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I don't post much, but I finally decided to post something on my drawing insta, so I'll leave it here in case anyone is interested
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THAT ELF IS GETTING THE FATTEST KISS. đđ MWAAH MWA MWA MWA
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I wanna give him kisses but I'm 4'11 so my short ass might have to settle for forehead kisses unless he đđ𼺠p-picks me up or something >///<
he's working hard!

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đđąđ˛đ đ đŁđŹđŻ đđŹđ˛ Resident evil men x male reader
Summary: multiple scenarios with the trope âstuck in a holeâ with various RE men.
Tags: No use of Y/N. Male reader. Dubious consent. Dark Leon Kennedy. Dark Chris Redfield. Dark Ethan Winters. Dark Carlos Oliveira. Dark Piers Nivans. Top Leon Kennedy. Threesome and double penetration (Chris and Piers scenario). Top Chris Redfield. Top Piers Nivans. Gentle dom Ethan Winters. Dom Carlos Oliveira. smut. Anal sex. Size kink. Breeding.
A very old request that I got
Words count: 10000 (2500 per character)
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ĘăŁâ˘á´Ľâ˘Ę㣠Two-sides / Same coin - Gojo x male reader
Word Count: 4200
Plot: Fratjo & Nerdjo headcannons with smut~
Featuring: Top Gojo x Bottom Male Reader
Note: Never watched or read jjk so probably ooc but i read the wiki and tried my best guys i swear Nerdjo is shorter cause I ran out of steam guys, sorry smh
Warnings: amab m!reader / FDNI ~ MINORS DNI
Fratboy!Gojo who'd been eyeing you up ever since the first party his frat had thrown that year. Realistically, you weren't anyone special; you blended in with the crowd as you talked amongst your friends, dancing and drinking. Though it seems you don't even have to try, because the way your clothes framed your body, the way your half-lidded eyes observed your surroundings, it gave Gojo the hots.
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Key: â¤ď¸-Smut đ¤-Angst đЎ-Fluff
Categorised by: Character then Chronological (when written)

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Special First Time
Pairings â Miguel OâHara x male reader
CW â gay, gay-sex, soft top Miguel OâHara, bottom male reader, blowjob (Miguel and reader receiving), handjob (Miguel and reader receiving), cum swallowing, praise kink, anal sex, anal fingering, Miguel has a big dick, soft sex (i think), soft Miguel OâHara, breeding, size difference, size kink, porn without a plot, and marking.
Word count â 4.5k
Summary â Miguel takes his boyfriendâs virginity and guides him through the throes of sex.
Read before continuing â if you are younger than 18 or any of the warnings make you uncomfortable, this is your chance to turn around and leave. If there are no problems, you may continue.
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Ghost's favorite position, hands down no argument, is prone bone.
Him on top, of course, one arm nestled under your torso and holding you close. The other slung above his head, forearm resting just above you in a lazy sprawl.
You've learned that this is his go-to position after eating. Something about a fully belly and feeling safe, warm in your presence just makes him too tired for the more ambitious stuff you usually do. Ghost would much rather lie on top of you, squishing you under his massive figure.
"Fuckin hellâ hold still, lovie." Ghost groans when you squirm at a particularly harsh thrust. Not like you could actually go anywhere when he completely settles his weight into you and switches from thrusts to grinding.
"Wâ whatâ? Si...c'mon, baby you promised...!" You groan, huffs because he had promised to fuck you earlier!
"I'm inside you, ain't i?" He grunts, slinking the other arm under you too for a proper cuddle, the heavy thickness of his cock still deep inside.
"Yeah, but you know thats not what Iâ uh....simon? Si...? Oh my godâ" steady snoring above you.
Of course he decided now was the best time to nap. Fucking food coma again.
...Hopefully he gets a wet dream and you get that fucking you asked for.
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B: Breeding Kink- Zuko
2.5k words. 2.5k isn't that long, but I'm trying to keep these relatively short, and I'm already struggling lol.
Warning for angst with a happy ending, breeding kink, a touch of irrational jealousy, and possessive behavior.
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Yuuji Itadori x Male Reader
TW: Prostate stimulation, Overstimulation, Male squirting, Dubious consent (?) SubReader, Manhandling, Dacryphilia, Watersports (?), Yuuji's kinda mean...
