Itâs been a few months since iâve written on here, and so. much. has. happened.
My last post was from end of February and now itâs the end of June, so 4 months.
I think things finally started to feel semi-normal for me in March (my bday month) which is ironic because last March is when everything went downhill with covid and basically everything else in my life lmao. crazy how it's been like 15+ months since all that went down. but in mid-march the fam and i got our first covid shots allhamduillah, and then end of March was my bday! and b/c last March was so shitty, i wanted this bday to be better so Jannat and I went on a road trip to Portland and Seattle and we saw Faria + Hana, it was so fun but weird to be doing stuff again lmao. And then, in April I finally got a job writing for ET. im gonna be honest, this is not the position i thought i would be in after my MA and everything, especially cuz it's part-time, but I am very grateful for the job even tho i think i deserve more lol, but it's a cool site and in my field so gonna try to not complain (too much lol). And then in April we also got our second dose of the vaccine and then in May... Ali and Tey got married!!! it was so crazy but also so great. very happy for them and may they live a happy and blessed life together inshAllah. and their wedding was the catalyst of us starting to like actually hang with friends and family more. in mid-may i also finally got to go back to campus and westwood and stayed for a few days to see friends. it was so so nice.... it was the first time i went back after leaving in a rush march 2020 b/c of covid....
anyways, june has been chill for the most part... don't think anything too big happened but there have been lots of family/friend hangouts which is so nice to do again. i did have some annoying things happen thoo that im blaming on mercury in retrograde -_- lol ,but i am also serious, i also finally got off the waitlist after so fucking long and now have a regular therapist i can see weekly :'-) alhamdulillah. oh also, super randonmly just got another part-time job ,which is cool,it's not like officially confirmed, but like almost is, but i wanna focus on my creative projects more now too so hoping i can balance that all out with working too.
with it almost officially being 6 whole months of 2021 (honestly, wtf is time?!) i do feel like i wanna step up my game..... like i feel im not reaching my potential
anyways this past week has been pretty hectic
-Friday i had work off, but my first therapy sesh and then i legit stayed up until 4 am doing deco for tey's party
-sat was tey's party and it was so fun but also so tiring
sun-was father's day and we went to visit nanabu
- i think mon + tue i rested and caught up on sleep, which was good. but i also felt pretty lazy lol
-wed was more productive, i ran errands and caught up on some work
-thur / today, had work, went to target quickly after and talked with faria, came home walked waffles and soon after ali and tey came ffor dinner
-fri, i have work, therapy after, then have to get ready and mom and i are going to z aunti's party
sat-might hang with Jannat and Sun will probs taake waffles to Matt's so the dogs can play.
anyways, it just turned 9 but im already pretty sleepy. i gotta stay up for a bit to watch this show for work for a bit which im annoyed about cuz i don't really wanna watch ugh, but hopefully i sleep well tonight.
i def have been feeling emotional and that's prob b/c my period is coming but also....i think there's just been a lot going on for me internally and emotionally as well. i also am glad things are 'better' but this delta variant doesn't loook good and ofc it's scary with dad's condition....inshAllah things stay under control this time....
oh and looking back just now, i realized my last two posts included how things were going with a.... it was getting better, but then basically went downhill again :/ don't know exactly where we stand now....so that sucks but honestly it is what it is at this point.