s. r. - it’s been a long, long time
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i thought of this idea while listening to “it’s been a long, long time” and at first i wanted to make it pure fluff, but that didn’t work out lmao, all russian words in here are from google translate!
During a mission, Hydra had finally caught you. They were ready to make you into the new Winter Soldier, unless you would give them exactly what they want.
Warnings: none? i tried to make it sad Word count: 1,842 24/12/2019
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“маленький,“ a low, mocking voice entered the dark room that you were in. You didn’t know how much time had passed, it could be anywhere from hours to weeks. The only lightsource in the room was the dim light from the lightbulb that was hanging from the ceiling, occassionaly swaying from left to right. When the door had opened, the bright light from the hallway shone right into your eyes. The room was small and cold. You were alone, except for the times where a Hydra soldier would come in.
They came in for different reasons. If you were lucky, it would be a soldier bringing a small amount of food and water, but if you weren’t.. You would be in for a ride. “Steven Grant Rogers, aliases Captain America, affiliated with the Avengers, romantically involved with Y/N Y/L/N.” Your tired eyes looked up at the soldier who was staring down at you, hands behind his back. “Y/N Y/L/N, affiliated with the Avengers, former worker at S.H.I.E.L.D, romantically involved with Steven Grant Rogers.” He spit out the information in a low voice, the accent making it slightly harder to understand what he had said. You had a feeling that this wasn’t a soldier that would be kind enough to bring you food.
Another voice could be heard from the hallway, the door still slightly opened, You couldn’t understand it fully, but soon enough you were pulled up. Standing on your own was hard, your legs were shaking and a headache was forming from the sudden movement together with the bright lights. You knew what moment would come. “Still no answers, маленький?” You tightly pressed your lips together, you would not give them the answers that they want. The whereabouts of Steve and the Avengers. The soldiers looked at eachother and with a small nod, they both took your arms, dragging you through the hallways to the door that you had come to fear. “No, no, no,” you whispered, trying to escape the grasp. Things that happened behind the door were never a good thing. A doctor would come in, injecting you with some kind of serum before whispering two words in your ear. “Hail Hydra.”
This time was no exception. They strapped you onto the metal seat, restraints tight around your body. “это новая версия.” This is the new version. The doctor nodded, taking the syringe from the soldiers hands before making his way to you. You absolutely hated this, the syringe, the serum, the stinging. The effect would be worse. Steve. It was always Steve. He would enter the room, but you could see in his eyes that he wasn’t your Steve. His actions would soon follow up to that. Punching, kicking, throwing and screaming. The violent actions made your body hurt, but you couldn’t fight back. You wouldn’t. Hydra wanted answers, they wanted to know everything about the Avengers. You wouldn’t give it to them. “You already know what’s coming, don’t you, маленький? Hail Hydra.“ The syringe sinked into your arm, and the bright room suddenly turned dark.
Only moments later the light came back and it felt like you were laying on something that was much softer than the metal seat. Birds were chirping and when you had opened your eyes, you saw that you were outside. Slowly sitting up, you run your hands over your face before taking in your surroundings. This was different from anything you had seen before. Did they let you go? Were you free?
Stretching your legs, you slowly stood up before walking to the house in front of you. The door was opened, so getting in wasn’t hard. The house was your dreamhouse, the house that you had talked about to Steve. The two of you always talked about buying a house together, that way you had some privacy instead of living with all of your friends. After entering the house, you hear a song playing, a song that you recognized as one of the songs that Steve always played on the recordplayer that you had gotten him for Christmas last year. The interior of the house was definitely from the 40′s, it looked exactly like the pictures that Steve had showed you when the two of you looked through the old photoalbums. The song got louder as you walked through the house.
Never thought that you would be
You had nothing to defend yourself with, but for some reason, it didn’t feel like this area was dangerous. You had ended up in the kitchen, the music even louder now. You turn to the right, your eyes landing onto the fireplace in the middle of the room. A livingroom. The recordplayer was set onto the table next to the fireplace. You could hear footsteps, making you take a step back into the kitchen. A tall, blonde man came out of the hallway, placing the sketchbook and the pencil that he was holding right next to the record player. The man in front of you was awfully familiar.
