Under the Weeping Willow

No more ...... please .... no more.

“One more road to cross”- Dmx This song is my whole senior year in one experience. It’s what kept me from giving up and just dropping out of school.Instead of thinking of it being only a few weeks left I always took it as one day. one more challenge and one more success story. Life seems like a game were the wrong move can end the game forever.

It’s the year of 2016, we should be riding hover boards and talking to each other via holograms but instead we just have a shameful generation of people, a racist billionaire that is our president or dictator by the way he is talking, and how to videos of just about everything (thank you back to the future for getting my hopes up that the world would actually get better). Throughout time we all experienced that one group of individuals we wish to eradicate from existence without fearing consequences. Before I continue with my plan no I am not supporting a “purge” of some sort, it’s way too messy and honestly a waste of time to hold a grudge for 364 days until you can ax the person. My easy answer is the use of shock collars one that if a situation gets serious enough can kill. That is right I believe this will solve everyone’s problem in the world we will have a utopia of perfect model citizens. No wars, drugs, racism, sexism, poverty, NO ANYTHING. Everyone will get a fair chance in life they will all have equality over everything and no one will go without. It is said on peacealliance.com “it is estimated that violence containment spending costs $7,000 for every man, woman and child each year. That is $6 billion a day in total, or $246 million an hour.” It cost more to contain violence than it would just to kill off anyone who commits a violent crime. We have reach over 25,000 deaths in drug overdoses in 2014 alone imagine the rates  for 2016. It doesn’t have to be this way not now and not ever in the future. Another added bonus to this is the jobs that it would create, it would be a massive help in boosting the economy what with the demand of labor  to search, retrieve, and dispose of all the bodies that will be dropping left and right like flies. Sure the population may plummet slightly but with teen pregnancy being all the rage now I’m sure we can make back up the population plus “interest”. Abstinence is a dead practice anyway so might as well give the ok to kids and say have a baby you will be doing your country a great service to close the gap between deaths and births so it doesn't look like we are on a genocidal rampage. We are nothing like Hitler he killed most of the Jewish community to give Germans a scapegoat to all their suffering. We only want to make the world a more happy and safer world. My proposal is best quoted as “you have to crack a few eggs first in order to make an omelet”, and those lucky few who are sacrificed will bring forth a dawning of a new age.

You ask why I cry. What’s the reason? This question is rhetorical, sarcastic, and cruel to me. You know the reason, yet you don’t help. You don’t care so why ask. You ask to fill a void and you’re wrong for doing so. I cry for the child who is stronger than any man. I cry for mother earth, which gives and never receives. I cry for those who face the world alone. I cry for all that speak, but aren’t heard. I cry for the beautiful world being destroyed. Look at the world through my eyes; you will see what I see. Then you will cry because you now know. What I go through and what happens around me. Until you do so … Don’t ask me why I cry. Only if you truly want to know will I tell you.

You ever feel like your perfect world is all too perfect? Everything is going too well and you are waiting for it to end. You see the signs and ignore them, see the curtains closing and yet you still perform on. You just wait there stuck instead of changing something ... trying to save it! And when it all goes to shit you cry your tears and lie to yourself saying "I knew it would happen..... only was a matter of time....." bullshit. IT'S ALL BULLSHIT!!!! you wanted to change it so what stopped you huh!?! Too scared? Didn't want to!?!?!.... or maybe ... just maybe ... you wanted this.... to validate that life is shitty... that it's a never ending battle of self worth that no one can fill..... not even you. It puts you in your darkest hour .... but then you get back up and just smile to the world again..... and repeat the cycle.

So going into 2017 I felt like absolute shit I but it was at my darkest moment I asked myself why?........ why are you going to feel this way ? Why bring the sadness into a new year ?..... So I did what any sane person would have done and cut off all of the bad. Like a tree with rot I cut off the bad parts before it consumed me whole. I can't say I got rid of all the sadness but I took the first steps needed to do so.