SUM: Yuuji finds out how to make you squirt through reddit. And a little bit of estimating, and hands-on expiriments.
No proofread... maybe later. NSFW under cut.

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Aerion x male reader
Cw: too much plot, smut, bottom reader, top Aerion, unprotected and unprepared sex, brothels, whores, Aerion in general, wine, anal, feminine reader, hard sex, probably others that Iâm forgetting
Aerion was a regular at the top brothel in the area surrounding Summerhall. When they get a some visiting whores from the Reach, Aerion wants to be the one to break them in, no matter who they are.
It wasnât often that whores are moved around, but when the Tyrells are welcomed into Summerhall, it's only natural that their son would bring his favorite play things. You had been a serving boy in the brothel, walking around filling up people's cups and collecting coin from customers while caring for some of the girls in between jobs. You grew up with one of the girls, Elyn Flowers, sheâs the bastard of some lesser Reach lord with a whore in another home. You were a bastard as well, but knew nothing of who your family was as you grew up in an orphanage. Elyn was the closest thing you had to a sister with her even practicing outfits, makeup, and hair styles on you before she did herself at times. Because of that you kept your hair long enough for her to style. You two had always shared everything, so it made sense for you to share even when she was going to a new job like this.
The two of you were sitting on the back of a wagon heading towards the new job for her. The heir to Highgarden seemed to enjoy her quite well, so it makes sense that she would be called to follow along, even if it displeased his wife. The travel was rough and disgusting, but whores donât get accommodations that lords and ladies do, so neither of you argued.
Eventually, you arrived in Summerhall. There were well taken care of brothels nearby the castle. The Tyrell boy had arranged for one to take the two of you in, far before you even left the Reach. When you arrived at the house you were surprised at how different it was compared to the whore houses of the Reach. The owner of the brothel had greeted you both, leading you to a private room that would only be used by Elyn while you were in Summerhall. It wasnât glorious in any way but it was enough to show respect to a visiting lord and the woman he brought with him. You set up some of Elynâs toiletries that she always needed before servicing anyone. You werenât sure when the heir would be here so it was a safer bet to go ahead and get clean. You bathed first, ridding yourself of any mud or dust from the road. You washed your long hair as well, after you finished you used some of Elynâs products. The lord had gifted her fine lotions and oils to use and she never worried about him being upset with you wearing them as well. The two of you were a pair anyways, only better that you smell alike as well. The lord even started gifting larger quantities or even two of certain objects knowing that the both of you would be using them.
You helped Elyn bathe, scrubbing her body til it was a slight pink. While drying her off you applied the oil all across her body, neither of you shied away from each other when nude, there was no point to. After being fully oiled, Elyn pulled two matching pink, silk dresses from her trunk, they were flowy and made of a soft silk and were rather sheer on all parts but the upper skirt, keeping something to be desired. It fastened at the neck with a window to view the breast as they were pushed together by the tight top. The dress also showed off the tops of the shoulders before flowing down into sleeves that were so sheer there was practically nothing there at all. The skirt was split into a front and a back, the sides having long slits all the way to the upper thigh. You helped Elyn put on her dress and she helped you put on its twin. Then you sat her in front of a mirror as you began to style her hair. The Tyrell man liked her hair loose, wanting something to grab on. You moved some of the front strands away from her face, tying them behind her head. Showcasing her beauty while keeping his desires in mind. You then began doing her makeup, Elyn had a slightly freckled face but was still very pale. Her brown hair matched the freckles in shade, you think it made her even prettier, but the men in the Reach had different ideas of beauty. You used a product from the lord to cover her freckles, making her look like a plain fair skinned girl. You then used a light rouge, bringing color back to her cheeks and lips. Her eyes were a brilliant green that made many of the men who visited the shore house stop and try to buy her as well. But being a lord's favorite, she was too expensive for most knights or lay people. After completing her ritual to begin any working day, the two of you joined the rest of the house.
Elyn linked her arm with yours, pulling you along to the room that housed the master of the house so that she could announce that she was open for business. On the walk you saw many knights and richer men lying about, some drinking, some eating, some being serviced and others sitting talking to each other. It was barely mid day. Why were there so many high ranking people doing nothing? Elyn tugged on your arm, dragging your attention back to her.
