that lesson not from textbooks or triage drills or the clean theoretical language of trauma training, but from the dirt, from the smoke, from the terrible red arithmetic of war, from a field where the earth had split open like some ancient god had struck it in anger and demanded payment in flesh.

He remembered the sky most of all.

That was the part that haunted him strangely, not the shouting, not the burning metal, not the sharp medical voices in his ear, but the sky above him, wide and blue and indifferent, an impossible dome of heaven stretched over the ugliest hour of his life, and he remembered thinking that the gods had always been cruel in the old stories, always watching men break themselves against war and love and destiny, always asking for a limb here, a heart there, a wife turned to shadow, a son sent across the sea, a soldier dragged home in pieces.

He remembered thinking, absurdly, stupidly, with blood in his mouth and his hands trying to do their work even when his body had become the emergency, that Jamila was going to leave him.

Not because she was shallow, not because she was cruel, not because she had ever once loved him in a way that depended on him being whole by anyone else’s definition, but because fear was not rational when it found a man already on the floor; fear was a vulture, circling low and patient, whispering the ugliest things in his own voice until they sounded like truth.

Good fucking job, pal, he remembered thinking, bitter and delirious and so furious at himself he could hardly breathe. You didn’t deserve her to begin with, and now she’s surely going to leave your ass.

He remembered all of it, the shame most of all, the hot, suffocating shame that rose in him before the grief even had language, because Jack had always known how to be useful, had known how to be steady, had known how to stand between disaster and the people he loved, and suddenly his own body had become a country after invasion, its map redrawn without his permission, borders broken, landmarks missing, the familiar terrain of himself turned foreign under his hands.

He wanted Jamila more than he wanted air.

And he did not want her anywhere near him.

That contradiction nearly killed him more thoroughly than the injury had, because the person who could soothe his woes most was the very person he could not bear to see, the woman whose hands had always known how to find the ache beneath his armor, whose voice could call him back from any ledge, whose love had once made him feel larger than fear, and yet the idea of her walking into that hospital room and seeing him reduced, altered, lessened — God, the word made him hate himself even as he thought it — felt like staring down a second battlefield.

He had imagined her face before she arrived, and his mind, being a cruel and gifted enemy, painted every version designed to ruin him.

He imagined pity.

He imagined shock.

He imagined her trying to hide grief too quickly, her smile trembling at the edges, her eyes falling where his leg no longer was and then lifting with too much effort, too much kindness, too much careful mercy, and he thought that if Jamila looked at him like something to be handled gently because it had been broken, he would not survive it.

He could take pain.

He could take blood.

He could take surgeons, morphine, military doctors speaking in clipped tones over him as if his body were a report they had to file by morning.

But he could not take Jamila’s pity.

He could not take being loved out of obligation by the woman he had once promised the moon to with twenty-two-year-old arrogance and a second-date ring size tucked in the secret chambers of his memory.

He remembered hearing her before he saw her.

That was Jamila all over, arriving not like a storm exactly, but like weather the earth had been warned about, like pressure gathering over the sea, like thunder still beyond the horizon but already making every living thing lift its head. He heard the sharp rhythm of her heels first, then her voice cutting through the sterile quiet of the ward with that polished, dangerous sweetness she used when she was one inconvenience away from ruining somebody’s afternoon.

He remembered hearing her before he saw her.

Not clearly at first, not as a voice with words and edges, but as a force moving through the corridor outside his hospital room, as unmistakable as thunder rolling over black water, as familiar as the moon dragging the tide toward shore whether the sea was ready or not. Even through the haze of pain medicine, even through the sterile hush of machines and the thick, shameful fog of his own fear, Jack knew that voice before his mind could fully hold it.

Jamila.

“Jack. Jack Abbot. I’m looking for my husband.”

Her voice was controlled, which somehow made it worse for everyone involved, because Jamila Vermont-Abbott did not need to shout to become dangerous; she had never been the kind of woman who mistook volume for power, and even then, even frantic, even terrified, she spoke with the sharp precision of a blade drawn slowly from its sheath.

“Yes, I am aware he doesn’t want any visitors,” she said, each word polished smooth with false patience, the sort of patience that promised ruin if tested one second longer. “And I’m also aware that you are standing between me and the man I married, Curtis, so either you let me see him, or I’m going to make your wife aware of your extracurricular activities.”

Jack closed his eyes.

Even half-broken, even with his body remade by war and his pride lying somewhere in the dust beside what he had lost, some stunned, horrified part of him thought, I told her that in confidence.

Of course she had remembered.

Of course she had stored it somewhere behind those pretty brown eyes like a queen keeping a dagger beneath her silk, not because she was cruel, but because Jamila believed information was a tool and fools were merely people who did not know how to use what they had been given. She had always been like that, brilliant and ruthless when necessary, sunlight with teeth, warmth with a warning label, the kind of woman who could kiss softness into a man’s forehead and then reduce an obstacle to ash without ever raising her voice.

There was a pause outside the door.

A small one.

The kind men took when they realized the woman in front of them had not come to negotiate, but to collect what belonged to her heart.

Jack could almost see Curtis through the wall, could imagine the blood draining from his face, could imagine the nurse at the desk pretending not to listen, could imagine Jamila standing there with her coat still on, hair probably pulled back in a rush, eyes bright with fear and fury, looking less like a worried wife and more like Hera herself descending from Olympus to remind mortals what happened when they confused protocol with authority.

And God help him, beneath all the shame and terror and pain, Jack loved her so violently in that moment that it nearly split him open all over again.

And God help him, beneath all the shame and terror and pain, Jack loved her so violently in that moment that it nearly split him open all over again.

Because only Jamila would arrive at a military hospital with fear clawing its way up her throat, with her husband lying somewhere behind a closed door and the worst day of their marriage unfolding in sterile white light, and still have the presence of mind to weaponize a man named Curtis’s infidelity like she was pulling a blade from her garter at a dinner party, polite as a duchess, deadly as Athena stepping fully armed from Zeus’s skull.

There was another pause, then a low male voice, nervous now, muffled through the door but not muffled enough to hide the surrender in it.

“Mrs. Abbot, I really don’t think—”

“You don’t need to think, Curtis, that’s clearly been part of the problem.”

Jack would have laughed if his ribs had not hurt, if his throat had not been tight, if the lower half of his body did not feel like a foreign country after war had burned the borders and left him stranded in the ash, but even then, even there, the smallest, most battered part of him stirred at the sound of her, because Jamila had always had that effect on him, always reached through whatever fog he was lost in and tugged him back by the soul.

Outside, someone cleared their throat, someone else shifted, and then Curtis, poor foolish Curtis, who had once spoken too freely to Jack during a late-night smoke break and assumed a married man would not repeat another man’s sins to his wife, finally seemed to understand that Jamila Abbott had not flown all the way here to be reasonable.

The door handle moved.

Jack’s heart stopped.

It was a strange thing, to have survived the blast, the blood loss, the hands pressing down on him, the morphine, the doctors talking over what remained and what could not be saved, only to feel, at the turning of a simple metal handle, that he had reached the true edge of himself.

He wanted her.

God, he wanted her so badly it felt animal, humiliating, almost holy, the way a man lost at sea wanted the first glimpse of land, the way Orpheus must have wanted one forbidden glance, the way every tide in the world wanted the moon even though the moon never came close enough to hold.

And yet he wanted the door to stay closed forever.

Because if Jamila crossed that threshold, then the thing he had been dreading would become real in a way even the wound itself had not made real, and she would see him not as memory, not as voice over a dropped call, not as a husband preserved in the bright amber of before, but as he was now, bandaged and battered and changed, with part of his body gone and the rest of him drowning in the ugly belief that war had finally revealed what he had feared all along, that he had never deserved someone like her and now had the evidence to prove it.

The door opened.

For one breath, no one moved.

Jamila stood in the doorway like a figure from myth, not fragile with grief but lit from within by it, her coat still buttoned wrong as if she had dressed faster than her hands could manage, her hair pulled back with several curls escaping around her face, her eyes dark and furious and wet, and behind her, Curtis lingered like a man who had just met Nemesis in a pencil skirt and regretted every decision that had led him there.

Jack saw her see the room first.

The machines.

The wires.

The bruises.

The bandages.

The emptiness beneath the sheet where there should have been shape.

He saw the storm pass over her face so quickly anyone else might have missed it, saw the flash of horror, not at him but at what had been done to him, saw the grief slam into her ribs and nearly fold her in half, saw her swallow it down with brutal discipline because Jamila, even in devastation, understood that this moment could not be about making him hold her fear when he could barely hold his own.

Then her eyes found his.

Not his leg.

Not the wound.

Him.

And Jack, who had spent hours imagining pity, revulsion, obligation, sorrow too heavy to bear, was completely unprepared for the simple, devastating fact of being recognized.

“Jack,” she said, and his name in her mouth was not a gasp or a cry or a funeral bell, but an anchor dropped into black water, something heavy enough to hold.

He turned his head away.

He hated himself the second he did it, hated the cowardice of it, hated that this woman had crossed oceans of fear to find him and he could not even give her his eyes, but shame was a hand around his throat and grief was a second body in the bed with him, and he could not bear the tenderness coming toward him, could not bear the possibility that her love might soften because softness, in that moment, felt too close to mercy.

“Leave,” he said, though the word broke so badly it sounded nothing like an order.

The room went still.

Behind Jamila, Curtis made the fatal mistake of breathing like he might speak.

Without turning around, Jamila lifted one finger.

Curtis shut his mouth.

Even ruined, Jack noticed.

Even heartbroken, even half-sedated, even lying there with his whole future split open like earth after a quake, Jack saw his wife silence a grown man with one hand and thought, stupidly and helplessly, That’s my girl.

Then she stepped into the room and closed the door behind her.

Not softly.

Not gently.

With finality.

Like a queen sealing a chamber before judgment.

“Don’t do that,” she said.

Jack stared at the wall, jaw locked so hard pain flared along his face. “I said leave.”

“I heard what you said.”

“Then why are you still here?”

