yall ever dissociate to the point that people say shit to you and you can hear them but you just dont process the words so just nod and smile and hope they arent saying anything overly important

There’s absolutely nothing romantic about psych ward au’s with doctor/patient relationships. Across the nine different psychiatry hospital wards surveyed in Victoria, 85% of female inpatients felt unsafe during hospitalization, 67% reported experiencing sexual or other forms of harassment and 45% of respondents had experienced sexual assault during an in-patient admission. When you’re hospitalized in a psych ward, the personnel around you have immense power over you in every area of your life and if they choose to abuse said power, the chance that they are going to be held accountable are very low. An abusive doctor can easily claim that everything you say is invalid due to the mental instability that got you hospitalized in the first place - that you’re just confused, that you’re lying, that you misunderstood what happened. The odds that anyone will believe you and stick up for you when it’s your word against a doctors are very, very low. Sexual abuse in psych wards is a rampant problem that continually hurts an extremely vulnerable population. Do not romanticize it. 

nothing is more heartbreaking than when you try your hardest and it still isnt enough

same.

sometimes i’m like…doing really well, and then suddenly my brain is like “if nobody gives you attention you will literally die” and that’s always fun… 

If you’re a shitty person who can’t control their emotions clap your hands 👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏👏

u know what would be really neat? if i knew how to correctly communicate and form bonds with other people