âDo you think weâll meet one of the princes? Iâve heard one of them is a quite well known enjoyer of the pleasure houses.â
You snorted, before looking around the room again for the sight of any silver or silver adjacent hair.
âEven if we did, you know your lord doesnât like to share.â
Elyn pouted, glaring up at you for a moment. The man who owned the building had found you two, he gave a wide smile and crushed you in a hug.
âMy boy, you look pretty enough in that get up to be sold alongside your sister!â
You chuckled, it wasnât the first time that someone has made a comment about how you should offer services as well. Many men have even grabbed you while you were filling cups to try and cop a feel of your cunt, unfortunately for them there was no cunt there to grasp. When they felt your manhood they would push you away and angrily continue whatever they were doing before. And while you knew some men preferred other men they had never come to you to fill such a request, so you just kept filling drinks and delivering food during the busy hours.
The owner allowed Elyn to run off back to her room, saying that he heard that the Tyrell boy would be here soon and was bringing quite a large posse with him. You were shown where the kitchen and cellar were so you could do your job more effectively. You filled a basin with a nicer wine, one you knew the heir liked already, before heading back to join Elyn. When you entered the room, only a thin piece of fabric separating it from the rest of the house, you found the heir already laid out of the bed. Elyn was sitting on his lap, slowly rotating her hips back and front the up and down on him as he ranted about something or other that didnât matter to the two of you. He used Elyn as a stress reliever for any stress he had. He noticed you enter the room as you poured his wine for him.
âAh! (Y/N)! Iâm happy to see you joined us! I was worried that you would be left behind at Highgarden!â
You smiled at the lord, âof course my lord, you know only Elyn and I are capable of caring for you.â
You brought him the chalice, filled with a sweet arbor red. He drank from it greedily before saying to you two,
âI have met the princes in Summerhall, they are quite interesting. I will try to bring them by later, maybe one will catch your fancy, my boy!â
Lord Tyrell had been coming to Elyn for quite awhile, hence why he knew about your past lover. A sweet boy who was a blacksmith near the brothel. He was tanned and muscular, with dark hair and brown eyes. Entirely plain by most peopleâs standards, but not yours. To you he was the face of beauty itself. Many nights the two of you spent alone, exploring each other's bodies. When he was commissioned by a lesser lord to make a helm, the man had accused him of stealing important steel from him. Your lover was sent to the Night's Watch to never be seen again. You were broken afterwards, a husk of who you once were before the incident. Lord Tyrell had noticed the difference and had listened as you and Elyn had told him about The whole ordeal, unfortunately once a man had joined the Night's Watch he could never leave so his hands were tied. Lord Tyrell had tried cheering you up by bringing any and all men he knew who had a shine towards the same sex to you, but they could never replace your love.
You smiled softly at the lord, thanking him for thinking of you before reminding him you were both here to support him and Elyn had missed him quite a lot. That snapped him back into action as he took control and flipped Elyn over so she lay on the bed with him on top. You took that as your sign to step out of the room, grabbing a pitcher with a cheaper wine given to lesser men and made your way around filling up cups. Your trip to Summerhall had tired you out and all you wanted to do was lay down and go to sleep.
It seems the Seven were not on your side tonight as after going around the room thrice, a large commotion was heard from outside. You looked out the window and saw multiple guards surrounding a figure who was making their way into the pleasure house. A rich man coming from the castle it seemed, maybe that Prince Elyn was telling you about. You ignored it for now, as it would surely bring trouble worrying about some rich boy while working. You filled the basin up again, moving to refill cups and pick up empty platters when the room went quiet with a deadly stillness. No one moved or even breathed it seemed. You looked over your shoulder to see what was causing the change in the people. A man stood in the doorway with short silver hair wearing an all black outfit with trimmings of red and dragons embroidered onto it. A prince. You werenât sure which one though, there were quite a few. The man had guards on either side of him, blocking anyone from even thinking of attacking, if the sword on his belt and his status wasnât enough of a deterrent. He looked around the room once before locking eyes with you, you blushed and looked down at the table you were clearing, your hands shaking. The prince walked further into the room, grabbing you by the upper arm making you drop the plates onto the table as he dragged you into another room. This room was one of the only ones with an actual door, it seemed it was specifically made for royalty as the room was the most lavishly decorated with murals of dragons being presented on the walls. The prince sat on the end of the bed, you moved to a table across the room and poured him a glass of wine. Your hands wouldnât stop shaking. Why would the prince drag you in here? Would he kill you for being a boy instead of a woman? You werenât a whore you didnât know how to please him even if he let you! You brought him the cup and stood in front of him, terrified of what was going to happen.
