"😭 Hold my muse when they are crying" from tensa i'm just not on his blog on mobile fldhdh
Nonverbal RP Starters || @unchainably
Ichigo wishes he knew what was different this time. Tensa rarely lets Ichigo offer any sort of comfort, physical or otherwise. There’s some sort of idea that his emotions are a burden. It’s ridiculous. He never once thought less of Tensa for letting his emotions out. Ichigo would rather know. Besides, Ichigo would cry if he felt like it. If he could would he needed to.
In some ways, seeing it is a relief.
For all that the sword is crying across his lap, the opposite is what’s hardest to deal with. Tensa’s more worrying when he holds it in. When his anger is cold.
And maybe if Ichigo hadn’t chased the sword back to his inner world, Tensa wouldn’t have allowed it. But somehow it all ended with Ichigo crouched to one knee, catching the bankai round the shoulders to draw him close.
He keeps an arm wrapped protectively around the sword, letting his head fall to rest against Tensa’s. He wants to ask. He wants to know what happened. But he doesn’t want to interrupt or break whatever fragile truce that’s keeping the sword close.
He’s not even certain Tensa won’t be mad that he showed up for this when it’s over. But it’s where Ichigo wants to be. Where he feels simultaneously the most useless and needed. Tensa says they can’t be friends, but Ichigo doesn’t know how to be anything else.