“Because you are on drugs, traumatized, and acting stupid, so I’m weighing your request accordingly.”

A laugh tried to climb out of him and died somewhere behind his ribs, turning into something uglier, something wet and furious and too close to a sob.

“Jamila.”

“No,” she said, and he heard her coming closer, heard the careful drag of the visitor’s chair, heard the rustle of her coat as she sat beside him but did not touch him yet, because even furious, even terrified, she loved him with enough intelligence to know that some wounds needed permission before hands could come near them. “No, you don’t get to use that voice on me, Jack Abbott, not after you made me threaten Curtis in front of half this damn floor.”

He closed his eyes, and despite everything, despite the pain gnawing through him, despite the shame coiled low and poisonous in his stomach, his mouth moved with the ghost of a smile.

“I told you that in confidence.”

“And I held it in confidence,” she replied, calm as a priestess tending temple fire, “until confidence became less important than access.”

“That’s blackmail.”

“That is marriage.”

This time the sound that escaped him was almost laughter, small and broken and painful, but laughter still, and Jamila heard it the way a farmer heard the first rain strike dry land, the way sailors heard gulls after months of nothing but sea, the way Persephone must have heard spring waiting beneath the frozen earth.

“There you are,” she murmured.

The tenderness in those three words undid him more than the teasing had, and he clenched his eyes tighter because he could feel himself slipping, feel the armor cracking, feel the terrible need in him rising like tide under a full moon, dragging him toward her when every frightened part of him wanted to stay stranded on the shore.

“Don’t,” he whispered.

“Don’t what?”

“Don’t look at me like that.”

Jamila was quiet for a moment, and then he felt her lean forward, not touching, only near enough that the space between them warmed with her presence.

“Like what?”

He swallowed, and the words tasted like blood and humiliation. “Like you feel sorry for me.”

The silence that followed was so complete he heard the monitor beside him, heard the soft mechanical proof that his heart was still doing its work despite the fact that he would have sworn it had fallen apart somewhere in the field with the rest of him.

Then Jamila laughed once, softly, but there was no humor in it.

“Oh, Jack,” she said, and the sorrow in her voice was not pity but grief sharpened by love. “You arrogant, hardheaded man.”

His eyes opened despite himself.

He turned just enough to see her.

She was sitting beside him with her coat still on, hands clasped tightly in her lap, knuckles pale from the effort of not reaching for him before he was ready, and her face was wet now, though her posture remained straight, regal, unbroken, as if Hera had learned to cry without surrendering the throne.

“I don’t feel sorry for you,” she said, each word quiet and deliberate, the way she spoke when she wanted him to hear her beneath his own noise. “I am sorry this happened to you, and I am sorry you are hurting, and I am sorry war took something from you that it had no right to touch, but I do not feel sorry for you like you are less than the man I married.”

His throat tightened so violently he almost could not breathe.

“You haven’t seen all of it.”

“I have seen you.”

“No,” he said, sharper now, because panic had teeth and it bit first. “You’ve seen the room, you’ve seen the monitors, you’ve seen enough to make a speech, but you have not seen all of it, Jamila.”

Her eyes did flicker then, briefly, toward the sheet.

Jack saw it and hated himself for watching.

He braced for the flinch.

It never came.

Her gaze returned to his face, steady as moonlight over dark fields.

“Then I will see it when you’re ready,” she said.

“And if I’m never ready?”

“Then I will still be your wife while you are not ready.”

He stared at her.

Something in his chest gave way, not fully, not enough to free him, but enough for the pressure to hurt differently.

“You say that now.”

Jamila’s eyebrows rose, and the room changed temperature.

“I’m sorry?”

He knew that tone.

Any other day, any other room, any other universe, he would have apologized immediately for invoking it, because Jamila’s I’m sorry? had ended arguments, corrected waiters, humbled insurance representatives, and once made his commanding officer reconsider a sentence he had technically been allowed to finish.

But he was hurt, and fear made him cruel in the way wounded animals became cruel, not because they wanted to bite the hand reaching for them but because they had forgotten any other way to stop the pain from being seen.

“You say that now,” he repeated, voice rough and low. “While it’s fresh, while everybody’s calling me brave, while you’re relieved I’m not dead, but months from now, when I’m angry and difficult and can’t do half the things I used to, when you’re tired of helping me, when you wake up and remember you married a man who came back in pieces—”

“Careful,” she said.

The word cracked through the room like lightning over open sea.

Jack stopped.

Jamila leaned forward, and now there was fire in her eyes, bright and old and righteous, the kind that had once sent goddesses into battle and turned mortal women into legends men were smart enough to fear.

“You can be angry,” she said. “You can be devastated, you can be terrified, you can grieve what you lost, you can curse God, the army, the doctors, the whole damn sky if you need to, and I will sit here and hear every ugly part of it because I love you, but you do not get to put words in my mouth so you can abandon yourself before you think I have the chance to do it.”

Jack looked away, but her voice followed him like tide around rock.

“You do not get to decide that my love is shallow just because your fear is loud.”

His eyes burned.

“And you do not get to call my husband a man who came back in pieces like the rest of him is not lying right in front of me breathing, stubborn, rude, and apparently still committed to hurting my feelings before breakfast.”

A broken sound left him then, half laugh and half sob, and he turned his face away harder, as if the wall could offer mercy she would not.

Jamila’s voice softened.

“There he is again.”

“Stop saying that,” he whispered.

“No.”

“Jamila.”

“No, because you keep disappearing on me right in front of my face, and I’m going to keep calling you back until you remember where you are.”

He shut his eyes, and in the darkness behind them he saw the blast again, saw earth and fire, saw the sky, saw hands, saw red, saw the impossible distance between the man he had been and the man he was terrified he had become.

“I don’t know where I am,” he admitted, so quietly it almost disappeared beneath the monitor.

Jamila’s breath caught.

For the first time since she entered the room, the queenly composure cracked clean through.

“Oh, baby,” she whispered.

And that was what did it.

Not the threats, not the jokes, not the fierce correction, not even the vow that she was still his wife, but that soft, old, intimate endearment slipping out of her like a hand reaching into the dark, the same voice she used when he came home exhausted, when fever made him restless, when grief sat too heavy on his shoulders, when he pretended he did not need care because needing care made him feel too human.

His face crumpled before he could stop it.

He turned toward her as much as his body allowed, the movement sending a white flash of pain through him, but he did not care, because suddenly she was standing, suddenly she was there, and when her hands came to him at last they came carefully, one to his cheek and one to the back of his head, gentle around every bruise, every wire, every place the doctors had marked and measured.

“I’m here,” she said, bending over him until her forehead touched his, until the scent of her skin cut through antiseptic and medicine and war, warm and familiar and impossibly alive. “I’m right here.”

Jack made a sound he would never be able to describe, something dragged from the bottom of him, from the place men buried terror and called it discipline, and Jamila held his face as his tears came with no dignity at all.

He hated it.

He needed it.

He had never needed anything more.

“I wanted you,” he confessed, the words breaking against her fingers. “I wanted you so bad, Mila.”

“I know.”

“But I couldn’t—” His breath hitched, and he gripped the sheet because he could not grip her too hard, would not make his pain a cage around her. “I couldn’t let you see me.”

“I know.”

“I thought you’d—”

“Don’t say leave,” she whispered, her own tears slipping now, falling onto the blanket between them like rain over scorched earth. “Do not give that word a shape in this room.”

He swallowed it down.

The silence held them.

Then, after a long moment, he breathed, “I thought you’d look at me and wish I hadn’t come back like this.”

Jamila went utterly still.

Not cold.

Not distant.

Still in the way the sea went still before a storm decided whether to spare the shore or swallow it.

When she spoke, her voice trembled with so much love it was almost unbearable.

“Jack, I thanked God you came back before I knew what came back with you.”

His eyes opened.

She was looking directly at him, tears on her cheeks, mouth firm, gaze unflinching, and in that moment she looked less like a woman made of flesh and more like something conjured from every faithful thing in creation, lighthouse and hearth flame, harvest moon and summer rain, Penelope at the loom and Aphrodite rising from the sea with the kind of beauty that made men foolish enough to believe the gods were kind.

“I thanked God when they told me you were alive,” she said. “I thanked God when I got on the plane, and I thanked God in the car, and I thanked God in that hallway while Curtis was fighting for his life and his marriage, because whatever war took, whatever it changed, whatever it left us to learn, it failed to take you from me.”

Jack stared at her.

His whole body shook once, hard enough to hurt.

Jamila kissed his forehead, then his temple, then the bridge of his nose, each kiss careful and reverent, each one landing like a star being placed back into a ruined sky.

“You are not inferior,” she whispered against his skin. “You are not less my husband. You are not less a man. You are not a burden I am politely accepting because I once made vows in a pretty dress. You are Jack Abbot, who took me ring shopping on the second date like a lunatic, who cannot season chicken unless supervised, who keeps putting things on the wrong side of the bathroom sink, who thinks I don’t notice when he stares at me, who loves like he’s trying to build a cathedral with his bare hands, and I am not leaving you in this bed, in this grief, or in your own head.”

A weak, shattered laugh escaped him. “I can season chicken.”

“No, you cannot.”

“Mila.”

“Not the point, but still true.”

He laughed again, and it hurt so much he winced, and Jamila immediately shifted, concern flashing over her face.

“Careful,” she murmured.

“You made me laugh.”

“You needed to.”

“I’m injured.”

“You’re also dramatic.”

His mouth trembled.

She saw that too.

She always saw.

“Come here,” she said, though he could not, not really, so she came to him instead, sitting on the edge of the bed where the nurses would probably fuss later, gathering as much of him as the wires and bandages allowed, and Jack leaned into her like a man collapsing against the only wall left standing after an earthquake.

Her hand found his hair.

Of course it did.

Even there, even then, before rosemary oil and gray curls and a sleeping child in the next room, her fingers slipped into his hair and began that slow, soothing motion against his scalp, the one that made his breathing change, the one that made something in him unclench no matter how stubbornly he resisted it.

