Mei !

so, i watched Look Back the other day and it was an experience to say the least.

My, my, your eyes like fire

I'm a winged insect, you're a funeral pyre

MONSTER ‘怪物’ (2023)

dir. Hirokazu Kore-eda

MINATO APOLOGIZING SHYLY AND YORI COPYING HIS GESTURE AFTERWARDS!! they are so dear to me, i love to see them both navigate through life. it absolutely ruins me how even as a fifth grader, they both know how different they are and that different means bad and how they're both doomed to be unhappy.

to be a monster is to live on the margin, putting hopes for their future (literally) hidden as a message to be decoded. wishing someone could find it. maybe as a sign that they're both here! they exist!! together!

despite the open ending (and my pessimistic first impression towards it), i'd love to think that they're safe and happy in the end.

When she left, she wept a great deal; she said to me, "This parting must be endured, Sappho. I go unwillingly."

"all the violet tiaras, braided rosebuds, dill and crocus twined around your young neck"

"myrrh poured on your head"

"and on soft mats girls with all that they most wished for beside them"

"while no voices chanted choruses without ours, no woodlot bloomed in spring without song..."

the stickers i've made this year! :)

a margin, a distance, a gap, a breath, a fabric in between.

close but never close enough. a phantom kiss that lingers between a heartbeat