i have [gestures vaguely] my tendencies

This is what it’s all about. Saturday night. At home. Switching between the same 4 apps on my phone. Getting scared.

“Do it scared” “do it alone” are all great tips, but my biggest takeaway from therapy is do it messy. This is especially true if you’re getting out of a burnout, which I experience often. Literally just do it messy. You don’t need to pick the perfect trail to walk, the perfect playlist to listen to, whatever the fuck it is. You don’t need to have a meticulous to do list and wake up at the exact time you planned and drink the exact amount of water you planned to drink. Like the biggest thing for people like me to remember is sometimes it’s okay to do it messy. Put on a random yt workout and just get it done in sweats. Do 5 minutes of a daunting task and go from there. Sometimes just getting up is a win during intense burnouts or depressive funks. Literally just do it messy.

cleaned out the garage and found my old thinking cap from when i would think

you just need some sunlight on your face, some flowers in your hair and maybe that glow you get after eating a ripe mango.