Istahtaisinkohan

I always assume the train will be so boring and I bring seven things to do but then I'm entranced by the wonderful window the entire time

its so scary making plans with new friends. what if i suggest something stupid and we have a terrible time and they find out im a fraud and not a real human being

terrifying when you watch a movie or a show or whatever & youre like that was fun but it felt a little redundant they didnt need to hammer the point home that much & then you go online & theres thousands of people going that was so weird i did not get it what did that mean google.com ending explained please?

*turns my attention inwards* mmmmm. no *turns my attention back outwards* oh god

turn your attention to The Character

[ID: drawing of someone talking about explosions, stabbings, and sloppy makeouts with an evil grin, labeled *Spitballing some insane shit related to the media you're fixated to*. someone in the background gives a silent +1 like, labeled oomf from another fandom. the first person whips around to look at them, suddenly embarrassed]

I was debating pre- and post- smartphone existentialism with an older gentleman today and he stopped part way through and said “Why are you a security guard? Why aren’t you teaching this at some college somewhere?” And I didn’t know what to say so I went with “Well I used to make art but nobody pays an artist”

I want to invoke thought and wonder and introspection and encourage the passions of every soul I meet forever and ever and dig until I find the glorious potential for creation and experience and joy in every single one but unfortunately I must pay rent and so I stand, a meat shield, an NPC with unlockable dialogue

#capitalism brain tells you that anyone interesting must fight to the top of their interest#and precludes the possibility of everyone everyone everyone already being interesting