life is a fading shadow

I hope you are well and fine

I used to ask you questions in the past and thought of dropping by again

Can I seek for your advice, today is the the 2nd time my husband punch me on my arm. His reason was because I push my son head away. I told him I didn't realize that I only remember pushing him away bcs he was biting me out of anger.amd it hurt.so.im reflex I push him. I did apologize to my son but when it happen he just.punched my arm .

Before this things excalated, when my husband tend to point out my fault or correct me , my eldest would start calling me names. Saying Im like shit . I guess I had enough bcs my husband called me no brain for a mistake I made. Then followed up by son comment . I told my son I didn't like that, it's not nice.to.call ppl that.i guess I was upset with my husband also for not correcting him to tell him he shouldn't talk to his mum like that. He wanted to play game on my phone and I told him he called me that so I'm.not allowing that he cried and then resort to biting me.. that's when I push him.off me to get punched by husband.

I'm not sure how to feel I reacted straight away by crying. He said how old am I to cry. I'm not sure what to feel. Both the children were crying clinging on bcs they were sleepy , I was too. And in all honesty, my mind went blank.numb. is this normal?

My husband always said that if anything happen to my children , I would pay for it.