He closed his eyes.

For the first time since the blast, the room did not feel like an underworld.

It felt like a threshold.

Not safe, not yet, not healed, not whole in the easy way people used the word when they wanted suffering to become inspirational quickly, but possible.

Jamila did that.

She did not erase the dark.

She stood in it with him until his eyes adjusted.

“I’m scared,” he said into her coat, the admission muffled and stripped bare.

Her fingers paused only for a second before continuing.

“I know.”

“I don’t know how to do this.”

“Then we’ll learn.”

“I might hate myself for a while.”

“Then I will love you loud enough for both of us until you remember how.”

He broke again then, quietly this time, not the first violent collapse but a softer grief, the kind that came when a man realized he did not have to perform bravery in order to be kept.

Jamila held him through it.

She held him as machines blinked and hummed, as footsteps moved outside, as the sky beyond the window darkened from blue to violet to the deep black of space, and somewhere above them, unseen behind hospital glass and city light, the stars burned on with their ancient indifference, not knowing that in one small room below, a man had thought himself abandoned by every version of the future and a woman had walked in with a threat on her tongue and devotion in her hands.

After a long while, when his breathing had steadied and exhaustion pulled at him like undertow, Jack opened his eyes and found her still watching him.

Not pitying.

Watching.

Guarding.

Loving.

“You really threatened Curtis?” he murmured.

Jamila’s mouth curved, and there she was again, his girl beneath the grief, sharp as ever, soft only where it mattered most.

“I gave him options.”

“You threatened his marriage.”

“I encouraged transparency.”

“You are terrifying.”

“I am your wife.”

His eyes filled again, though this time the tears did not feel quite as much like defeat.

“Yeah,” he whispered.

Her expression gentled.

“Yeah.”

He turned his face into her palm and kissed it, barely, because even that small movement cost him, but he needed the contact like a sailor needed the North Star, like earth needed rain, like the moon needed darkness to be seen.

“I love you,” he said.

Jamila’s thumb moved over his cheek, catching the tear there before it reached his jaw.

“I know.”

His mouth twitched. “You’re supposed to say it back.”

“I flew here, threatened a man with adultery exposure, bullied my way past hospital staff, and sat on this bed after you told me to leave, but yes, Jack, for clarity, I love you too.”

He laughed, hoarse and broken and alive.

Jamila smiled through her tears.

And now, twenty years later, with their son sleeping in the next room and the house wrapped in that particular blue-black quiet that only came after midnight, Jack stared at his wife with reverence, with all the love the world had ever managed to make and then some borrowed from the stars, his gray curls still damp from the oil she had worked into them with patient fingers, rosemary and cloves and some mysterious blend of herbs she had been mixing since the first year she knew him, because apparently Jamila Vermont-Abbot had decided at twenty years old that war, medicine, time, stress, and genetics could take many things from her husband, but they were not taking his hair if she had breath in her body and castor oil in her cabinet.

Twenty-three years of her hands in his hair, twenty-three years of her skin against his, twenty-three years of waking beside her and coming home to her and watching seasons pass across her face like sunlight over open water, and still Jack could not get enough of her, because how could he, when every year had only made her more impossible to survive, when age had not dulled her but deepened her, when she had become richer and warmer and more dangerous with time, like land after rain, like wine sealed in dark glass, like the moon growing full over a restless sea.

She sat between his legs on the edge of their bed, her own bonnet forgotten beside her, her hands glistening faintly from the oil she had just rubbed into his scalp, her house dress loose around her body and one shoulder slipping low enough to make him question every respectable thought he had ever pretended to possess. The lamp on her bedside table cast a honeyed glow over her brown skin, softening the line of her cheek, catching the small silver thread near her temple that she kept pretending was not there, and Jack, who had stitched arteries, delivered babies, survived war zones, and stood over more operating tables than he cared to count, found himself undone by the simple sight of his wife wiping oil from her fingers with a towel.

“Boy, you keep starin’ at me, I’mma have to call somebody.”

Her voice was low so she would not wake Miles, but the warning still carried enough heat and humor to make Jack’s mouth curve, because twenty years of marriage had taught him that Jamila’s threats were often love notes wearing church shoes and an attitude.

“Who you calling?” he asked, his voice rough with tiredness and something softer, something that had been following her around the room all night like tide following the moon.

“Somebody with authority.”

“I’m an attending physician.”

“You are a man sitting on my bed looking at me like you’ve lost your mind.”

“I lost it in 2003.”

Jamila paused with the towel in her hand, her brows rising as she gave him the look, the one that had humbled interns, contractors, bad customer service representatives, and Jack Abbot himself at least twice a week for over two decades.

“You think you’re cute.”

“No,” he said, leaning back on his hands, watching her as though she were still twenty years old beneath jewelry store lights, still laughing with one dimple showing while he quietly planned a lifetime around her ring size. “I think you’re cute.”

“Mmhm.”

“I think you’re beautiful too, but you get suspicious when I lead with that.”

“That’s because you only start talking like that when you want something.”

Jack’s smile turned slow.

“Jamila, I always want something from you.”

She tossed the towel at his chest, and he caught it with one hand, laughing under his breath as she tried to look offended and failed so badly that her mouth betrayed her at the corner.

“See, that right there,” she whispered, pointing at him. “That’s why I don’t let you oil your own scalp anymore, because you get too comfortable when I’m nice to you.”

“You never let me oil my own scalp because you said I don’t massage properly.”

“You don’t.”

“I follow instructions.”

“You follow medical instructions,” she said, standing to put the bottle back on the dresser, hips moving with the unhurried confidence of a woman who had long ago learned that her husband was weak and had made peace with using it against him. “Hair is different.”

Jack watched her cross the room, and the years collapsed inside him all at once, not disappearing, not being erased, but gathering into a single constellation of memory: Jamila at twenty with her face tilted toward a tray of rings, Jamila at twenty-five asleep beside his hospital textbooks with a laptop open on her knees, Jamila crying angry tears when he left for deployment and refusing to let him see her wipe them, Jamila learning the shape of his grief after he came home changed, Jamila helping him relearn parts of his own body with a tenderness that never once made him feel pitied, Jamila pregnant with Miles and cussing him out between contractions while he stood there half-doctor and half-terrified husband, Jamila holding their son for the first time with sweat on her brow and heaven in her eyes.

All of her lived in the woman before him now.

Every version.

Every year.

Every battle.

Every blessing.

“You know,” he said quietly, and something in his tone made her slow before she turned around, “I used to think loving you would get easier to explain the longer I did it.”

Jamila leaned back against the dresser, arms folding over her chest, her expression softening in spite of herself.

“And?”

“And I was wrong.”

The room seemed to shift around the confession, the shadows along the walls stretching like dark water, the moon beyond the curtains laying its silver hand over the floor as though Selene herself had paused her chariot to listen.

Jack sat forward, elbows on his knees, the lamplight catching in his full head of gray curls, the same curls she had saved with oils, patience, threats, and love, and he looked at her with such bare devotion that Jamila’s smile faded into something quieter.

“I understood it better when I was twenty-two,” he said, his voice low enough not to disturb the sleeping child down the hall, yet deep enough to settle into the room like thunder far over the sea. “Back then, it was simple because I didn’t know anything, so all I had was certainty, and that certainty was loud enough to make me brave, stupid enough to take you ring shopping on the second date, arrogant enough to swear to every god that would listen that you were going to be my wife.”

Jamila’s eyes warmed at that, because she remembered that boy, remembered the serious set of his jaw, remembered the ridiculous audacity of him opening her car door outside a jewelry store like the world had not lost its whole mind, remembered thinking he was insane and then, privately, dangerously, wondering why his insanity made her feel so seen.

“And now?” she asked.

Jack looked at her as if the answer cost him something beautiful.

“Now I know better, and somehow I’m worse.”

Her breath caught softly.

He stood then, slow because the day had been long and his body carried its histories in old scars and quiet aches, but there was still something deeply commanding about the way he moved toward her, not with the cockiness of a young man trying to impress but with the gravity of a husband who had crossed half a lifetime to stand in front of the same woman and still felt like he was approaching an altar.

“Now I know what loving you means,” he said, stopping close enough that she had to tilt her chin to keep his eyes. “It means your bonnet on my pillow, your lotion on my side of the sink, your cold feet under my leg, your laptop cords everywhere, your tea going cold because you start arguing with the news, your mouth fussing at me while your hands are fixing whatever hurts, your voice in my ear when I’m too deep in my own head, your face across from me at breakfast, your rings on the dish by the bed, your hair in the shower drain, your fingerprints all over every part of my life.”

Jamila stared up at him, her arms loosening, her defenses lowering one by one like sails folding after a storm.

“And I still don’t know how to explain it,” he continued, softer now, his hand lifting to brush the silver-threaded curl near her temple with the kind of tenderness that made her heart turn over. “Because it isn’t one thing anymore, honey, it’s everything, it’s the whole damn sky, it’s land and sea and weather, it’s the moon pulling at water it never has to touch to move, it’s Demeter grieving the earth barren and bringing spring back when her girl returns, it’s Odysseus refusing immortality because a goddess could offer him eternity and still not be home.”

Jamila swallowed, and because she was Jamila, because she could be moved down to the bone and still refuse to let him fully win, she whispered, “You been reading again?”

Jack smiled, but his eyes stayed serious.

“Only because you told me twenty years ago that a man with no books in his house was a red flag.”

“I said that?”

“You did.”

“Well, I was right.”

“You usually are.”

“Usually?”

His hand settled at her waist, warm and familiar, respectful until she leaned into it, which she did, because twenty years of marriage had not made her immune to him any more than living beside the sea made a person immune to the sound of waves.

“Always,” he corrected.

“That’s better.”

He bent his head, not quite kissing her yet, just hovering close enough that the space between them became charged, alive, full of all the things they had been saying to each other for two decades without needing words.