âAre you a new one? Donât even know how to begin?â
He scoffed at you, drinking down the wine quickly before presenting the cup for you to fill again. You did just that before returning to standing in front of him.
âIâm not a whore your grace, Iâm just a server.â
You wanted to say serving boy but no need to get yourself killed so soon. He looked at you, sipping his wine before leaning back on the bed propped up by his elbows watching you.
âStrip.â
Your eyes widened, there was no way to hide what you are if you shed the thin protection you do have.
âYour grace, Iâd be happy to find you a better woman, one who knows how to ple-â
âI said strip, or do they not teach you to listen in whatever hole you crawled out of.â
You took a shaky breath before moving your hands to the clasp around your neck, you undid it, loosening the whole top part of the dress. Next, you slid the sleeves down, trying to hide your chest to the best of your ability using the fabric bunching up. Once you got to the skirt there was no saving your modesty. You dropped it unceremoniously letting your manhood be shown to the prince sitting before you. You could see the shock on his face for a second at the sight, heâs surely going to kill me now, you thought, watching as he unbuckled the belt holding his sword to his hips.
âNow, strip meâ
You choked on your spit for a second, wide eyes searching his. You moved slowly towards the bed as if approaching a sleeping bear, one wrong move and youâd lose what little you had left of a life. He stalked you with his eyes, watching as you crouched to the floor to remove his boots, then moved a hand up his leg to the front of his trousers unlacing them in a soft way heâd never felt before. He watched you, shaky breaths leaving his lungs as you slipped your hands under his shirt and pulled it over his head. The two of you face to face for a moment. You blushed, your skin feeling hot as you slipped backwards, pulling the pants he wore all the way off before standing again, hands clasped in front of your cock hiding it from the prince. He finished the wine in his cup, holding it out for you to refill, something you do quick and easy as it felt natural to you at this point. He sat up, watching your movements as you did what you were told, you were a good listener at least.
âYou are quite pretty for a serving boyâ
You blushed, curling in on yourself a tad trying to shy away from the prince.
âT-thank you, your grace. My sister is a worker brought here by the Tyrells, I joined her to care for her for the few days weâre here.â
You kept your head down, staring at the floor. Maybe he would let you go, maybe he would just humiliate you and leave without taking your life or your cock. Maybe youâd be alright.
âDid she never teach you how to please a man?â
He broke you out of your trance, looking up at him you shake your head no. There wasnât a reason to, she was the money maker and you cared for the home and her, it was an easy arrangement. The prince motioned you closer and grabbed your arm pulling you down into him. You fell onto his chest, scrambling to get up and away from the royal. He held you before moving his hand down to your leg bringing your knee up beside his hips. You sat up, gasping for air sitting on his lap, the same position that Elyn had been on when on top of lord Tyrell. You blushed attempting to get up again when the prince spoke up,
âRide me while I finish my wine.â
You gasped, staring at his face as you watched his eyes track you. He was serious, and going against a prince's orders surely meant death. You pushed up on your knees, taking his cock in your hand. You heard a his from him at the coolness of your hand. You positioned him at your entrance, this is gonna hurt, you thought to yourself as you started to push him in. You and your lover had done something similar before but you had mouthed at his cock for almost an hour, you two had never gotten to this point before. He was always worried about it being too painful for you to withstand. You gasped as his tip broke through your hole, the pain shooting up throughout your body. You hung your head for a moment trying to catch your breath. The prince rolled his eyes before finishing his wine in one swig, he threw the cup somewhere and placed both hands on the sides of your hips. He pushed you down hard and fast, not caring about any pain you felt. You gagged for a second, unable to breath at the feeling of him being so deep inside you. He watched you for a second before his hand left your hip, it went into the air and came down harsh on your ass.
