Tyoma :)

Officially, I made this account 2 years ago and started using it a year ago... Time really does fly, but i can't say it improved much at all.

I try to cheer myself up by thinking "well, who would I be without all this trauma?? I wouldn't be as funny!!". And then I sob. Like yeah, maybe I wouldn't be this funny but I'd feel whole for the first time in my life lol

I could recognize you from hundreds of photos. Photos where you're barely in the photo. Photos of your back turned. I know every strand of hair on that head of yours. I follow every account you've ever made. I know every single thing you've written about any topic you're interested in. There's not one person on this Earth that could love you as much as I do.

Every single time I think I'm at my lowest I just keep going lower, and lower, and lower.

Life feels so empty, and then sometimes a good few 4 hours hit me like a truck, and then it's emotional static again for another 2 months.

I love my boyfriend a lot, and in retrospect, he's worth it, 100%. Worth it over my lw, worth it over getting to my goal weight, worth it over feeling some sense of superiority as I see the numbers go down. So why do I still continue to do this?

Somehow unless I'm at an all time high, it always feels like I'm at the absolute lowest. There's no in between.

My ed is ruining my life, I'm really sorry to anyone who might see this :(. I try to post as much as I can, but I exams and life in general are really kicking my ass atm!!

Everytime I'm at my lowest, everyone around me freezes. Somehow the only advice there is for me is that "it'll get better". When? When is this "better"?? Why did it not happen to me yet?? What am I doing wrong??

Okay, you slept for a few hours and that's why you couldn't message me.... so you hate me is what I'm understanding??

"Why are you acting like ___?" because it's a symptom of a disorder I told you I have. "Well, my other friend who has __ doesn't act like you do." ..Okay?