UNDERL♥VE

UNDERLOVE started as a cute, fun idea that I presented on Twitter that people liked. I thought, hey, what the heck, got a basic idea of what I wanted, then made a main menu screen and created that announcement post.

At first, I was excited and happy. I couldn’t believe all these people wanted to see my game. I’ve never gotten 3K notes on a post and 1K followers on a blog. I’ve never gotten so much support. So I kept churning out updates and doing the best I could. I suppose you could say I was on a bit of a high from all the attention.

But then the first freeze happened. And then the second freeze. And suddenly, my motivation dropped sharply, and I entered a pretty bad depression for a few days. It doesn’t help that at the same time I finally found a way to rewrite my original story that I had swimming around in my head so that it would be a lot better, and that I also found another obsession (Ensemble Stars).

Here’s the truth: I’m just a mentally and physically ill teenager. I have fibromyalgia, which makes me incredibly tired. My interests change rapidly and I have a horrible habit of starting things and never getting them done. Except this time, that habit has created something that garnered so much attention that the consequences became big and terrifying and I started to get scared and I didn’t know what to do. I purposefully hid my identity on this blog so that I wouldn’t get so many followers on my main.

I have always wanted to make a visual novel that became incredibly popular it would get a fanbase. I have always wanted to be remembered for something. And to everyone who doubted I could do this, I just wanted to say ‘ha! I did it! See!’ so I could feel like I ‘accomplished’ something (which they probably would just go ‘oh, good job’ at, so what would that be accomplishing in the end?). But now I’m starting to think...maybe I shouldn’t shoot that high. Maybe I was always just meant to have a nice, relaxing life as someone who just lives their days doing things they like rather than forcing themselves.

Or, maybe, I should just keep the big dreaming stowed away until I become an adult with a better sense of responsibility. (that is also taking a more helpful medication)

But I know many of you probably wanted to at least see what I had planned. Tomorrow I will release details on the game I had withheld for the sake of suspense and excitement. If you are interested in continuing where I had left off, I give you full permission to use the ideas and put them in your own Undertale dating sim.

I will also direct you to two other Undertale dating sim projects: Underdate and Undertale: The Dating Sim. If you were interesting in contributing assets, please give that talent to them instead. They need it more than I do now.

For now, though...

I want to rest.

Thank you for your support up until now,