âMove alreadyâ
You gasped, before slowly raising yourself up on your knees, him almost falling out of you before you slammed yourself back down on his lap. His head was thrown back as he had a vicious smile on his face. You did this a few more times, starting to speed up, starting to find your own pleasure in it. The prince grew tired after a moment. He grabbed you by the arms and threw you off of him, having you lay chest down on the bed. You went to sit up, move at all, when you felt his hands on your hips. He pulled you towards him, your hips high. He quickly entered you again, setting a brutal pace that had you gasping and crying out. You were begging, for what you were sure at the moment only knowing the words leaving your mouth were doing nothing to calm his thrusts. He leaned forward, grabbing a fistful of your hair and yanking your head back hard. You cried out, feeling tears slip down your face. You had never experienced anything like this before, your ass feeling bruised at the painful slaps of it against his thighs. Your cock was leaking, leaving a mess on your stomach and the sheets close to your groin.
It felt like eternity but also just a moment for him to reach his peak. He pulled out of your ass, a habit from other whores he fucked due to not wanting any bastards running around, and came all over your back. You collapsed onto the bed, panting. He watched you for a second, seeing the rise and fall of your chest, how you held onto a pillow below you, how your legs shook even though they werenât holding you up anymore. He left the bed, finding a water basin and filling a cup before finding his chalice again and filling it with more wine. He handed you the cup of water, watching as you drank it greedily.
âWas that your first time with a man?â
âWith-with anyone, your grace.â
He smirked at that, he had taken something from you no one else will ever be able to have. He chuckled before moving to dress himself again. Once his pants and boots were back on he turned to look at you, âyou will be staying here from now on, no one else will have you but me.â He threw his shirt over his head before walking to the door. He looked back at you one more time, how you looked at him with fear, and slammed the door behind him, smirking all the way back to Summerhall.
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Alpha Toji x omega male reader
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The calloused fingers tracing the edge of the ceramic mug were too large for the delicate thing, though Toji handled it with surprising care. Steam curled lazily from the chamomile tea insideâtoo sweet, but heâd added the extra honey anyway, just how he liked it. The kitchen was quiet save for the hum of the refrigerator, the dim overhead stovelight casting small shadows across his knuckles where they gripped the cup.
Down the hall, the bedroom door was cracked open. He could see the edge of the comforter tangled halfway off the mattress, the way it always was when sleep turned restless. He didnât need to step closer to know the sheets would smell like salt and exhaustion, the pillowcase damp in patches. His throat tightened, but he forced his feet forward, the mug radiating warmth against his palm.
"Youâre supposed to be asleep," Toji murmured, nudging the door wider with his hip. The figure curled on the bed didnât stir, but the hunch of his shoulders said enough.
The tea found its place on the nightstand, condensation already beading on the ceramic. Toji sat heavily on the edge of the mattress, the springs groaning softly under his weight. He reached out without thinking, fingers brushing against the back of his neckâcold and sweaty, despite the blanket pulled up to his chin.
Tojiâs fingers lingered against the chilled skin of his omegaâs neck, the contrast between his rough touch and the fragility beneath it sharper than ever. The scent of chamomile mixed with something sourâsuppressed grief, maybe, or the remnants of tears wiped away too quickly. He exhaled through his nose, slow and deliberate, before sliding his hand down to rest between his husbandâs shoulder blades. The ridge of spine beneath his palm felt too pronounced, as if the weight of the last few days had carved him hollow.
"Teaâs gonna get cold," Toji said, voice lower than he intended. The words werenât about the tea, and they both knew it.
A shaky inhale. Then, muffled against the pillow: "I donât want it."
Tojiâs jaw worked. He couldâve pushedâcouldâve nudged the mug closer, reminded him that he had barely eaten since Fridayâwhich was two days ago, that the hollows under his eyes were dark enough to bruise. Instead, he let his hand press a little firmer against his back, grounding. "Then donât drink it," he conceded. "But youâre gonna sit up for me."
The mattress shifted as Toji leaned forward, his free hand sliding beneath his omega's shoulders to ease him upright. The movement was slow, deliberateâthe way he'd handle a spooked animal, all measured pressure and no sudden motions. His husband's body resisted at first, limbs heavy with exhaustion, but eventually he relented, allowing himself to be guided up against the headboard. His face stayed turned away, the sharp line of his jaw clenched tight even as his fingers twisted weakly in the sheets.
