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Already, although they were both children, Lucille was the oldest. Certainly, only two years, but that still left him with a role deemed full of responsibility towards Thomas, who was younger. This is her basic role as a big sister. A role that was exacerbated with the upbringing of their parent who abused them respectively, with Lucille taking the beatings as many times as possible in Thomas' place. She had actively become his protector against all danger, behind which Thomas hid. Then, Lucille took on the equivalent of the role of mother by doing all the domestic chores, including killing the animals herself before cooking them.

All this to say that Lucille may have been a child, but she was not in the state of mind or situation of a child. She was in a situation full of responsibility. So, obviously she had more power than Thomas mentally, whom she tried to absolutely preserve.

It's not for nothing that Thomas' ghost is white, in addition to symbolizing the fact that he is at peace, it is also a color made to remind us that Thomas was deep down a pure being.

Thomas was naturally in a submissive and protected role during their childhood, the fact that he was the youngest reinforcing the aspect that he had to be taken care of. He was not at all in the same mental state as Lucille, whom he must have seen as his ultimate protector, the only one who truly loved him and brought him happiness /positive things.

So, obviously their sexual relations, initiated by Lucille during their childhood, were not fully consented to with full knowledge of the facts by Thomas. He must surely see this as a way to repay her for everything she did for him. That she deserved to get what she wanted from him.

It even seems to me that in the book, Thomas refers to their sexuals relationships as rituals to stay sane...

All this to say that I'm tired of hearing the bullshit that Thomas is equal to Lucille and was fully aware and consenting to what he was doing by getting into this incestuous relationship with her. It's very tiring. And it's frankly worrying to see people so refusing that a man can be the victim of a woman.

I repeat, but if the sexes had been reversed, no one would be trying to minimize Thomas' situation.

let's get into it gang. i like them most when its a mostly unrequited reg pining after sirius thing. it's sirius yk. obviously reg has a crush on him, and obvs its an incredibly complicated messy crush where he wants to be him and to be protected by him and to kill him and to just have him near always, and obvs at the end of the day he achieves exactly none of those things lol. it also importantly ties in to the whole heir and spare and reg having to step into sirius' role thing.

jen and i have talked a little about this before (obviously) and i think we decided that sirius would maybe do things like teaching reg how to kiss and give head or to wank etc etc but it would mean a lot less to him than it would to reg. like reg thinks its a Thing, that sirius actually wants him and is in love with him bc of some of the things they've done growing up but for sirius it's just like. it doesn't mean that at all. like it's just brotherly lmao. or like. he doesn't quite understand where to draw that line in a brotherly relationship growing up but for him it's never been more than just like. trying to help reg and make him happy and maybe things getting all tangled up during those long summers at grimmauld together. i think they'd both grow up not really knowing what the issue w incest might be, like their parents are fucking cousins, they're no strangers to incest, but w sirius he grows out of it kinda and learns how fucked up it is and gets an array of normal, much healthier relationships.

reg on the other hand never really gets that. and it all gets twisted up in resentment and hatred and yearning and the like. esp if we consider this in conjunction to barty. which jen and i have discussed frequently and which drives me fucking insane. so. take barty, devotional man of all time, he's giving himself up in his entirety to reg, he just wants to give reg everything he wants and he knows that reg misses his brother more than anything. barty doesn't entirely understand familial relationships after his fucked up ones and he defo doesn't understand siblings at all and he's fucking reg and trying to give him what he wants and he's offering 'you can pretend that i'm sirius if you want' !!!!!!! <- makes me insane!!!!!!!!!!

now, we were discussing this before we had the blackcest chats so initially for us reg was like. horrified by this suggestion, completely appalled, and even now perhaps he'd still be appalled, bc really how could barty presume to fill sirius' shoes or try to insert himself into the relationship between the black brothers, even if sirius is entirely absent at that point and they almost certainly never had actual sex like that. there'd also be a whole That was Private thing, and reg wouldn't want anyone really to be a part of it. but maybe there's also a sense of desperate desperate longing and maybe if barty asked enough he would give in and shut his eyes and imagine it, in a kind of horrible self-hating miserable agony thing.

we also spoke about a horrible barty/sirius one night stand where they're both super duper drunk and maybe barty offers the same thing to sirius, bc he thinks that's just how brothers work (oh btw this is in the context of the rosier twins and like pre-bartyrosiers asw) and sirius just brushes it off as a fucked-up joke and doesn't even really think twice about it, like he would never even think about actually fucking reg. for him it was more of just a messy naive clumsy product of his upbringing that he's very ashamed about for years afterwards and actively tries to never think about again.

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