Barely Here

Having an emotional breakdown while being suicidal while being around people I think I should die

To see me is to hate what you don't understand. Because that's what's burned into my skin. When no one understands they live in fear. So I'm just another monster to hunt in the night. Cut me apart with your swords and daggers. It's what I deserve. Hate me then. For there isn't anything to redeem from my peeling rotten skin. Stab me through the heart. Rip it out and see my molding guts spill out of my carcass. You'll see I was never more than one of you all along. And I'll bleed out knowing I died to make you understand my pain.

Scarlet burns in the eyes of a dead man. It radiates the heat that once filled him with passion. Now it's a remainder of his soul still burning bright. Filled with the pain of everything he had. Left behind for something brighter than the memory of his face.

If I could change the world for a second I'd make it soft. Not because it's crooked and jagged. But because when it's edges brush against my skin it reminds me how soft my flesh is. So I'd make the world soft. Because when I matched the world I tore up everything I laid my god forsaken fingers on.

A song isn't real to me until I belt the lyrics in a car and then get way too emotional about it

Need to hold her in my arms while swaying gently asap

Did you guys know I have a beautiful loving girlfriend?