Standing here so close to me
Your Steve. A big smile formed on your face, the pain that you had at Hydra totally washing away. You took small steps, ready to run into the livingroom to finally have him in your arms again. But, before you could take a step into the livingroom, something stopped you. You frowned, placing your hand in front of you, pressing it against the invisible wall that had formed between the kitchen and the room right next to it. You looked from your hand to Steve, and back to your hand. You pushed your shoulder against the invisible barrier, throwing your whole weight into it, trying to get through.
There’s so much I feel that I should say
The clicking of heels on tiles came from behind you and you turned around to see who it was. Peggy Carter, one of the founders of Shield, Captain America’s first love. With a small smile on her face she placed the groceries on the kitchentable, taking off her thin jacket and draping it over the chair. You could hear her humming along to the music, and for some reason, your eyes couldn’t leave her face. You had always admired her, she was a strong woman and you even had the chance to talk to her a few times. It seemed like no one saw you, it wasn’t like you were hidden. You just stood in the middle of the doorway, a confused look in your eyes as you tried to understand why you couldn’t enter the room.
But words can wait until some other day
Peggy straightened her skirt before walking to the doorway that you were standing in, walking right past you and towards Steve. She was able to walk through it.. Why couldn’t you? Your fist pounded on the invisible wall, trying to get Steve his attention. “Why, don’t you look incredible,” Peggy’s gentle voice rang through the room. Steve looked up from the sketchbook that he previously had picked up again and placed the pencil on the page before closing the book. He smiled brightly, his blue eyes lighting up like stars in a night sky. “Care for a dance?” He stood up, extending his hand out to her. Tears formed in your eyes as you knocked on the invisible wall, harder than before. He loved you, he told you that over and over. You never blamed him for still loving Peggy, she was an amazing woman. He had left her in the past, but he would not forget her, which you understood fully. You had been there for him when she passed away, going to the funeral to support him and to pay respects to the woman. He had always said that she was his love in his past, and you were his love till the end of time.
“Steve, please, it’s me!“
Kiss me once, then kiss me twice
The love in their eyes was flowing through the room, sparkling bright while the tears in your eyes couldn’t help themselves from streaming down your face. Steve his arms were around her waist while Peggy had her arms over his shoulders, her hands resting on the back of his neck. Both had a smile on their face, staring into eachothers eyes while the sunshine was shining through the windows. Steve leaned down, resting his cheek on Peggy’s head and swaying from left to right. Your eyebrows furrowed, it looked like he was looking straight into your eyes. Your fist pounded on the wall again, desperate words leaving your mouth as you tried to get his attention. “Please, it’s me! I’m right here!” No matter how much you got beaten and hurt, nothing hurt more than seeing the man you love with someone else.
Then kiss me once again
“Y/N?“ Steve his arms left Peggy as he took slow steps towards you. You were frozen in your spot, wanting to run to him, but the barrier was still inbetween the two of you. “Y/N, wake up!“ A confused look in your eyes as you slightly tilt your head while looking at him. You were awake, weren’t you?
“Y/N, doll, please. We have to leave!”
You gasped for air, eyes wide open as you sit up straight. Instead of the warm room, you were back in the room at Hydra. Where was Steve? He finally saw you. “Babygirl, you have to calm down for me.” Your head whipped to the right, there he was. You shook your head, Steve in the Hydra room. This couldn’t end well. You pushed yourself closer to the chair and farther away from Steve. His eyebrows furrowed and a hurt look formed in his eyes. “Doll, we don’t have a lot of time, you really have to trust me now?”
His eyes were bright, no sign of danger and when you looked around, you didn’t see any Hydra soldiers, except for the one who was on the floor, unconcious. Your eyes met Steve his eyes again and before you could think about your actions, you had placed your hand in his. He immediately pulled you up, leaving the room and running through the hallways. “Stark, have the jet ready. We’re almost out.” At the exit you spot a small group, and Steve nodded to them. “How is she doing?” You heard a hushed voice, sounding a lot like Bucky. “I don’t know what they did, but it didn’t look good.”
Your eyes were fixed onto the sky which had turned all kinds of colors, painting a pretty picture. It had been a while since you had seen the sky, and right now, it was al you could be focussed on. Soon enough the group entered the jet, immediately starting it before Steve sat down, you on his lap while gripping his arm tightly. He wrapped the other one around you too, pressing a kiss on your forehead before burrying his face in your hair.
“You’re safe, doll. I got you.”
It’s been a long, long time

















