* GOLDEN

“  where do you get your hope?  what keeps you going during all this?  ”

“  you know,  sometimes you don’t have to find the answers.  i think it can be enough to just admit you’re lost.  for now.  ”

“  sometimes,  i don’t feel like i’m real.  not unless i’m hurting in some way.  it’s not like i want to be in pain,  but i’m just so used to it.  i dunno what to do without it anymore.  ”

“  i just keep hoping that one day i’ll have something else motivating me— something more than stubbornness or spite. i wanna feel like i’m living.  ”

“  i learned the only thing i can believe in is me.  i have faith in myself.  that’s how i survived.  ”

“  i hope you know i’m proud of you.  i’ve seen how hard you’ve been fighting to get where you are.  you might feel stuck,  but you’re not.  you’ve come so far.  ”  

“   when i told you i loved you,  you know i meant that right?  i’m not talking just about all those warm feelings.  i’m talking about putting in the work.  i’m here to stay for the hard parts,  not just the pretty ones.  ”

“   you don’t have to find the perfect words,  just tell me what you’re feeling.  i’m here to listen.  ”  

“  you don’t have to carry it all.  humans aren’t made to be solitary creatures.  i want to help.  all you have to do is ask.  ”  

 “  i know i haven’t always been there in the past,  but i’m here now.  i’m trying.  please,  just let me in.  ”

“  i still care about you,  you know.  i could never stop caring about you.  but we were both drowning.  and one of us had to get out eventually.  ” 

“  i think you’re still my person.  and i’m hoping maybe one day,  i can be yours again too.  ”

“  i’ll still be here when you need me.  that will never change.  ”  

“  i love you.  but i can’t keep watching you destroy yourself.  i can’t sit here and watch that anymore.  it hurts too much.  ”  

“  i already forgave you.  so why can’t you forgive yourself?  ” 

“  it’s not about what you think you do or don’t deserve.  i get to choose who to love.  i’m an adult.  and i can make that decision.  so i’m here to stay.  i’m in this.  ”  

 “  if we’re going to do this again,  you have to promise it will be different.  you have to show me that you’re ready this time.  ” 

“   i don’t know how to make you believe that i can make us work again.  but i’m not going to give up.  i did that once and—  well,  i’m standing here again because it was the wrong choice.  give us another chance.  ” 

“  i’m lost without you.  and i’m not asking you to fix me or be something you’re not.  i’m just asking you to keep being the lighthouse you are just by being you.   and let me be guide myself by it.  ”  

 “   i’ve never been very good at letting go.  and now i feel like there’s too many burdens i’m holding on to and i don’t know how to get rid of them anymore.  ”  

“  why do you feel like you need to punish yourself so much?  ”

“  why do you keep saying that?  you’re not alone.  i’m standing right here.  ”

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lines taken from the 2012 album The Idler Wheel Is Wiser Than the Driver of the Screw, and Whipping Cords Will Serve You More Than Ropes Will Ever Do.  edit as desired.

“That’s where the pain comes in.”

“I’m not what I ought to be.”

“I’m what I try not to be.”

“I just made a meal for us both to choke on.”

“Every single night’s a fight with my brain.”

“I just wanna feel everything.”

“My heart’s made of parts of all that surround me.”

“I guess I just must be a daredevil.”

“I don’t feel anything until I smash it up.”

“All I want’s a confidante to help me laugh it off.”

“Don’t let me ruin me.”

“I may need a chaperone.”

“Oh give me anything, and I’ll turn it into a gift.”

“Look at me. I’m all the fishes in the sea.”

“Give me what you got in your mind in the middle of the night.”

“Maybe you let me look out for you, protect what I found in you, and never let it starve.”

“Maybe you let me look out for you.”

“You let me stay.”

“I will try hard to hold onto you with open arms.”

“You didn’t see my valentine.”

“While you were watching someone else, I stared at you.”

“I stand no chance of growing up.”

“I’ve made my peace, I’m dead, I’m done.”

“I tried to dance, but lost my nerve.”

“Take me on the train and kiss me.”

“Heavens’ sake, don’t make me explain.”

“I don’t wanna talk about anything.”

“You’d like to captain a capsized ship.”

“I like to watch you live.”

“My love wrecked you.”

“It hurt more than it ought to hurt.”

“I’m hard to know.”

“I don’t cry when I’m sad anymore.”

“How can I ask anyone to love me, when all I do is beg to be left alone?”

“Nothing is manageable.”

“I could liken you to a werewolf, the way you left me for dead.  But I admit that I provided a full moon.”

“You left me for dead.”

“We can still support each other - all we gotta do’s avoid each other.”

“We can still support each other.”

“All we gotta do’s avoid each other.”

“Nothing wrong when a song ends in a minor key.”

“Inevitable you and me would mix.”

“I could liken you to a lot of things, but I always come around.”

“In the end, I’m a sensible girl. I know the fiction of the fix.”

“Bear it, if you can.”

“Run it if you want, if you think it’s worth it. But not with me.”

“I don’t appreciate people who don’t appreciate.”

“All that loving must’ve been lacking something.”

“I got bored tryin’ to figure you out.”

“You let me down.”

“I don’t even like you anymore at all.”

