it's what she deserves

Im so fucking frustrated right now and I don't feel I have a right to be. I feel so shitty and the situation just fucking sucks. I'm so mad at her, it feels so out of the blue and mean. Its not personal and I need to work on my jealousy but why now!! i can't tell if this is advanced mean girl shit or if im immature and need to suck it up or if this is a really big oops, or a combo. Idk what to do about it but I know my feelings are big hurt. I feel justified in being upset, I just don't know how upset. He's sick of hearing about it, I have no one else to talk to, I feel betrayed and alone and very very sad. And dumb, but that loops back to sad

I wish I could learn to just shut the fuck up. I have nothing important to say. My words only cause inadvertent harm to my loved ones. I'm a stupid miserable cunt that deserves nothing. Stfu!!!!