Jamila’s hand rose to his hair again, her fingers slipping into the oiled curls at the nape of his neck, and Jack’s eyes closed for a second as if she had put him under some old spell, as if Circe herself had brewed nothing half as potent as his wife touching his scalp in a bedroom that smelled faintly of rosemary, cocoa butter, sleep, and home.

“You keep touching my hair like that,” he murmured, “and you’re going to have to call somebody for real.”

Jamila’s smile came back, slow and wicked enough to make him twenty-two again in all the worst ways.

“Boy, please.”

“I’m serious.”

“You are always serious.”

“Not always.”

“With me you are.”

He opened his eyes, and the yearning in them was not young anymore, not frantic or untested or hungry without wisdom, but grown and rooted and impossibly tender, like an old olive tree gripping the side of a cliff above the Aegean, weathered by salt and sun and still green with life.

“With you,” he said, “I learned what serious was.”

That shut her up.

Only for a moment, but Jack loved the moment because he had earned it across years, across bills and surgeries and grief and parenthood and arguments about counters and laundry and who moved whose things, across nights when they did not like each other very much but loved each other too deeply to leave the room without reaching back.

Jamila reached for him then, both hands sliding from his hair to his face, her thumbs moving over his cheeks with the same care she had given him when they were young, when he came home exhausted, when pain made him short-tempered, when fatherhood scared him, when the hospital took too much and left him quiet in the doorway.

“You still look at me like that,” she said, and her voice had gone smaller, not weak, never weak, but honest in a way she rarely allowed herself to be without teasing around it. “After all this time.”

Jack turned his face and kissed the inside of her palm, lingering there as if the lines of her hand were scripture.

“I see you better now.”

Her eyes shone.

“Jack.”

“I do,” he said, because once the truth started in him there was no stopping it, not with her standing there soft and warm and beloved beneath his hands. “Back then, I saw the sun and thought that was all there was to worship, but now I know you’re the whole system, Jamila, you are morning and eclipse and harvest moon, you are coastline and deep water, you are the storm and the harbor after it, you are every season I have survived and every season I still want.”

She closed her eyes briefly, shaking her head like the words were too much and exactly enough.

“You cannot just say things like that to me at one in the morning.”

“I have to say them when Miles is asleep because he keeps interrupting me.”

At that, she laughed, pressing her forehead into his chest to muffle the sound, and Jack wrapped his arms around her immediately, holding her with that old instinct that had never left him, the one that said her body belonged safe against his not because he owned it but because he had spent half his life being trusted with the privilege of sheltering it.

They stood there in the quiet, swaying without music, though Jack had always thought their love made its own, something with low strings and brass and soft percussion, something composed of her laugh, his breathing, Miles turning over in the next room, the hum of the refrigerator, the distant hush of traffic, the moonlight on the floor.

“You need to sleep,” Jamila whispered against him.

“I know.”

“You worked all night.”

“I know.”

“You have clinic tomorrow afternoon.”

“I know.”

“And yet here you are, being dramatic in my face.”

Jack smiled into her hair.

“I missed you.”

“I was here.”

“That doesn’t mean I didn’t miss you.”

She pulled back enough to look at him, and the softness in her expression nearly undid him more thoroughly than any seduction could have.

“Come to bed then,” she said.

It was not grand.

It was not mythic.

It was not Shakespearean tragedy or Greek ruin or moon dragging oceans across the earth.

It was better.

It was Jamila turning down the lamp, Jamila tugging him toward the bed by two fingers hooked in his shirt, Jamila fussing at him to put a towel on the pillow because she had just oiled his scalp and she was not washing that pillowcase again, Jamila climbing beneath the covers with a sigh while he followed her as if he had been made for nothing else but finding his way back to her in the dark.

And when he settled beside her, when she tucked herself against him with the easy entitlement of a woman who had slept beside him for twenty years and still somehow fit like the final piece of creation sliding into place, Jack stared at the ceiling for a moment and felt the old vow rise in him again, not as desperate as it had been at twenty-two, not as feverish, not as startled by its own certainty, but deeper now, carved into him by time.

Jamila would be the love of his life.

She had been.

She was.

She would remain.

And when she pinched his side beneath the covers and muttered, “Stop thinking so loud,” Jack laughed quietly, kissed her forehead, and held her closer, grateful beyond language that the gods, the stars, the sea, or whatever ancient force had once pulled the sun and moon into eclipse had seen fit to leave him here, twenty years later, with rosemary oil in his hair, his son sleeping down the hall, and his whole universe breathing against his chest.

BEEP

BEEP

BEEP

“Motherfucker!”

You angrily hit the coffee maker that has been causing the entire emergency department trouble for the majority of today’s shift. Langdon had watched you struggle earlier this morning before swooping in to fix the problem with a swift hit to the side of the machine and an off hand comment about having the ‘magic touch’. So, you imitate his actions now — hoping another dose of caffeine will help get you through the last couple hours of your shift. The machine stops its incessant beeping just as it had hours ago, but instead of brewing a fresh cup of mediocre coffee, the interactive screen goes completely black. 

Great. 

You squeeze your eyes shut and take in a deep breath. If Jack were here, he’d miraculously show up beside you with a latte in hand. You don’t know how he does it, but the man just knows exactly what you need and when you need it — you’ve taken to calling it his ‘sixth sense’. In reality, that’s Jack — observant and steadfast. 

You miss the night shift.

It’s not that you dislike the day shift. In fact, you happily accepted Dana’s request for your help covering for Donnie during his paternity leave. In Robby’s words: they needed another nurse practitioner on the day shift and there’s only one that he trusts. A part of you thinks that it was just flattery to get you to come to the light side, but deep down you know that Robby only knows how to speak honestly. Lena wasn’t necessarily happy to let her best help switch shifts for an extended period of time, but she also knows that the ED is a team — sure the staff is split between day shift and night shift, but things only run smoothly when the shifts help each other out. 

Jack wasn’t too keen on the idea. 

He couldn’t stop you of course — Lena is your supervisor, not him. But that didn’t stop him from voicing his concerns. Jack Abbot has always been protective of his nightcrawlers, but there was something verging on possessive in the way he told Robby that this is simply a temporary arrangement after he realized he couldn’t change your mind. 

“Should I call Ahmad to escort the caffeine criminal off the premises or do you have a handle on the situation?”

Robby’s voice breaks through your thoughts. You let out a sigh before turning to face the day shift’s senior attending. His expression, usually threaded with deep exhaustion and stoicism, is teetering on the edge of playfulness while a small smile tugs at his lips. 

“Y’know what, Robinavitch? We never had this problem when we had the old machine. Mr. Coffee only had three buttons and never betrayed me.”

Robby lets out a breath through his nose — not quite a laugh, but the closest he’ll get to one this late into his shift. Gloria had decided to get the department a fancy new coffee maker that makes individual cups instead of a full pot a few weeks ago to celebrate improved patient satisfaction scores. What was meant to be a gesture of goodwill from upstairs has become the staff’s worst nightmare.

“You sound like Jack.”

You roll your eyes, but you also know no one has been more upset about this change than the night shift’s senior attending. Robby has always brought his own coffee from home, but Jack has been relying on the emergency department’s supply of shitty coffee for the entirety of his career at PTMC. You’d asked him about it once when you first started working together and he’d revealed under fluorescent lights that there was something comforting about the way it reminded him of the coffee rations he’d receive during his deployments. 

“Have you talked to Jack recently?”

Robby attempts to sound nonchalant; however, you know him better than that. You’ve come to terms with the fact that he’s worse than the night shift nurses. Always needing to be in the know about everything and everyone. He swears that it’s because he’s the senior attending, so it’s his responsibility to keep an eye and ear on all of his staff. But Jack isn’t like that. He’s always been reserved and professional during shifts, always keeping his staff at a distance so he doesn’t get too attached — everyone except for you. In between cups of coffee and rooftop conversations, you managed to slip through the cracks of that cool, steely exterior.

“We talk during handover, but that’s not exactly the same as working a twelve hour shift with someone. Why? Anything I should be concerned about?”

Robby’s lips pull into a tight smile at your response, but anxiety finds its place in your chest. During handoff about a week ago, Mateo had pulled you aside to ask if you had any idea what was going on with Jack. Your brow furrowed as Mateo filled you in about Jack’s sudden change in demeanor with his staff — the once calm and collected attending has been increasingly impatient and scattered. You’d reassured Mateo that it was probably just stress related since Jack hadn’t had a day off in months — and even then he spent his rare off-call moments volunteering as a SWAT medic. You figured that Jack had finally hit a wall and was running on fumes, but Robby’s words were now making you second your assumptions.

“Nothing of concern, just looking out for you and Jack.”

Robby has this tone that makes it seem like he knows more about your relationship with Jack Abbot than you do. You know about his history with the night shift’s senior attending physician, but Robby hasn’t been there for the close calls at three o’clock in the morning when Jack puts his complete trust in your hands without a second thought. He hasn’t been there for the nights that seem to drag on for days when it seems like the sun will never rise again. He hasn’t been there for the hushed conversations in stairwells when the night feels darkest and the only comfort to be found in PTMC is in each other’s presence. 

It’s not a bond built on flirtation — God knows, Jack Abbot flirts with everyone. And does that make you a little jealous? Maybe. And were you hoping that the distance created due to being on day shift for a few weeks would help you create some boundaries with the man? Possibly. But here you are, still infuriatingly infatuated with a man you have absolutely no chance with. 

“I can assure you there’s no Jack and I.”

“Mhm.”

That damn tone again. You want to smack that smug look right off of his stupid face, but before you get the chance to fire back a commotion outside abruptly ends your conversation. The two of you move in tandem, Robby holding the door to the break room open as you duck under his arm before surveying the scene. Your eyes immediately widen as you spot Langdon attempting to keep two infuriated men on their separate gurneys as they yell over each other. He meets your eyes before moving his gaze to Robby, relief flooding his features.

“A little help here?”

You and Robby share a brief, knowing look before dividing and conquering the situation. Robby steps in, wheeling one of the men away while you follow after Landgon who is moving with the other. 

“What’s the story here?”