Toji didn't comment on the damp streaks glistening on his cheeks. Instead, he reached for the mug again, pressing it gently into his omega's hands. The warmth seeped into his pale fingers immediately, his grip so loose Toji had to curl his own larger hands around them for a moment, just to make sure he wouldn't drop it. "There," he murmured, thumbs brushing over his knuckles. "Just hold it for now. Don't gotta drink."
A shuddering breath escaped his omega's lips, his shoulders curling inward as if the weight of the mug alone might crush him. The scent of honeyed chamomile wafted between them, undercut by something sharperâgrief, thick enough to taste. Toji stayed close, his knee pressing into the mattress beside his hip, close enough that their body heat mingled in the scant space between them.
"Should've been stronger," his omega whispered finally, voice cracked at the edges. His fingers trembled around the ceramic. "IâI could'veâ"
Tojiâs fingers tightened around his omegaâs before he could stop himselfânot enough to hurt, never enough to hurt, but enough to make the words stutter to a halt. The tea sloshed dangerously close to the rim of the mug, but neither of them moved to steady it. "Donât," Toji growled, the sound rough but low. "Donât fucking say that."
His omega flinched, but Toji didnât let go. Instead, he shifted closer, his free hand cupping the back of his neck, forcing his forehead to rest against his own. The scent of salt and chamomile filled the space between them. "You think I give a single shit about âstrongâ?" Toji muttered, breath hot against his lips. "Youâre here. Thatâs all that matters."
A broken noise escaped his omegaâs throat, something between a sob and a laugh. "Butâ"
"No." Tojiâs thumb brushed the hollow under his eye, smearing the dampness there. "Listen to me. This wasnât your fault. It wasnât you." The words came out sharper than he intended, but he needed them to stick, needed them to carve through the guilt festering in his husbandâs chest. "You didnât fail. You hear me? You didnât."
Tojiâs words hung heavy in the air, but they didnât landânot really. His omegaâs breath hitched, then fractured entirely, a wet, ragged sound tearing from his throat as his shoulders crumpled forward. The mug slipped from his grasp, tea splashing across the duvet, but Toji caught it before it could shatter against the floor, tossing it carelessly onto the nightstand. His hands were back on his husband in an instant, gripping his wrists as his omegaâs fingers clawed at his own chest, like he could dig out the grief festering there.
"I felt it," his omega choked out, voice shredded. "I felt whenâwhen it stopped." The last word cracked like a whip, and then he was sobbing, really sobbing, his entire body convulsing with the force of it. Toji hauled him forward, crushing him against his chest as his omegaâs fists pounded weakly against his ribsâonce, twiceâbefore going limp, fingers twisting desperately in Tojiâs shirt. "I hate this," he gasped, the words muffled against Tojiâs collarbone. "I hate that I couldnâtâfuckâ"
Tojiâs arms tightened around him, one hand cradling the back of his head as his husbandâs cries turned raw, guttural. He didnât try to shush him. Didnât tell him it would be okay. He just held him, let him scream into his shoulder, let him shake apart in his arms, his own jaw clenched so tight his teeth ached. The anger was there, simmering under his skinânot at him, never at himâbut at the fucking universe for carving this pain into someone who deserved it least.
His omegaâs nails dug into his back, sharp even through the fabric. "Itâs not fair," he spat, the words ragged with fury. "We wanted them. Weâgodâwe picked out names." The last syllable broke into a wail, and Tojiâs grip on him turned bruising, his nose buried in his hair as his own vision blurred. He hadnât cried. Not yet. But feeling him like thisâthe way his body heaved with every sob, the way his scent had gone sour with anguishâit was fucking breaking him.
"Let it out," Toji growled against his temple, his voice rough. "Fucking let it out." He didnât care if the neighbors heard. Didnât care if the whole goddamn world heard. His husband had been swallowing this grief for days, choking on it, and Toji would be damned if he didnât let him scream it into the open air.
His omega went rigid for a moment, as if fighting the urge to collapse entirely.
Then he broke.
Completely shattered.
A sound tore from his throatâsomething primal, something woundedâand Toji felt it in his own ribs, a phantom ache. His husband clawed at his shoulders, his hips, anywhere he could reach, like he was trying to anchor himself. "Why us?" he gasped, forehead pressed hard against Tojiâs sternum. "Whyâwhy our baby?" The question was a blade, and Toji had no answer to give. Only the steady press of his palms against his back, the unyielding heat of his body.