“That’s how you got me.  You taught me to regret.”

“Why are you so mean?”

“You didn’t know how to react to being seen.”

“You taught me to be mean.”

“You hated that, didn’t you?  Didn’t you?”

“That’s how you got free.  You got rid of me.”

“Hot piss comes from your mouth every time you address me.”

“Leave me alone.”

“I want you to kiss me when we find some time alone.”

“And then we can do anything we want.”

“We try not to let the bastards get us down.”

“When the guff comes, we get brave.”

“Let’s pretend we’re eight years old, playing hooky.”

“I’m a hot knife.”

“You can relax around me.”

“Even just to reach is a victory.”

“Now I really got a hold on you.”

“How could I have thought I was ever alone?”

“I don’t wanna care if I stumble or cry.”

“Handle me like family, and that’ll be enough.”

“Handle me like family, and that’ll be enough to keep me from dying.”

“ i saw everything. everything. “

“ you made it all up. “

“ listen… i know… i know everything. “

“ nothing. you know nothing. “

“ like you, i know what it is to forget. “

“ no, you don’t know what it is to forget. “

“ like you, i have tried with all my might not to forget. “

“ like you, i forgot. like you, i wanted to have an inconsolable memory, a memory of shadows and stone. “

“ listen to me. i know something else. it will begin all over again. “

“ chaos will prevail. “

“ i remember you. “

“ you destroy me. “

“ you’re so good for me. “

“ deform me, make me ugly. “

“ you’re like a thousand people in one. “

“ what were you dreaming about? “

“ i was looking at your hands. they move when you’re asleep. “

“ i noticed you, that’s all. “

“ when you talk, i wonder whether you lie or tell the truth. “

“ i lie. and i tell the truth. “

“ i have doubtful morals, you know. “

“ madness is like intelligence, you know. you can’t explain it. “

“ were you full of hate? “

“ i was mad with hate. all i cared about was hate. “

“ it’s all over. “

“ you give me a great desire to love. “

“ i hate to think about you leaving. i think i love you. “

“ how is it possible to bear such pain? “

“ i loved blood since i had tasted yours. “

“ i think of you, but i don’t talk about it anymore. “

“ i see my life. your death. “

“ i’m beginning to forget you. “

“ the pain, i still remember the pain a little. “

“ i remember. but one day i won’t remember it any more. not at all. nothing. “

“ look how i’m forgetting you… look how i’ve forgotten you. “

“ look at me. “

“ i was hungry. hungry for infidelity, for adultery, for lies. hungry to die. “

“ i was hungry to die. i always have been. “

Golden boys about to FIGHT!

lines taken from the 2010 album.  edit as desired.

“All of this can be broken.”

“Someone brought you close to tears.”

“Have you come here to rescue me?”

“I am your keeper.”

“I am yours till they come.”

“Didn’t think I’d be coming back this way.”

“They say love’s labors never lost.”

“I walk into the fog.”

“You’ll scream and you’ll wail ‘till you’re dead.”

“Let it always be known that I was who I am.”

“It’s hard to accept yourself as someone you don’t want to be.”

“I have no reason to reason with you.”

“I’d be sad that I never held your hand.”

“I understand that the world does what it does.”

“You never did learn to let the little things go.”

“You did always say that one day I would suffer.”

“I couldn’t turn my back on the world.”

“Our eyes can make us weak.”

“The grey in this city is too much to bear.”

“I believe we are meant to be seen and not to be understood.”

“I want to be held by those arms.”

“You’ll call and you’ll call but you’ll never be told.”

“I’ll fall and I’ll fall and I’ll fall and I’ll fall and I’ll fall and I’ll fall.”

“You were so smart then.”

“It’s good to hear that you believe in love, even if said in fear.”

“I’ll never love England more than when covered in snow.”

“I only believe true love is frail and willing to break.”

“I want to lay here forever in the cold.”

“I’m clearing all the crap out of my room, trying desperately to figure out what it is that makes me blue.”

“I tried to be a girl who likes to be used.  I’m too good for that.”

“I’m on my own.”

“Why fear death?  Be scared of living.”

“Our hearts are small and ever thinning.”

“There is no hope ever of winning.”

“I looked at my life and I choked.”

“I can’t give up that quick.”

“I forgave you your shortcomings.”

“A friend is a friend forever.”

“You will never understand, ever.”

“If we are to battle, I must not be weak.”

“There’s hope in the air.”

“There’s hope in the air, there’s hope in the water.  But no hope for me.”

“Do not tempt me.”

“Holy light shines on the things you have done.”

“Forgive me, [NAME], I cannot stay.”

“There is nothing to save.”

“I wouldn’t want to ruin something I couldn’t save.”

“The gap will keep us safe.”

“Get me when I’m down.”

“My love, I treasure you.”

“Oh, well, I’m not well again.”

“The ground is falling under me, and I can’t find the means to leave.”

“You deal with God far too young.”

“My husband left me last night.”

“I speak because I can, to anyone I trust enough to listen.”

“I swear it was not my choice.”

“I used to be so kind.”

“In the breaking of the morning, we’ll be dancing.”

“When you look back to where it started, I’ll be there waving you on.”