You have to shout over the man’s incessant yelling, but Langdon ducks his head down slightly as he navigates the gurney through the ED to hear you better in the chaos. From not too far away, you hear Robby yell for Whitaker to take over his unruly patient so he can go find Ahmad for back up. Langdon’s shoulder bumping into yours pulls your attention back to your own situation.

“Bar argument gone ugly.”

The man laying on the gurney is bleeding profusely from lacerations on his forehead, but is cognescent enough to keep loudly threatening the other patient that came in with him. You manage to get a closer look at his wounds once Langdon locks the gurney in place and through the deep crimson you see little, semi-translucent pieces of debris. Your brow furrows as the light catches one of the pieces.

“Is that glass?”

Langdon nods before meeting your eyes with a crooked smile plastered on his face. 

“Beer bottle to the head. Told you it got ugly.”

You let out a breath before gloving up with Langdon. As the two of you attempt to assess his injuries the man begins to fight you both off, pushing your hands away before either of you can start getting control of the bleeding. You pull back hoping to get the man’s attention so that Langdon can start giving him the care he needs. 

“Sir, I’m gonna need you to calm down so that we can take a look at your injuries. Can you tell me your name?”

Finally, the man’s eyes land on you but they are filled with nothing but unbridled fury. You fight off the urge to take a step back from the situation and, instead, stand your ground. 

“What I need is to get my hands on that son of a bitch who tried to fucking kill me. Can you help me with that?”

You raise both of your hands as the man fights off Langdon once again. He gives you an exasperated look as his shoulders slump in annoyance. 

“I can not, this is a hospital not a fighting ring. What I can help you with is getting your bleeding under control and taking that glass out of your head before you get a nasty infection. How’s that sound?”

Your tone is stern but gentle as you attempt to talk the patient down. For a moment, his face softens in understanding and you almost let out a sigh of relief after having gotten through to him, but then Whitaker’s voice tears through the moment.

“I’ve got a runner, incoming!”

“Oh, shit.”

Langdon’s tone makes your heart rate spike, but before you get a chance to turn towards the commotion Whitaker’s very angry patient shoves you into the wall.

“We need some help in here! You good?”

Langdon’s worried eyes are locked on you as he tries to keep the two patients from tearing each other apart. Your shoulder took the brunt of the impact, but you had managed to stay on your feet which saved you from any additional trauma. After catching your breath, you leap in to help restrain the patient who just assaulted you.

“Sir, please. We need you to calm down!”

Your words fall on deaf ears as he continues to lunge at your patient who is now being held back by Langdon. What a fucking mess. You haven’t had a situation like this since last year’s Fourth of July night shift when two drunken men came into the E.D. after one of them practically eviscerated his buddy’s legs after shooting off a firework directly at him. Your eyes desperately meet Langdon’s, hoping he’s in the same boat as you, and he gives you a similar look of bewilderment.

“Whitaker! Ahmad! Anyone!”

Langdon’s voice is strained as the man in his arms struggles against his hold. You’re using all of your strength to pull Whitaker’s patient away from your own, but he’s got at least a foot and a hundred pounds on you. Keeping him restrained is taking all of your strength. Finally, Whitaker’s shoes squeak as he slides into the room.

“Woah, what can I do?”

Langdon gives him a ludicrous look before his eyes land on you.

“Give them a hand, will ya?”

Whitaker immediately jumps in to help you. You were hoping the additional body could help even the odds with these men; however, they seem to be getting more violent by the minute. The man in your grasp reels back and shoves Whitaker, who stumbles back. Now with only you holding him back, he takes this as a chance to take a swing on Langdon. 

“Absolutely not!”

You grab his arm and pull back before he can land a punch. The man lets out a desperate, angry cry and swings his arm back hard. His elbow connects with your nose with a loud crack. The room explodes further than you thought was possible as you spit out the blood draining into your mouth due to the blow. The searing hot pain blooming across your face blinds your vision. 

Fuck, that hurt. 

You blink once, then twice — your eyes finally adjusting to the damage. Your patient has seemingly settled down enough to be left alone, while Langdon has your assailant in a chokehold as Whitaker tries to pin his arms behind his back. 

“What the hell is going on in h—?”

Robby’s words die in his throat once his eyes land on you. His face twists into concern for a brief, fleeting moment before a dangerous rage washes over his hardened features.

“Knock it off before I knock you out.”

Robby’s voice is ice cold and it suddenly pauses the entire room. The only noise filling your ears is everyone’s heavy breathing. Robby lets everyone cool down for a moment before barking out orders.

“Ahmad, get this man out of here. Whitaker, take over the patient who didn’t attack one of our nurses. Langdon, with me.”

Everyone complies instantly and you let out a relieved sigh as the tension in the room finally dissipates. Robby makes his way to you in two large strides with Langdon behind him. He drops his head to meet your eyes which have regained their comforting warmth.

“How you doing, Slugger?”

“I’m fine. It’s nothing, really.”

Robby raises a brow as you spit more blood on to the floor, narrowly missing his sneaker. Langdon gives you a similar incredulous look. Obviously, your attempts to brush off their concern have fallen on deaf ears. Great. Two hours from shift change and now you’re a patient. 

This day can’t get any worse. 

Robby takes another step forward and carefully places a hand on your chin and gently tilts your head up toward the ceiling. You grimace immediately at the bright, fluorescent lights above you.

“You’ve got two black eyes, a broken nose, and you’re bleeding all over the floor. This isn’t nothing.”

His voice is surprisingly gentle and his features soften into a look you can only describe as brotherly concern. You sigh defeatedly, squeezing your eyes shut as the adrenaline in your body begins to subside giving way to an invasive and persistent shooting pain in your head. Robby’s hands find your shoulders — you aren’t sure if the physical contact is meant to provide you comfort or a precaution in case you pass out. Either way, you appreciate the way his delicate hold grounds you back into this moment.

“I’m going to have Langdon take you to an empty room and do a full exam. Okay?”

You open your eyes again and nod at his question. Robby’s posture relaxes slightly, obviously relieved that you didn’t stubbornly push back against his orders. He rubs your shoulders reassuringly for a moment before speaking again.

“We’re going to have to document all of this. Dana is dealing with a situation in chairs, but I’ll have her come find you when she’s done.”

You nod again, pursing your lips together into a straight line. You don’t love the idea of making a big deal out of this, but you also know that violence against health care professionals is at an all time high. The last thing this department needs is you trying to push this under the rug. Finally, Robby releases his hold on your shoulders and allows Langdon to step in.

Robby runs both his hands through his hair as he watches Langdon lead you towards a room at the back of the ED. He moves towards the hub in the center of the large room, gripping the countertop as he allows himself a moment to gather his thoughts. This is a nightmare. He needs to call Gloria about the situation that just happened. There’s  a stack of paperwork that needs to be filled out. Someone has to alert the authorities. And worst of all, he needs to call Abbot.

Hopefully, the asshole that assaulted you will be off the premises before the night shift attending rips through the emergency department. Not because he cares for the wellbeing of your assailant — more so that he doesn’t necessarily want to bail his best friend out of jail tonight. Robby sighs as he digs his phone out of his pocket. He finds Jack’s contact easily in his favorites and presses the speaker to his ear. To his surprise, the call immediately goes to voicemail. Robby knows that Jack has the day off; however, he’s always easy to reach — especially if you’re on shift. So, he dials the number again and presses the phone to his ear. But just like before, he is once again met with Jack’s voice apologizing for missing the call. That’s odd. His brow furrows, but before he can think about his friend’s odd behavior further he’s distracted by a concerned voice behind him. 

“I heard about what happened. Dana’s almost done in chairs. How can I help?”

Robby turns to look at Perlah who is currently trying to catch her breath from her obvious sprint over to him.

“Do you know who their emergency contact is?”

If he can’t get ahold of Jack, he might as well let your other loved ones know what happened. Perlah side steps the attending and logs in to one of the computers on the other side of the counter. It only takes a couple seconds to pull up your digital file and a smile spreads across the nurse’s features as she spots the name listed.

“Abbot.”

Of course he is.

“I can’t get a hold of him.”

Perlah’s expression reflects his own confusion for a moment until she remembers a conversation she had with you in the break room earlier this morning. 

“He’s gone fishing.”

Robby’s eyes shoot to his hairline as a laugh bubbles in his chest. He attempts to picture his friend in a boat by himself on the river with a fishing rod in his hand, but his mind cannot seem to compute that absolutely ludicrous concept.

“Abbot is fishing?”

“Apparently they convinced Abbot to actually take a day off, put his phone on do not disturb, and find a hobby that doesn’t involve getting shot at.”

Robby’s eyes drift to the room he watched Langdon escort you to as he attempts to wrap his head around the information he was just given. Jack Abbot is fishing on his rare day off because you asked him to find a hobby that doesn’t involve putting himself in harm’s way — and he listened. He wants to be impressed, but instead he’s just annoyed at the two of you — he’s fucking tired of watching the two of you dance around your feelings for one another. He looks down at his phone again, still confused at how his paranoid best friend could actually relax when he’s unreachable while you’re still on the clock.

Oh. 

The realization hits him like a slap to the face and he looks up at Perlah who is still anxiously waiting for the attending to start barking out orders. 

“Do you think you can manage to get their phone?”

Perlah frowns for a moment, confused by his question. And then her face lights up as she comes to the same realization as the attending standing in front of her. A smile pulls at her lips as she nods at Robby’s request.

“I think I can manage that.”

Jack Abbot enters the emergency department like a hurricane — his presence immediately disrupting the fragile peace they’ve managed to establish since your assault. Robby meets him at the door, stopping him before he can cause any unnecessary damage. 

“Where is she?”

Robby frowns. Abbot’s voice is lacking its usual warmth — in its place is a fiery, impatient intensity. 

“Let’s just cool down for a second. She’s alright — getting checked out by Langdon as we speak. Okay, Jack?”

Abbot’s brown eyes darken at Robby’s words. His posture stiffens and he’s suddenly aware that he’s no longer looking at his best friend. No, the man standing before him is a devoted soldier with one mission and God help anyone who gets in his way — he certainly isn’t dumb enough to stand between the two of you. 

