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Disclaimer: SUPER LONG POST This year has been one HELL of a ride. I've lost and gained many many things this year. Overall, I'm so grateful and blessed to have experienced this year. This year may have been total shit BUT every year has its ups and downs. I don't know how to start stuff like this but I just want to say thanks to everyone in my life. Thank you Sugoi Squad for having me in your team. Half of this year was spent with you guys and honestly, you guys are awesome. Each and every one of you guys. I love the time we spent together as team and building the team together. All the competition and all the non competitive ones were always so fun! Dancing with you all was truly an amazing experience, on and off stage. Nikko and Nhi, thank you for leading this team. I hope you two continue to dance and grow with this team. You two did an amazing job getting us together. I hope we all can continue to dance together next year. Thank you Diamond Stars for making me a part of your team/family. I've known you guys ever since I was 15 and HOLY! That was a long time ago. Serious thank you guys for being there for me. I have cherished all the times we've spent together. From playing Wangan Maximum Tune to playing Remie Ball to just talking about shit exploding, all of it. We've watched each other grow to what we are now and I hope we can continue to do so. TEN RENS! Oh man! Honestly you guys are so funny! I love the fact that whenever I work with any of you guys, it's always chill. EVEN WHEN I'M IN A BAD MOOD, somehow it always turns out to be an ok time. I can't forget about Tea Time Express, where I actually started! Thank you for shaping me into a person that can communicate. LOL but seriously, thank you guys for also being my friend. LET'S CONTINUE TO MAKE TEN RENS GREAT! =D MCDGTR plus BEN! I know we all aren't as close as we use to be. But, to be honest, I wouldn't be where I am without you guys. I think it's funny that till this day, I still talk about all the funny shit we all use to do when we were in high school. I really want to us to come back together one day and just do life... LOL life brought us together then, it will bring us together again. NUWAVE you shits!! Especially thankful for you guys! You guys help me back up when I was at my lowest. I'm so thankful that you guys were there for me when I was or else I wouldn't know where I would be right now. I cannot wait to do more stupid shit with you guys. Thank you! Mom and Dad, thank you for having me and giving this life. Thank you for being the chillest parents ever! I know I haven't been the best son ever, but I will try to be better at it. I love you two both. Thank you for everything. Paul, thank you. I know I say it to you all the time. BUT HONESTLY, thank you. You were there to literally hold my hand through this whole year. Think about that. Let it sink in. I seriously would of cracked if you weren't there. From the beginning of this year till today! Thank you so much for being my best friend. MATT YOU TWO! I know it hasn't been like that! BUT YOU KNOW! Honestly, I know we don't talk or see each other as much anymore, but I know no matter what the situation is, we will always find a way to be there for each other. This also goes for Paul. You two are such a big part of my life. I love you two to death! Thank you so much for being my best Bros! Remie, thank you for being in my life. You've always been like the older brother I've never have before. But even so, thank you for always looking out for me. Trini, thank you for being there for me. You have honestly helped me so much the pass couple of months. Without you, I'd probably be in a worst place. Thank you for helping me believe in myself. Thank you for my friend. THANK YOU FOR DANCING WITH ME! Sister, Nica! Thank you for also being there for me. I know I've been a bad brother and not being there for you and looking after you, but I promise you I will be better. You know I love you and if anyone were to hurt you or if you hurt yourself, I will there to protect you or take you to wherever. Thank you for dealing with my annoying habits. Thank you for being my sister. There are so so so many people I want to thank! TOO MANY! I will say this though, thank you for being my friend. I know I can always go to any of you guys for almost anything. I am so grateful to have all of you guys in my life. I cannot begin to describe how I feel about you all. 2016 was one hell of year. There were many bad things that happen and what not, BUT that's life. Better to concentrate on the good things. 2017 is going to be even harder. More intense! MORE EXTRA! I keep saying it, but I do not know where I would be without all of you guys. Everyone in my life is so awesome which makes my life so awesome. I LOVE YOU ALL! I hope we all can continue to be friends. Continue to grow together. Experience more things together. And smile together. Thank you for being my family.

I think I've finally reached that limit. The limit where you know you're going to explode. I sound so dramatic and pathetic. I've finally reach that bottom that I've been running away from this whole time. I know I'm there because almost every minute I ask myself, "where am I? What am I doing here? Who am I?". I've ran away for so long. I want to start a new. But that's the thing, would that be consider running away? Sometimes I wish I would forget everything. I wish I can fall and keep falling until someone catches me. My feelings is a storm, always raging. Always mysterious. Always waiting strike. I want to confess everything. I want get everything that I've always wanted to say finally off my chest/shoulders. It's going to hurt. But I know, things happen for a reason. If things are meant to happen, they will happen and I'll let it come.