The anger burned hotter then, sudden and vicious. His omega reared back, eyes wild, teeth bared. "I shouldâve known," he snarled, fingers twisting in Tojiâs shirt. "I shouldâveâfelt it sooner, done somethingâ!" His voice cracked, and then his fists were slamming into Tojiâs chestâonce, twiceâweak punches that barely registered before he collapsed forward again, his breath coming in sharp, wet hitches.
Toji caught his wrists, not to stop him, but to hold him together. "You couldnât," he said, low and firm. "You hear me? You couldnât." His omega whimpered, a broken sound, and Toji hauled him closer, tucking him under his chin. "This wasnât your fault," he repeated, lips moving against his hair. "It wasnât. It wasnât."
His husband shuddered, then went stillâtoo still. For a heartbeat, Toji thought heâd finally exhausted himself. Then, with a ragged inhale, his omega whispered, "But what if it was?" The words were so quiet, so small, that Toji barely caught them. His grip tightened instinctively. "What ifâwhat if I did something wrong? What if Iâ"
"Stop." Tojiâs voice was sharp, but his hands were gentle, framing his husbandâs face. "Look at me." When he didnât, Toji ducked his head, forcing their eyes to meet. His omegaâs lashes were clumped with tears, his cheeks flushed and damp. "You didnât," he said, each word deliberate. "You loved them. You wanted them. Thatâs all that fucking matters."
His omega stared at him, lips trembling. Then, with a ragged sob, he buried his face in Tojiâs neck again, his body wracked with silent cries. Toji held him, one hand cradling the back of his head, the other splayed across his spine, as if he could press the shattered pieces of him back together through sheer will alone.
Minutes passedâor maybe hours. The room grew dimmer, the shadows stretching longer across the floor. Eventually, the sobs quieted to hiccups, then to uneven breaths. Toji didnât move. Didnât loosen his hold. Not until his omega shifted, his fingers uncurling from Tojiâs shirt to press weakly against his chest.
"Mâ sorry," he mumbled, voice hoarse. "IâI didnât mean toâ"
"Donât." Tojiâs hand slid down to cup his jaw, thumb brushing the redness of his cheek. "Donât apologize. Not for this."
His omega swallowed hard, then nodded, his gaze dropping to where his fingers now rested limp on Tojiâs chest. The silence between them wasnât comfortable, but it wasnât suffocating anymoreâjust heavy, like a shared weight.
Toji exhaled slowly, then reached for the discarded mug on the nightstand. The tea had gone cold, but he drained it in one gulp anyway, the bitterness of oversteeped chamomile coating his tongue. "We should eat," he said, setting the mug down with a clink.
His husband shook his head, pressing closer to Tojiâs side as if he could disappear into him. "Not hungry."
"You will be." Toji pressed a kiss to his temple, then shifted to standâonly for his omegaâs fingers to tighten in his shirt with surprising strength.
"Stay," he whispered, voice cracking. "Justâjust a little longer."
Toji hesitated, then sank back onto the mattress, pulling his husband into his lap. He didnât speakâdidnât trust himself to say the right thingâbut his arms wrapped around him all the same, solid and unyielding. His omega melted into the embrace, his forehead resting against Tojiâs shoulder, his breath warm against his collarbone.
The silence stretched, thick with unsaid words. Then, a shuddering inhale. "I keep thinkingâ" His omegaâs voice was raw, barely audible. "What if I dream about them? What if I see them andâand it hurts?" His fingers twisted in Tojiâs shirt again, knuckles white. "I donât want to forget, but I donât want to remember either."
Tojiâs throat tightened. He hadnât considered thatâthe way grief could twist even sleep into a battlefield. His hand slid up his omegaâs spine, fingers threading through his hair. "Then you wake me up," he said, voice rough. "Every time. You wake me up, and Iâll be here."
His omega made a soundâhalf a sob, half a laughâand pressed closer, his nails digging into Tojiâs back. "You canât fix this," he murmured, the words muffled against his skin.
"I know." Tojiâs grip tightened. "But I can be here."
âIâll always be here.â
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Authors note: Well Iâm back on a small steady track of posting stories. I hope to keep it going but generally weâll see. Anyway I hoped you enjoyed, please leave any tips, comments, or suggestions down below.