“Exam room 11.”

Abbot brushes past Robby without another word and marches toward the back of the emergency department. He finally feels like he can breathe again as he enters the doorway and watches Langdon press an icepack to your nose. You flinch away from him and Frank lets out an exasperated sigh.

“You are a horrible patient.”

“Well, you’re a horrible nurse. You have to be gentle.”

Abbot leans against the doorframe, his body relaxing now that he’s heard the sound of your voice. A smile pulls at the corners of his lips at your defiance. Eventually, Langdon pulls the icepack away from your face and his blood runs cold as he gets a look at your injuries. It takes every ounce of what’s left of his self control to stay put, instead of forcing Robby to let him know who did this to you.

“I’ve got it from here, Langdon. You can get back to work.”

Both of your heads snap towards the attending standing in the doorway, but Jack’s eyes never leave yours. He watches as your expression shifts from confusion to relief before taking a few steps into the small exam room.

“Hey, Abbot. I’m actually almost done here. The rest of the exam will only take a minute.”

Jack finally regards the other man in the room, but his demeanor shifts to annoyance as Langdon continues to occupy your personal space — as he watches another man’s fingers glide gently over your cheek while he’s standing right there. The sight makes him sick to his stomach as a pervasive, ugly feeling claws at his chest.

“Langdon. Out. Now.”

Langdon’s movements suddenly still and the room immediately feels too small for the three of you. Luckily, the resident does what Jack says and exits the room without sparing you a second glance. Jack’s cold demeanor melts as soon as he hears the door close behind Langdon. 

“Hey, sweetheart.”

Jack’s voice fills the room and you finally feel safe. You let out a breath you didn’t realize you were holding as you hear his boots take careful, calculated footsteps move towards you. This is a dream — it must be. Jack’s fishing today, unreachable until after your shift ends. But then he’s standing in front of you, invading your personal space in a way that’s so undeniably him. You finally look up, meeting his piercing gaze and you swear his jaw ticks slightly as he takes in the full extent of your injuries. 

“It looks worse than it is.”

It’s a lie, but all you want is to smooth out the worried creases on his forehead. Jack tilts his head slightly at your words — considering them for a moment. His hands move slowly allowing you time to pull away, but you let him cradle your face with a tenderness that feels misplaced in this environment. His thumb gently brushes under your eye, where deep purple bruising has made its temporary home, and you flinch away from his touch before he even makes it to the worst of your injuries. Jack pulls his hands away from you and you involuntarily frown — a smirk plays at the corner of his lips as he watches the way you chase his touch. 

“Do me a favor?”

You nod at his question — not fully trusting your voice at this moment. Jack bows his head slightly, meeting you eye to eye. His gaze is a raging wildfire of emotions. It’s a stark contrast to his calm demeanor and steady hands.

“Don’t lie to me.”

You roll your eyes at this as he stands to his full height again. His hands find their way back to you again, settling on your knees as he begins assessing your injuries further. You lean in closer to him without even thinking about it — it’s like Jack Abbot is the sun and you’re simply a planet trapped in his orbit.  

“How are you here?”

Jack’s brows knit together at your question, like it’s the most ridiculous thing he’s ever heard. His thumb absentmindedly rubs gentle, grounding circles against your scrubs as his gaze trails over every visible wound on your face. 

“What do you mean?”

“You’re supposed to be fishing.”

His face scrunches at your words, but he doesn’t stop his careful assessment of your condition.

“I got a call.”

“Your phone was on do not disturb — you were unreachable.”

“To everyone other than you.”

Your breath catches in your chest at his words. He says it nonchalantly, but the significance of that statement lands harder than the elbow you took to the face. You’re the only person that Jack would let interrupt his day off. Hell, you’re the only reason he took a day off to begin with. 

“But how… Perlah.”

Jack’s head tilts as he watches you put the pieces together. Not too long after Langdon got you into the exam room, Perlah found the two of you. She helped Langdon with the exam for a few minutes before cursing that her phone had died before she made an important call. You had offered her your own, thinking nothing of the interaction. But now you understand exactly what transpired when Perlah left with your cell. 

“Yeah, scared me half to death when it wasn’t your voice on the other end.”

Your frown deepens at that. You can only imagine the fear that clawed its way back into Jack’s chest — can only imagine the unwanted memories it brought up. Your eyes glance down at his left hand, where a silver wedding band permanently resides. You remember the morning on the roof when Jack finally told you about his late wife after a particularly difficult shift. The two of you had lost a young woman whose vehicle had been struck by a drunk driver. You watched Jack go above and beyond for the woman in a way you’d never seen before. And you noticed the way his entire demeanor shifted once he had to call it after an hour of compressions. Jack slipped out of the ED the moment that the day shift showed up and you followed after once you completed handoff. You found Jack on the edge of the roof — not surprising on any other day, but a concerning visual after what you just witnessed that night. He knew you’d find him — you always do. And as you took your usual place, leaning your elbows against the railing right behind him, he finally opened up about the worst day he’s ever experienced. You listened as he told you about how his wife was in an accident. How she was dead on impact and EMS found her phone on the scene. How Jack was her only emergency contact. How he despises that the last time his wife called him he never even got to hear her voice. How he knows he’s your emergency contact. How his heart can’t go through that again. 

“I’m sorry, Jack. The last thing I wanted was for you to worry about me on your day off.”

Jack’s brow furrows at your words.

“Sweetheart, all I do when I’m not with you is worry.”

You both let that sentence linger in the room for a few moments. Jack continues to trace shapes into your shrubs as you attempt to calm your nerves as you realize how intimate this conversation feels. Finally, Jack breaks the silence.

“Can you just come back to the night shift so I can stop freaking out every time my phone rings throughout the day?”

You almost smile at that.

“Donnie comes back in two weeks.”

You mean for that to be comforting; however, this only makes Jack’s body stiffen in response. His head drops as he lets out a long sigh.

“Two weeks is too long.”

“You’re not my boss, Jack.”

Jack pulls his hands away and you watch as he runs them through his short, grey curls. He looks exhausted — and you suddenly feel guilty that his relaxing day off has turned into this. 

“You’re right, but sweetheart, I can’t do this without you anymore.”

A part of you wants to throttle him because of that nickname and how easily it falls off his lips — how it’ll only feel right when it’s his voice saying it to you. 

“Do what?”

Jack looks at you and his face twists into confusion as he realizes your question is genuine.

“Get through the fucking night.”

A beat passes. You desperately want to just say yes. It’s what you want isn’t it? Returning to the night shift — returning to him. But that’s also the problem. What is this? You thought your switch to day shift would give you some sort of explanation, but your time away has only made you more confused. Would it actually just be easier if the two of you only saw each other during handoff? No domestic moments between cups of coffee, no more mornings spent side-by-side on the rooftop, no more stolen, fleeting touches as he passes you on your way to the hub. You know what you are to Robby — to everyone on day shift. It’s simple. But with Jack — it’s never been simple and maybe that’s the problem.

“What if I want to stay on the day shift?”

Jack recoils like you just threw a punch at him. Guilt claws up your throat as you watch his face fall. It’s a lie — you know that it is. You love everything about the night shift, but you also don’t know how much longer you can keep playing this game with Jack before you simply fall apart. 

“Why would you want that?”

“Because at least I know where I stand with everyone here.”

Jack’s brow furrows — you hate that it’s cute. That everything about him draws you in.

“You don’t know where you stand with me?”

You shake your head and he scoffs — the sound is surprisingly cold. He looks at you, brow pinched into a scowl. And then he realizes that you’re serious. Your expression is nothing but unashamed honesty and his head cocks to the side at that. Do you really think he’s been stringing you along this entire time? That this has all been meaningless flirtation? That you mean nothing to him?

He takes a step forward, slotting himself between your knees. Your breath catches as he reaches up and gently cradles your face. His touch is different than before — all professionalism has been cast aside and is now replaced with his overwhelming adoration. Without thinking your fingers grab the hem of his black t-shirt. He smiles as he feels you nervously pick at a loose stitch before he ducks his head and his lips finally meet your own. Your grip on his t-shirt tightens as he moves his hands through your hair. Now this is a dream. The kiss is soft and restrained — you know he’s holding back due to your injuries. The last thing he wants to do is hurt you. Jack pulls away too soon for your liking, but he doesn’t move away. Instead, he places his forehead against yours. 

“Sweetheart, I’ve been yours since the minute you walked through the fucking door.”

You bite your lip as you attempt to hold back the giddy grin that begs to spread itself across your face. 

“You never said anything.”

Jack pulls away at that, not far — just enough to get a good look at you. The look on his face is incredulous — like it’s absurd you don’t know that his entire life revolves around you at this point.

“I thought I made myself abundantly clear.”

You laugh at that and Jack steals a kiss from your lips just because he can.

“I take it Robby gave you the rest of the day off?”

You nod, smiling as you feel Jack thread his fingers through yours.

“He told me to go home after Langdon finished my exam — who you should apologize to.”

Jack’s jaw clenches slightly as his brow furrows. 

“Him being here was unnecessary.”

You watch him for a moment, trying to understand what happened between the two men that never seemed to have any sort of animosity prior to today. And then your hand tightens around Jack’s as you realize what happened.

“You were jealous.”

Jack rolls his eyes.

“I have no reason to be jealous.”

You raise a brow at his statement. He’s not wrong — he has no reason to be jealous of Frank Langdon, but you know the resident somehow got under his skin. He may be able to maintain his facade of nonchalance to the rest of his staff, but you see right through him.

“What makes you so confident?”

"What time is it?" He mumbles. His throat tight and his voice raspy.

"Late. You went to lay down before work and you slept through your alarm. And my alarm for your alarm." You sigh, "I called Robby to let him know, and they are covering you. It feels like you have a fever. How do you feel?"

"Bad." He mutters, "I've never felt this bad since I lived in the barracks."

"Poor thing." You grab a little baby blanket and wipe his forehead of sweat. "It has to be the flu."

