taking on five classes while working two jobs was probably not the best decision i've made this year. i've been spreading myself so thin, trying to find time for everything, especially school, and i'm stressed. so stressed but i chose to go this route for the semester, i can't drop any classes. maybe i'll drop a couple of shifts from my second job.

i've been thinking about old friends who i don't talk to much anymore. i know people move in and out of your life, but it's hard for me to decide if some of those people are gone for good. or maybe i don't have to do any deciding. part of me is still very anxious about contacting those people. i feel that if they wanted to speak to me, they would have already, in one way or another. but i know it's stupid to think that way. i know it's linked to me still not accepting myself fully.