Life and Giggles

going to be finally using this thing again. get ready for vent sessions and weird thoughts 

will update you more on the deeper things...its good to be back! 

Now the real reason why i am writing this post. I have known this person for quite a few years now. The person knows everything about me. The ins and out to what i am thinking. Fuck at one point the person knew what i was thinking before i did. yes i know that is impossible but that's how much the person knew about me. So we have been close for ohh sooo long and then things changed. Fuck i changed a ton. and things just didnt work out. i currently am not talking and the effort from the person doesnt exist. I miss this person a ton and of course i still love em it just right now i cant deal with what happened. yes i am over reacting about what happened but it still hurt me. so i wonder if things will ever go back to being cool again. what i see in the near future is little to none. will tell more about the story when i feel the need to let it fully out. right now not worth it. to that person i love you always, just right now i cant deal with you

Mannn where to start...well moved back home. Still wondering if it was a good or bad idea. I think good. I am more focused since i have been back. Its been quite lonely but i mean thats normal considering im the only child. I missed out on some things in sf. Also i did come clean to people i crushed on hard in sf. The normal response i got from most of them. Ohh well good to know. Sooo since ive been back to sac all i do now is chill, ball is life, and food adventure. Since ive moved back i have lost 18 pounds. My goal to being back to a solid 175 lbs is surely going to come by the end of the year. Slowly but surely it'll happen. Being back in sac i dont really meet new people. But i mean i enjoy the people i have in my life now. Actually pretty surprised at how willing they were to taking me in. Life is funny sometimes and i hope things work out for me. Cross your fingers for me. So thats it for now im sure ill vent about something quite soon. But until then thank for reading my post. Much love to you!