"I should have went with you to get the shot." He grumbles.

"Miracle! Can you get Daddy some water?" You ask.

"Yes, Mommy!" Miracle gets up from the dining room table and grabs a cup to fill.

"I'm going to put DeAngelo down. You've got your little princess at your beck an call until her bed time." You blow a kiss and head upstairs to put the baby to bed.

Miracle comes into the room with the glass of water. "Here you go, Daddy."

Jack sits up slowly and takes the cup, "Thank you, Sweetie."

"Do you need help getting upstairs?"

"No, Sweetie. I think I'm gonna stay down here until I get better so I don't get any of you sick." He clears his throat.

Miracle pouts at Jack then her eyes light up. She stands up and runs out of the living room. Jack hears her little feet scamper up the stairs. After a few moments, the footsteps return and Miracle is back with her doctor kit. She opens it up and brings out her phony thermometer. "Daddy say ah."

"Oh Sweetie, I shouldn't put that in my mouth." He puts his hand up.

"Use this one." You appear over the couch and hand her a real thermometer, "We can clean it later."

You come around the side of the catch near his head and turn on the thermometer for Miracle. "Open wide, Daddy." She holds out the device. Jack obeys opening his mouth and putting the small end under his tongue. He smiles up at you as you wait for the thermometer to beep. You smile back and look at Miracle as she puts her stethoscope on. You mouth 'play along.'

She places the plugs in her ears and and places the chest piece on his chest. It was the stethoscope that Robby had given her for her birthday. It worked to some capacity but not enough to really make any distinguishing observations. It was enough for her to think she could be a doctor. The thermometer beeps and you take it out and look.

"101.4" You sigh.

"So tell me, doc, will I be okay?" He asks.

"Yes sir, you heart sounds really good. But you don't. Nurse Mommy, please get the bubble gum medicine from the kitchen please."

"Right away, Dr. Miracle." You stand up and go to the kitchen.

While you're away, Miracle continues with her check up. She checks his eyes, and his ears. Then his reflexes with the little mallet. "Everything else looks really good sir. Nurse Mommy should be back with your medicine now."

"Here I am." You hold out a small cup with cough syrup in it. "We are 'out' of bubblegum."

He takes it and drinks the water from the table. You smile at his look of disgust and wipe his head of sweat again. "Didn't like the medicine, sir."

"Who does?" He sighs.

"Miracle—"

"Dr. Miracle." She corrects.

"Yes, sorry. Dr. Miracle I think what Daddy needs is some rest now."

"Okay, I can stay here and monitor him."

"Nurses do that. Not doctors. Doctors go to bed." You say.

"But Daddy's still sick." Miracle pouts.

"I know, and he doesn't need to get you sick too. Go upstairs, brush your teeth, and get in the bed. Say goodnight to Daddy." You instruct.

"Goodnight Daddy." She rests her head on his chest for a hug.

"Goodnight, Miracle." He rubs her back then watches as she scampers off.

"You know, she'll be waking up early tomorrow to bother you some more." You giggle.

"She's never bothering me." He coughs. You kiss his forehead and pull the blanket higher bundling him up.

"Then the doctor will be back in the morning to check on you. Goodnight." You refill his glass and leave the medicine on the coffee table, "And If I see you off that couch trying to do something you're not supposed, I'm gonna tote you around the ER for all your residents to see."

Miracle wanted to be a real princess. She needed to see a real princess to follow. She scans around the room trying to find the perfect princess to be. Santos was too arrogant, Javadi didn't want to be a princess, and Mohan was too tense.

She turns to the nurses; There was Princess but just because her name was Princess didn't mean she was a real one. Perlah was too silly. Emma was the perfect princess but she was too perfect. She was already studying to be queen.

Where or where will Miracle find a princess to learn from? Miracle pouts in defeat as she sees her options dwindle away. She spins in her chair until she feels a hand stop the spinning, "Hello, little one, do you belong to someone?" The chair spins to a beautiful woman with curly hair.

"My daddy is Dr. Abbot and Uncle Robby is watching me." Miracle stares at the woman in awe.

"I see. I'm Dr. Al-Hashimi and you are?" She smiles. It reminds Miracle of her mommy's smile which she missed very much.

"My name is Miracle." Miracle smiles in return.

"Hi, Miracle. I think I've heard about you. You're very smart, aren't you?"

"Uh huh. Everyone says so." Miracle beams.

Dr. Al-Hashimi nods, "I hope to see you in action." She then is called away by a student to go over a chart. Miracle's eyes are still locked on her as she walks away. The kind of princess she wanted to be. Miracle jumps off her chair and peers down the hall to follow Dr. Al-Hashimi.

As Miracle walks slowly behind her. She watches her posture and straightens her back. As Dr. Al-Hashimi walks, Miracle takes the same steps as her. Whenever she stops, Miracle does the same. "You've got a little shadow." Dana whispers to her.

Dr. Al looks over her shoulder at Miracle and smiles. Miracle is doing the same stance as she is. The two women laugh a little before Dr. Al beckons the little girl over. Miracle walks over to her. "How can I help you, Miracle?"

"Nothing…" Miracle asks as she twiddles with her fingers.

"Okay, stay out of trouble, Little One." Al-Hashimi smiles at her. Miracle nods and scurries back to the hub.

Later in the day, while Dr. Al-Hashimi is doing a debrief, Miracle copies her with her stuffed animal sitting in front of her. The students giggle when they notice her playing. Because of the distraction Dr. Al-Hashimi turns to see Miracle staring back at her. Miracle shrinks in her seat and grabs her plush.

When Miracle is away with Dana to get dinner, Al-Hashimi approaches Robby as he works on the computer finishing some last minute paper work before shift's end. "You're little friend, Miracle. She's interesting."

"Isn't she?" He smiles, "She's missing her parents a lot right now. Her mom especially. She likes you."

"I see that. She's been copying me." She smiles back.

"You remind her of her mom." He chuckles, "And you're new?"

"She thinks you're pretty," Dana comes through the desk, Miracle stands behind her shyly, "like a princess. She thinks you are one."

"How sweet. Thank you, Miracle." Al-Hashimi looks at her endearingly, "But I am no princess."

"You're not?" Miracle pouts.

"No, but you are." She takes Miracle's hands and kneels down to her eye-level, "You are sweet, kind, and very pretty. Everyone here tells me how much they adore you."

"I don't feel like I am." Miracle says.

"It's easy to feel that way." She pinches her cheeks, "Especially because you haven't heard someone call you that in some time right?"

"Mhm. My daddy."

"My dad called me that too. I miss him every day." She gives the little girl an assuring smile. Miracle hugs her gently sending a warmth to spread through Al-Hashimi's chest. She squeezes back.

"Alright Panda, ready to go home?" Robby holds her backpack. She nods and grabs her bag, slipping the straps on her shoulders. "Mommy and Daddy are coming home tonight. Are you excited?"

"Yes!" She takes his hand.

"Bye, Miracle." Al-Hashimi waves.

"Bye Princess Al-Hashimi!" Miracle waves back as she hops out of the ED holding Robby's hand.

"You? You want to go to the zoo and spend the day with a 4 year old?" Abbot chuckles.

"I do. I want to know who's been making you happy all this time."

Later in the night, you sit in bed with Jack. Miracle finally closed her eyes after talking about all the things she was planning to do at the zoo. "Are you excited for tomorrow? You'll be spending an entire day with Miracle by yourself."

"And Robby."

"And Robby?" You cock an eyebrow, "He didn't peg me as the zoo type. Or the type to enjoy the company of a 4 year old."

"He's a little upset that I've been skipping out on our plans to spend time with you."

"Oh I didn't know that. You should just spend the day with him instead. Miracle and I can go to the zoo."

"No, no he's just being whiny and needing something to complain about. He wants to come. We can meet after the zoo and you two can properly meet and we can all go to dinner."

"Wow, a proper meet. Not an awkward wave in the hall or a polite smile outside the ED." You laugh, "Miracle thinks he has a mean face, you know."

"I know. So this will be new for everyone but I have confidence that it will be a fun day." He pulls you into his arms under the covers.

"Does he know what he's getting into with her?" You giggle as you lay against his chest.

"I think it's for the best to leave it a surprise." He kisses your forehead.

-

It was a cool day with an autumn breeze. Jack drives as Robby sits in the front seat. Miracle was in her car seat, buzzing with excitement. "I can't wait to see all the animals."

"Which one is your favorite?" Jack asks.

"I like the red pandas!" She points to her hair, "That's why Mommy made my hair like their ears."

"They're my favorite too." He smiles. "Your mommy did a good job. You look so pretty today." He looks up to see Robby staring back in disbelief. "What?"

"Nothing, just, I didn't know you were so good with kids."

"I've always been good with kids." Jack scoffs.

"Yeah the rare cases that a kid shows up at 2 o'clock in the morning." Robby snorts.

Once they arrive to the zoo, Jack carries Miracle through the parking lot to the entrance. Miracle stares at Robby intensely the entire time. "What's up, kid?" He finally asks.

"You look tired." She states.

"That's what happens when you get old." Jack jokes.

"Then he must be really old."

Jack laughs as they walk to the gate and scan Jack and Miracle's pass. You had gone to the zoo with Jack and told him he might as well get one a pass. With how often Miracle liked to go it basically paid for itself.

"Do we have to bring this stupid wagon if you're just going to hold her." Robby sneers as he tugs a small wagon behind him.

"She might get tired later. I only carry her through the front where it's busy."

"He's kinda a meanie." Miracle whispers to Jack. Robby frowns, offended.

"He's not really. He's just mad we aren't doing what he wants. He's a little spoiled."

"Who's side are you on?"

"Miracle's obviously. You are a grown man."

As they continue through the crowd. Miracle turns to face Robby and sticks her tongue at him. He makes a similar face.

Once free from the crowd, Jack sets Miracle down. She takes his hand instantly, "Where to first, Sweetie?"

"First we get our Icee. Then the tigers!" Miracle jumps up an down.

