Undead This Time

She’s been on my ig but I have so many people that I forget who they are cuz we meet at shows and I’ve been like “who the heck is so-and-so” for weeks. E reminded me of her name this weekend so when I saw her face on my feed today I got a little bit

But ultimately it is fine and I am (will be) cool. I’m still new to ENM and having multiple partners myself is the easy part but I need more experience with my partner having other partners. I’ve been spoiled since people I’ve seen haven’t been with other partners and E’s other partners have been long distance.

Friday, went to E’s to watch the spurs lose AGAIN. Spent the night with him and left when he started work Saturday. I wasn’t sure how to kill time. I reached out to L and Jaz but no luck. I checked my mail and finally got the zine my wife has been trying to send me since I moved (remember that whole post office fiasco?) so that was exciting. But even though my home is in complete disarray, I just couldn’t bring myself to be productive. I wanted to go get lost somewhere, try something new.

I felt a random urge to go to a church service and I still can’t explain why, soul was hungry I guess. But it was Saturday and from what I gather most church stuff is on Sunday. So I compromised by getting high as shit and I went to check out a biblical art museum. They had some really interesting pieces but also a lot of casts/prints instead of originals. Also the introduction speech when I first walked in was waaaayyyy too long. They have a spiel about how they recommend you walk through (Im a deviant who went the wrong way because two chatty Cathys walked in at the same time as me and they were friendly but loud. I was way too high for conversation and I came to contemplate some things so I didn’t wanna be stuck with them the whole time — which is how I found the holocaust too early lol) The front desk staff also had pictures of the pieces they were most proud of on display that they would point to and tell you everything about. It felt like a spoiler yk? All the pieces have plaques and I have a little audio guide doodad. Let me get there on my own.

There was a lot of interesting things (and a bunch I skimmed over) but they did have a ton of statues by this one artist, Gib Singleton, and I really enjoyed his work. They had spread him out throughout the exhibits as well as given him his own section so it was nice to see Gib pop in and out throughout my walk. I also really liked a couple paintings by Sister Mary Frances Judge. Most of her work seemed to be basic splatter art, which isn’t inherently terrible but felt a little lazy and repetitive since it took up a majority of the sunlit grand room. But there were a few really interesting pieces with incredible texture and muted colors. They felt far more intentional and provocative than her Pollock-style work. There was also some really intriguing modern art statues by George Toblowski. They were whimsical and odd, with a bit of Dadaism that almost made me forget the biblical theme of the museum.

We won’t talk about the hall of suffering my god.. (bullet points include red walls, dim lighting, creepy videos, nazi paintings outside of holocaust section, and a very liminal hallway that included glass case displays of old world weapons next to an open door leading to storage and office space for employees and was in stark fluorescent contrast of the dim lit suffering ten feet left) consider my heebies jeebied.

When I left the museum the front desk staff seemed surprised. I told them I’d be back another day. I also used a fake name/address/email on their mandatory sign in sheet.

I intended to explore something else after the museum but I struggled to find something that was low cost, alcohol free, and didn’t involve food. I ended up just going back home afterall. I watched some comfort TV and ate the rest of the matcha mushroom bar (I still have an horchata one). Had a grand giggly time and avoided being out in the rain. I already told you I skipped the blade rave and watched euphoria on discord with E so moving along..

Sunday I went back to E’s after my mushrooms died down and he had finished his call with his other partner. I got to his place at like 1:30am, he’d gotten a bag and we had a wonderful sweaty time until around 8am. I had trouble sleeping, obvio, but I was cozy and drifted in and out of sleep for a few hours. We went for tacos, got some caffeine and took Georgia back to dog mom. It was nice to see her again and check out the place E would be living. I’ll get to visit him more once he’s away from his family.

After that, we went back to E’s current place and packed up his bedroom. I was amazed that we got it all done in less than two hours and 4 boxes… I have a sudden deep craving to throw away everything I own lmao. After packing, we caught a late showing of Obsession. What an actress oh man. I started to get nervous that inzo would somehow be dead when I got home, but that’s just the movie messing with me and I had to shake that thought away.

I got back to my place around 1am. Inzo was alive and well, but pissed that I had been gone all weekend. My bracelet from the Sidequest vape lady broke :(((((( idk if I can fix it but I saved the beads.

I went straight to bed and all morning I’ve regretted leaving it. My whole body is sore (in the best way) and I need a deep long sleep. But I’m going back to E tonight to watch game 3 so it’ll probably be midnight again before I’m home.

We’re on Jeopardy! The lights are hot, the crowd is hushed, and Ken Jennings waits at the podium.. The answer is music, and we need a song title that asks a question.

I was gonna go back to E’s after the rave with Christian but Christian’s place is further than mine. I’m still gonna see E later but he has a call with his long distance partner.

He invited me to come over earlier to avoid the rain and hang out before and he would take the call in another room. But that might be uncomfy and I wanted some time at home

So now I guess he’s gonna stream euphoria (he hasn’t seen s3 yet and he started it last night after we watched the game. I fell asleep) on discord for us to watch together until his other call.