This website is the most civilized place on the internet. It didn’t used to be but nowadays you can’t write anything anywhere without receiving the dumbest most meanspirited comments ever.

Man I really want to play a video game or watch a show and be like fully obsessed. Last year I played ghost of Tsushima and Cyberpunk 2077 and then after Cyberpunk I couldn’t play anything else or watch anything else because nothing came even close. The only thing I’ve enjoyed since then was Disco Elysium which I played in February and since then nothing has gripped me again. I’ve tried to like The Witcher III and maybe the start is just super slow but I’m not getting into it and Geralt is super annoying and so is every other character so far. How they managed to not make a single likable character when the same studio created nothing but likable characters in Cyberpunk is beyond me. I also have yet to finish AC Shadows and ofc RDR II and even Dishonored which I started so long ago that I have to restart probably. Nothing really catches my attention :( I’m seriously considering just restarting cyberpunk…

I love the city but I wish it could have slightly less people immediately in front of my front door because you see, I leave the house and immediately someone bumps into me and I have to swim through a swarm of people to even start going on a run

The worst character in Cyberpunk 2077 is Panam by faaaaaar. The bitchy impulsive toxic hothead is such an annoying character to me. I hate characters who do nothing but cause problems but then don’t reflect at all and expect everyone to move mountains to help them. I have no idea why everyone is obsessed with her. When I played the game I thought it was odd that she was the only woman in the game who seemed to have been written explicitly for a male audience (men looooove women like this in media… the main woman in every action film is exactly like this). But now that I’ve started the Witcher III, it’s no longer odd. CDPR simply thinks this is what women are like and all the well written women in CP77 were actually outliers. Granted with the Witcher it’s probably because the novels simply suck ass. But damn, the writing is horrific. Those characters…. The entire story reminds me of a high school drama. I haaaaaaate stories where everyone is toxic and childish and irresponsible and doesn’t communicate and then the plot only happens because of that. I also hate romance centered stories because it’s like…. Literally just grow up, there’s a war and you’re depressed because some woman insulted you? Are you for real? Every dialogue is about how Geralt wants to sleep with Yennefer. Like… is there even an actual plot….

There’s no game that comes close to DE or CP77 but I want to play something :( I keep looking at games in search of that vibe but ofc nothing has it

Cyberpunk 2077 is probably my favorite game of all time but Disco Elysium has affected me in a different way and is therefore also my favorite game of all time but differently

My Disco Elysium fanfic is getting positive reactions on Ao3 which makes me very happy <3 it was so much fun to write that and I’m proud of it also. If I don’t achieve anything else this year I’ll at least have achieved writing and finishing (!) an almost 14k word story in English

Damn running requires like crazy amounts of stretches and strength training ON TOP of the strength training I already do. Luckily I can write down some of these exercises and do them during my lunch break etc because I really cannot spend hours trying to keep my body stable enough to run 10km like bro grow up

Also I have no idea how I’ve been able to stick with a running plan for two months now. I used to hate running. I am incapable of building routines. But I think paying for runna really helped because it gives me something to do and it gives me a structure… I am not kidding I’m enjoying it so much that I sometimes want to cry after a run because it felt so good

When I got bangs no one warned me that they don’t go two days looking the same ever

Every time I read something that’s celebrated by the reviews but unfortunately written by a man they say oh it deals with the big questions of humanity but then these questions are spelled out as actual questions in the text and always like ‚human evil is like a fart…. You either keep it in and it hurts your stomach or you let it out and poison the world around you… is this an inescapable fact of our miserable existence? He looked over to Titty McBoobs who smiled at him knowingly and boobily.‘ no fiction written by a woman ever asks questions this way. You just infer them from the themes and the role they play etc…….