"Are you sure she needs that sugar this early in the day."

"It's a tradition she does with her mom. They do it every time they're here. She'll burn all the energy within the first hour." Jack waves him away, "Alright, you want red or blue?"

"Mm, I want blue this time. You get red." She smiles up at him.

"Okay, why do don't you go stay with Robby while I get it. It's a little crowded and I won't have the hand to hold yours."

She nods and follows Robby to a nearby bench. She sits beside him and speaks, "Do you like my mommy?"

"Uh, it's too soon to tell, kid. I don't know her too well."

"You make mean faces at her and me."

"I'm sorry. They're not meant to be mean. I just worry about my friend. Jack is my best friend and I don't want to see him hurt."

"My mommy doesn't hurt people. She helps them. She's a nurse." Miracle says, "She loves him. And you don't hurt the people you love."

"You are right." He smiles, "You are a very smart girl, Miracle."

"Thank you. Jack says so too." She smiles in return.

Jack returns with two Icees, "Hey, you two are smiling. Ready to go?"

"Yes!" She jumps up and takes her cup from Jack and grabs his hand.

"Hang on, where's mine?" Robby frowns.

"I figured we could share." Jack holds the cup to him and sure enough inside are two straws.

They walk around the exhibits together. Miracle runs around excitedly. She interacts with all the displays. Follows the footprints on the path, flips the the flip books that are screwed on the wall. She listens to the ambiance playing as they walk and she squawks to the birds.

For the first time, outside of the hospital, Robby was experiencing life through the lens of a young child. Every so often she stops and turns to Jack. She touches him. His leg or his hand, and looks at him to talk about the animal facts. She'd ask for help on the big words and never stayed on his hip too long.

With Robby, she was gentle. If he was lagging behind too far, she would have them stop and she'd take his hand. She'd include him on her conversations as if he didn't know anything. She was kind to him even though she called him a meanie just a couple hours earlier.

They head to the aquarium where it was a little quieter. As Miracle watches the fish in the tank, Robby takes the opportunity to speak to Jack, "She's bright."

"Bright, cunning, sweet, and attentive. She wants to be a doctor when she grows up," Jack chuckles, "Her mom wasn't too happy as before that she want to be a nurse."

"You leave quite the impression." Robby smiles. "Sorry about before. How skeptical I was."

"It's okay, I understand. I've been avoiding the conversation we would be forced to have sooner or later."

"Jack!" Miracle comes bounding over.

"We don't have to have it now." Robby pats Jack on the shoulder.

They leave the aquarium and heads to the kids' jungle gym. "Stay where I can see you, be kind, and…"

"Keep my hands to myself." She completes the sentence.

Robby cocks an eyebrow, Jack sits back on the bench and sighs, "We had a situation last time."

After a moment, a woman with a stroller sits beside them, "Hello, hope you don't mind."

"Not at all. Free country." Jack nods his head.

"Which one is yours?" She asks

"The one with the bows in her hair." Jack points at Miracle going down the slide.

"How cute. Mine are the two boys pretending to be monkeys." She points to the boys jumping around the playground. "How old is she?"

"4 years old."

"Oh, have you looked at school yet? What a rollercoaster that was."

"I'm sure it is." Jack notices Miracle stuck going across the monkey bars, "'Scuse me— Hang on, Miracle!" He gets up from the bench and rushes to help her across.

The woman looks to Robby, "So how was she brought into your lives."

"Pardon." He furrows his brows in confusion.

"Was it adoption? Surrogacy?" She smiles as she watches Jack and her play together, "My guess was surrogacy. She looks a lot like your husband, it must have been his sperm."

"Oh! No ma'am." Robby bursts out laughing, "We're not a couple."

"Really? I've bumped into you two a few times. You are awfully close."

He laughs harder, "No, no. We are just good friends. That is his partner's daughter. Not mine."

"I am so sorry I assumed. The two of you drinking out of the same cup and the beautiful moment in the aquarium. I'm so flustered. I need to go, pardon me." She abruptly leaves.

"He's going to get a kick out of that." Robby wipes a tear from his eye.

Jack returns with Miracle and sits her on his lap, "What'd you do? You scared that lady away."

"She thought we were a couple and Miracle was our lovechild." He starts back up again, throwing his head back as he cackled.

"And you think that's hilarious." Jack rolls his eyes, "As long as she thought I was the one that did the donation."

"She did!" He wipes more tears.

-

The three have a late lunch at the center of the zoo. Robby still cracks himself up over the woman. He tries to grab Jack's hand and hold his waist. "Will you knock it off before I kick you ass?" Jack seethes.

"Okay honey, please don't put me in the doghouse tonight." Robby pouts.

As they wait in line to order, Robby notices Miracle growing weary on her feet. "Miracle, are you tired?" He asks.

She simply nods in return.

Jack turns to her, "Here—"

"May I?" Robby holds out his arms, "I'm taller than Jack so you'll see way more." Miracle grins at the enticing offer. She enters Robby;s hands and he picks her up and places her on his hip. "See? Look you can see the red panda's from here." Miracle giggles as she looks around.

When their food is ordered and served, they have a seat a table to eat. "Was it a good day today, Miracle?" Jack asks.

She nods as stuffs her mouth with french fries.

"Hear, hear." Robby concurs.

They continue to eat when Miracle shouts, "Mommy!"

Jack's head shoots up from his food and he scans the crowd, "Your mommy isn't here, Miracle."

"Yes she is I just saw her!" She points, "Right there!"

There you are, among the crowd. You hear Miracle shouting and wave with a smile on your face. You head to the table still grinning. "Gosh, she's pretty out of her scrubs." Robby mutters as he watches you approach.

"Watch it." Jack warns.

Once you arrive at the table you kiss the top of Miracle's head and kiss Jack on the lips. "Hello, hello." You turn to Robby, "Hello, Dr. Robby. Nice to finally meet outside of the dire circumstances that we usually do."

"Right back at you. Nice to not be in dingy scrubs"

You lean down and hug him with a friendly kiss on the cheek. "I hear that. It was only a matter time we would meet like this." You sit beside Robby and across from Miracle.

"What are you doing here?" Jack asks, "You're off the hook the whole day."

"I know. I got bored. It was nice in the beginning. I got my nails and toes done. Went shopping for myself. But then I started thinking about all the fun you guys were having without me." You smile then point to the wagon, "Miracle's backpack has an airtag in it."

"We had lots of fun." Miracle smiles.

"Good. What about you two? Still wish you were at the courts instead, Robby."

"I wouldn't trade this day for the world. Right, honey?" Robby reaches across the table trying to grab Jack's hand.

Jack quickly pushes Robby's hand off the table. "Get away from me."

"Uh oh, trouble in paradise?" You giggle.

"A woman thought we were a couple." Robby sounds like he's starting up again. Jack rolls his eyes. "And your daughter was ours."

"I can see the resemblance." You between the three. "You two make a lovely couple."

"Not you too." Jack groans.

"I'm just teasing," You laugh, "Miracle, do you want to walk around the gift shop before we go home?" She nods. "Alright, I'll give you two some privacy." You flash a wink and take Miracle over to the gift shop. The two men watch as you go.

"She's lovely." Robby speaks, "Funny… and young."

"I knew you'd bring that up." Jack sighs

"Nothing is wrong with that. I'm stating the obvious here. Like how happy she make you; that's obvious too. You lit up when you saw her in the crowd as she came to the table. I've never seen you smile like that before. It's clear to me that you two are great together. You love her, she loves you, and you love her daughter. When you first told me, I thought; no way is this going to last, she's a nurse and she's young. But here you are proving me wrong. You are devoted to this little family and I am proud of you."

"Thank you, Robby." Jack smiles, "Means a lot."

"I'm in your corner brother. So, by proxy, I'm also in their corner." They look over to the gift shop kiosk to see you and Miracle trying on different silly sunglasses.

When you return, you purse your lips and bite back a smile, "Do you want to give him your gift now?" Miracle giggles and nods rapidly, "She picked out something for you, Robby. To remind you of the day." Miracle hands holds out the gift bag to him.

Robby sits up and takes the bag, "You didn't have to do that, kid." He pulls out a red panda plush animal.

"Because I looked like one today. You'll have me in your house every day!" She smiles.

Robby looks at her adoringly, "Thanks, Miracle." He opens his arms and gives her a gently hug.

-

After lunch, Miracle was tuckered out and lays asleep in her wagon as you all walk out into the zoo parking lot. "I'm glad you guys had a nice time today."

"Yes, your daughter is great company. Dare I say better than you boyfriend?"

"You've been trying to get a rise out of me all day." Jack warns.

"You'd think he could take a joke by now." Robby chuckles, "I'd be more than happy to come along again on a family trip, wherever that may be. Even if it was just dinner at Jack's."

"I'm sure there will be that in the future." You nod, "Hopefully, we'll have a proper sit down with maybe some beers."

"The way to my heart." Robby feigns swooning.

-

You arrive to your car first and take Miracle out of the wagon, "You guys go ahead and enjoy the evening. I think walking around the zoo is enough torture." You put Miracle in her car seat and turn to Jack, "I'll see you later."

"I'll see you tonight." He holds your waist and kisses you, "I missed you today."

You bite back a smile, "I missed you too. I have to repay you for the mani-pedi."

"Alright, see you later." He mutters as he moves in for another kiss.

Robby clears his throat causing you two to finally break away. "Bye Robby, I'll see you around." You get in the driver's seat and start the car. He waves as you drive off.

As they walk back to Jack's car Robby chuckles, "You've got the biggest shit-eating grin I've ever seen."

"Shut up. There's still daylight, do you want to shoot or not?" Jack rolls his eyes.

"Oh yeah! I'm going to kick your ass and have you crawling home to your honey with your tail between your legs." Robby slaps his shoulder.

"At least I have a honey." Jack jabs back.

"Oof, low blow brother. Now, you're asking for it." They get into the car and go to play some basketball as promised. After an already long day, they don't last long, consequently quitting within the hour of playing and going home to lay down.

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